I need a miracle.
Friday is the last day they are paying for us not able to work because of the tornado event.
We have to find alternate place to work from home that is not a hotel.
I am here alone.
The approved states do not include anyone I know.
I can’t afford a ham sandwich right now or funds to move across the street.
Thoughts, God?
Asking for me now,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note:
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
I am.
I am:
More than a writer.
More than what I give.
More than what I know.
And, so, beloveds, are you.
I am.
I am:
Enough.
More than enough.
More than a conqueror.
And, so, beloveds, are you.
I am.
I am:
Me.
Unique.
Uniquely me.
And, so, beloveds, are you.
I am.
I am!
And, so, beloveds, are you.
Ah.
Aha!
🥰
being me,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: You are amazing! You are infinitely loved! You are fearfully and wonderfully made(the Bible says). You are incredible! You are!🥰❤️🩹♥️
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
Alone.
With MY thoughts??!!
Dear God!
Why?!!!
Don’t You know I have an ENDLESS supply of random dumbness?!!!
Who shall rescue me from ME!?
Geeeeeeez.
Hmmm…
*Cassandra scrounges around in her random dumbness bag and sees all types of goodies she can get into*
thinking randomly dumb things whilst waiting for the lights to come on,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Day who cares…*pout*. Hang in there, beloveds. Make sure to laugh today. No need in pouting over whatever you are pouting and fretting over. Someone have a cup of coffee for me. Asking for a friend.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
❤️🩹😥
Nuff said.
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: *sigh*. I tried to call a counselor we can access via work…*sigh*. I have to finish setting up account ONLINE before I can make an appointment. Just got notice Hotspot speed being turned down. Can barely view anything while waiting for internet. 😭
I’m NOT okay, beloveds. I have turned into a fine actor as I let fam and friends know ‘It’s not THAT bad’ so they won’t feel too bad for me.
Am listening to Leona Lewis ‘Footsteps In The Sand and crying. Not sure why the tears. The lights are on but still feels the same as when the lights went off.
God, what do I DO with ME, now? Asking for a friend.
Br encouraged, beloveds. Keep reaching out if you need a friend or support. Relationships take tending and outreach. Practice with me if need be.
Yesterday, I was watching a 25 year old who did a YouTube video where she shared she was lonely and never had a friend. I hurt for her and all those who are feeling alone and unloved. I love you, beloveds, if that means anything. ❤️🩹♥️
Things are NOT hopeless. The way is just hard. That’s okay. We are just making diamonds in our shoes as we walk up Joy Mountain. Keep going.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
Me: Can I be honest with You?
God: I wish you would.
Me: I don’t want to hurt Your Feelings or want you to think I am not thankful.
God: What troubles you?
Me: You.
God: Me? Whatever for?
Me: 50 percent of folks have power. I look out my window and see lights on. Yet, here I sit, in the dark. Still. I wonder why I never seem to be in Your 50 percent who has lights, who have families to sit with, who have dreams fulfilled. Why, God, do I ALWAYS seem to be of the 50 percent who has to ‘make the best of it’ while others enjoy light and dreams.🥺
God: Fair question(s). Would it help to ask you to trust Me?
Me: Not really.
God: Trust me.
Me: K. Shall I tell You a ridiculous story, filled with food of course, as we wait for the lights to come on.
God: Yes, please! Make it super silly. May I ask YOU a question, beloved?
Me: Sure.
God: Of the 50 percent with lights on, beloved, how many do you imagine have stopped by for a story, a hug, a quiet conversation with Me?🥺
Me: Ah, God. I sowwy. Perhaps, the lights have ALWAYS been on for me so You are able to trust me in and with the darkness.
God: Ah.
Me: Aha!❤️🩹♥️🥰. I love You. No matter where. No matter what. No matter why.
God: K.❤️🩹♥️🥰
loved,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Life rarely is fair. Yet, it’s worth living. Be encouraged. Your turn SHALL come. In the meantime, tell a story during your darkness. Asking for A Friend.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
“Shut it up, Cassandra!”
Yep, beloveds, both God AND me told me to shut it!
I had just started fussing, deservedly so I gallantly told myself. I was hot. I was tired of waiting for the sun to come up. I was tired of waiting for the lights to come on.
I was tired of waiting…
SHUT IT!
WAIT!
PATIENTLY!
I shut it.
I wait.
Patiently.
Geeeeeeez.
🥰🤣😳
If God protects us from the tornado, beloveds, shall He not also ensure we make it AFTER the storm has passed?
He shall. Be encouraged. Until your lights come on:
Rejoice.
Sing.
Laugh.
KNOWING that all IS and ever shall be alright.
encouraged with you,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I love you. Nuff said.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
Day 4.
Day 4!!
Whew!
