Category: walking

Day 3: God, why am I still here?

Me: Why am I here? STILL?!

God: Why on earth would you ask?

Me: Why!? What USE am I? What GOOD am I doing? I am:

Old.

Fat.

Alone.

55!!

Broke.

Broken.

😥😥

God: You are many things to Me and others. You are:

Loved.

Seen.

Cherished.

Heard.

Valued.

Know yet not, beloveds, your value has nothing to do with your production or lack thereof, in YOUR eyes. My Eyes see you much differently.

Me: How so?

God: Great question! Keep asking. In the meantime, cut yourself some slack. Know that I love you and am right here with you, in this present darkness. Tell me another story.

Me: K. Once upon a time…

wondering what to do with me now,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: When sudden change comes upon suddenly, beloveds, hold on. Be encouraged. The world has turned upside down for me. Thanos has snapped his fingers. Ah, beloveds, the avengers SHALL show up for us. He promised. I believe God. Nuff said. In case no one has told you today: I love you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Day 3: No reason to stop.


No reason to stop.

No storm shall stop me from pursuing my dreams.

No reason.

No!

I shall:

Press forward.

Press on.

Press through.

In the dark.

In the light.

In the rain.

I have thangs to do!

doing thangs,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep going, beloveds. We got thangs to do. Be encouraged. Though your steps falter, though your heart quivers, though your shoulders slump, lift up your head!

We CAN.

We WILL!

When this battery dies, I shall write, STILL, in my ♥ heart. I shall continue to endeavor to ever pen words of encouragement and love. Ah, beloveds, be encouraged. I love me some you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Day 3: Afraid not, I’m afraid.

Fear: Aren’t you afraid?

Me: Afraid not, I’m afraid.

Doubt: Don’t you Doubt things will work out?

Me: Afraid not, I’m afraid.

Anger: Don’t you want to tell God to kick rocks for not protecting you?

Me: Afraid not, I’m afraid.

Fatigue: Don’t you want to give up on this dream fulfillment foolishness already?!

Me: Afraid not, I’m afraid.

Fear/Doubt/Anger/Fatigue: Well, why in the hell not??!!😠😡🤯😱

Me: Because, God has NOT given me a spirit of fear but of love and of a sound mind. More than enough for me. Anymore stupid/unnecessary questions?

🎤 drop.

Nuff said,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. Tell fear and the like to take two seats and kick rocks. Stand on your faith. You can do this…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Day 2: Chicken strips and fries saved my life.

God: Make some chicken strips and fries.

Me: Now?! It’s after 1 in the morning!😴

God: Go make them anyway.

Me: K.

I was tired, beloveds. Super sleepy. For some reason, my spirit just would NOT let me go to sleep.

It was on me to go make some chicken strips.

I made chicken strips. The moment they were done the tornado 🚨 sirens lost their minds.

A bit after that…🌪 🌪 🌪…

They have estimated three 🌪 hit. 300 plus lines are down.

I am using this time to rest and reflect. Here is the latest text I sent out to fam/friends:

ALL I have thought about is checking on folk.

Life is short. Please, please, please think it nit strange all that is going on in your life right now.

LISTEN to the ridiculous and small things God asks you to do that may turn out to be life savers. I am enjoying my chicken strips and fries! In the dark. With God. With you.

Life is good. Even when it’s hard. Will send this the next time I turn on my texting phone.

You know, beloveds, it’s really interesting what we find essential when having to ration battery time. Ah, another post topic!😆

living life anyway,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: What a week I am having. 🚨🌪😳❤️‍🩹😥🔥🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏😭😱🤯🙏🙏❗️❗️😳🥺🤣😆😴🥰🥰

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Day 2: Am in my ‘so what?!’ phase.

Me: It’s 🔥 hot!

Me: So what?!

Me: I have no one to talk to.

Me: So what?!

Me: The phone is almost dead.

Me: So what?!

Me: NO one loves me. I am all alone. It’s hot dammit.


Me: So what?!

Me: I’m tired of being in the dark.

Me: So what?!

Me: It may take a week or more to get power.

Me: So what?!

Me: I’m missing the playoffs.

Me: So what?! Okay, so that IS kinda messed up.😭

Me:🥰🤣

Life is short, beloveds. When hare tosses you some super hard things, say ‘so what?!’ and keep it moving as best you can.

asking for A Friend,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep going. Everything will be alright.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Repeat after me: I can do amazing things.

Repeat after me:

I can do amazing things.

I am amazing.

I can do life changing things.

My life is changing simply by me doing me to the best of my abilities.

I can do amazing things.

I have nothing to fear.

Yes, I shall fail.

Failing and falling comes with achieving amazing things.

I shall continue to amaze myself with my try.

I choose to see the beauty within me. Yes, I recognize that I may, at times, do some ugly things but I promise to do all within me to live, love and react with love.

I am amazing.

I can and will continue to do amazing things.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Beloveds, you are amazing! You are! Ah, beloveds, lift up your heads. Know you are not alone. Life can feel awfully lonesome as we trudge up the hill called what the fresh hell. Fear not. Keep climbing. I climb with you. As does He. Let’s enjoy the journey, shall we? In case no one has told you yet today: I love you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Don’t focus on what you see.