Me and the heat have been boxing 🥊 for four days. The winner has yet to be determined. Tell that to my gasping, heaving, half naked Buddha self. 🥰🤣😂
I am figuring things out. I have alloted myself 10 percent daily of my writing phone so I can listen to music and prepare pieces.
At midnight, the dark was so dark I wanted music for company. Battery 🔋 told me I had already used my ten percent for the day and had to wait for tomorrow.
Sssssshhhhheeeeeeeeeeuuuuuuuutt!
I have my work chair situated in front or the air conditioner that does not work so I can coax a bit or breeze from the wind who is currently saying no way to that.
Sssssshhhhheeeeeeeeeeuuuuuuuutt!
I have been rereading ‘The Master Stroke’ by Elizabeth Gage. An EXCELLENT read!🥰 I am reading 📖 it slowly. Savoring EVERY page.
I have been wanting to get back into reading. I stopped reading after mom died. I can’t even tell you or me why that has been.
Last year, I began to restock my library. I didn’t start reading. Too busy. Too tired. Too don’t ask me…*shrug*
In darkness, I contemplated what I would do when the lights came on. I decided to keep living, in the darkness. I took God with me.
Now, as I await the return of lights and ‘normal’, I bring ‘normal’ into THIS darkness. I write. I sing. I pray. I 😂 laugh. I talk to God about THE dumbest things. Like I have ALWAYS done.🥰🤣
Keep on living, beloveds, no matter what happens. Life is short. Life is good. Even when it’s hot, dark, and no idea what comes next.
being about it,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Lift up your head. You matter. Ah, beloveds, get on out there and live! Open your heart. Speak your truth. Be. Do. Laugh. Launch out. You can do this thing called life. You can. Doing this with you…
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
Me: I can’t do another day of this. It’s hot. It’s dark. I’m alone.
God: You can. I’m right here with you.
Me: It’s hot. I’m tired.
God: I know. Tell me a story. Make it a good one! Make sure you throw some good food products in there!
Me: K. Once upon a time…
hanging in there(I 🤔 think),
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: When life hands you ANOTHER tornado…whew!❗️🚨❤️🩹😳🌪
I was telling God I can NOT believe I am in the aftermath of another tornado. Hurricane Katrina was no joke. We had no power for 9 days. No water to flush the toilet. No food.
I am trying to use lessons learned, then, to help me, now.
Now and then…geeeez!
Keep using your thens to help your nows, beloveds. These times are not here to break us. What the hell they ARE for is up for debate.🤣🥰
Am in battery saving mode. It will be interesting posting these when the lights come on.
Ah, God. Hurry. I can’t do another day…
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
I’m angry.
I don’t know why.
Every now and then, I take a swipe at Life, at God, at myself, at…*shrug*
Change is tough. Growth can be frustrating and slow. In the meantime can be agonizing.
We want MOVEMENT DAMMIT!!🤯🤕😭😳❤️🩹♥️
WE WANT OUR DREAMS NOW DRAT IT ALL!
Just bring HONEST with God has helped. I have apologized to Him ten times already today. I sowwy, God.😳😁🤣🥰
Be encouraged. Where you find yourself KNOW you are never alone. If you need some encouragement, reach out and let folk know.
By the by, I checked the fridge for snacks and see Maggie has eaten the last of the Oreos. How DARE she. Smh. Maggie, I thought me and you wuz people.🤣🥰
Take care of yourselves, beloveds. Your heart is much too important to be ran empty. Refresh. Get refilled. Rest. Get some fresh air.
Above all, beloveds, look beyond your present circumstances. Believe me, living through this tornado has me looking forward to try and see what I can see. Reality wants to tell me all is lost and I am hopelessly behind.
I am NOT lost. I am in HIS Hands. How much safer can I be?
forever grateful,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: We got this…
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
Reality wanted to set in.
Yea, beloveds, Reality wanted to rent space in my mind:
Reality: You sure are in a pickle! Look at this mess! Phew! All this rotten garbage smells awful.
Me: It does.
Reality: Wow, Cassandra. You are down to nothing. No working car battery. Empty bank account. Few friends. WHO is there for you now?
Me: I hear you. Things are not always what they appear to be.
Reality: Where is God? What of Your Homie, Jesus? Where…
Me: Shut the hell up and get to stepping!!😡🥊🫸
Be encouraged, beloveds. I’m trying my best to be. There are soooooooooooo many needs I can do nothing about.
I find I don’t know how to ask for help for ME. I need help. I need encouragement. I could use a friend or two.
I wish I had someone during this time.
I wish…
Ah, beloveds, Reality is wanting to settle in. I’m hot. I’m tired. I feel alone.
The lights are on but still feel as though I am sitting in the darkness.
Someone tell me a story.
asking for A Friend,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: This blog is primarily for you, beloveds. Tonight, I wish it could be for me. Ah, God. Where are You, at the moment? I feel soooooooo alone. What do I DO with me now? Asking for a friend.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
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