Don’t focus on what you see, beloveds.

Focus on what you are trying to bring into existence.

See through the eyes of FAITH. Tell fear/doubt to kick rocks. REFUSE to allow your image to be clouded and viewed through the eyes of fear and doubt.

The unknown can be a frightful thing if you are not certain of your steps. That said, as long as you KNOW Who is taking care of the unknown, you can walk confidently.

I am doing my best to NOT focus on what I think I see. My perceptions are currently being clouded by bills, bills, bills and more bills. Makes it hard to focus on enjoying life and doing what I know to do and everything else WILL come out in the wash.

I was laying in bed, in tears, wondering if ever will ever come. I woke and told myself I will focus, as best I can, on what I can currently see and do.

In the meantime, beloveds, keep on keeping on. When will I stop saying this? When we have all crossed the finish line!

You CAN.

You WILL.

believing in and for us all,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Remain hopeful. Remain joyful. Laugh at doubt and fear and tell them to kick some rocks. Love someone. Starting with you. I got your back. God has us all.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

When even hard says what the fresh hell?

Hard: What in the fresh hell is THIS?!

Me: I dunno. I was fixin’ to ask you the same thing!

Hard: Why do you think Life is coming at us soooooooooooo hard?

Me: I dunno. I was fixin’ to ask Life the same thing!

Me: Why are You being soooooooooooooooo hard on me and hard?

Life: He told me to.

Me: Who? What? Why? How?

Life: Great questions! Keep asking.

Me: K.

Good crimeny, beloveds. Hard has been sooooooooooooooo hard I hardly know what to do with it or me.

I fight on but golly gee willakers!

Whew!

Hang in there, beloveds. This time is NOT here to destroy us. Rather, this time is here to do many a thing. What those things are depends on our attitude and what we are willing to learn, or not, THROUGH all this blasted hardddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd!

I promised me that I REFUSE to give up. I don’t give two flying fiddlesticks what is going on. I don’t care who gives up on me. I don’t care who walks away from me. I could care less about anything other than standing fast and holding on.

Be encouraged, beloveds. Keep on fighting for you and your dreams. I know. I know I say this EVERY day. I shall continue to say this until I am holding my dreams in my cold dead hands…..lol.

In the meantime, beloveds, don’t feel as though you are being punished because hard is just so terribly hard, right now. You are being promoted. If you couldn’t be trusted with this hard, you wouldn’t be put through this hard. Nuff said.

Enjoy your day. ALL of it. Even the hard. Take a breath. Take a break. Listen to some music. Read a book. Call a friend. Make a friend. Make some awesome memories. Life is short.

Remember, beloveds, that you CAN and that you most certainly WILL!

doing things with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You got this. As do I. In case no one has told you: I love you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Your little makes a whole lot.

*sigh*

I give.

What I have.

What I have sure doesn’t seem like much.

Yet, God reminds me of Jesus feeding 5,000 with folks few fish and loaves of bread.

Sooooooooooooooooooo, I give what I have:

My meager fish.

My half burnt, stale loaves of bread.

I ask for Him to bless them and feed as many folks as can be fed.

Ah, God. I wish I could do more. I wish I had more. I wish I could BE more for You and for others.

Until then, I shall continue to giving as much love as I can. Oh that it can and will be enough.

giving all that I have/am,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Give what you have. You are more than enough. As am I.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

God got me. No matter the storm.

Yall are reading a miracle, beloveds. As we speak I am typing these words by the light of my phone.

Why?

My city has just gone through an awful 🌪 tornado.

There are downed trees everywhere. I could hear the roar of the tornado 🌪 outside my door.

I hid in the bathroom and yelled at Jesus to spare my life and protect my car.

Trees are everywhere. All around my car and neighbors.

Folk are wandering around wondering how our apartments are still standing.

I came upon a neighbor, a stranger. I asked her if I could hug her. She said her name was Natalie or Natasha. I can’t remember.

I hugged a stranger as if hugging a long lost kin.

I sat in my car and did a few videos to encourage folk to be encouraged during the storms of life. I will post to Instagram soon.

I called a friend and told him he was talking to a miracle.

Daylight won’t come for me for another hour. The heat is stifling. I only have 26 percent on my power pack.

The smell of gas leaks are all over our counties.

Not sure when the power will be on. Which means I will not be able to work from home.

Ah, God. Thanks for sparing my life. My heart aches as I went through the storm alone. Yes, you were there but I had no Jesus with skin on.

I was told to ‘be calm’ and ‘plead the blood of Jesus’ instead of hollering ‘Jesus help me’ over and over. I yelled, on the phone, don’t tell me how to pray when there is a 96 mile an hour 🌪 tornado in my yard!!!!

Am listening to some praise music wondering how I can encourage you, beloveds, when I don’t know what I shall see come daylight.

It’s a good thing I have pieces already scheduled to keep folk uplifted through Monday. As yall find encouragement, hopefully, maybe one or two or three of yall will say some prayers for me and others in my town and surrounding towns as we assess and move forward.

I don’t know how to feel. I’m not sure what to do.

Shaken but not stirred.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: 🌪😭❤️‍🩹😳😥

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!