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55: Deliciously vulnerable.

Vulnerable!

Naked!

Exposed!

Whew!

The closer I get to 55, the more vulnerable, naked and exposed I feel!

Yikes!

Delicious!

I want to:

Run.

Hide.

From:

Me.

Me?

Me!

This vulnerable me, is ready to take on the world. Leaving me, Cassandra, shakened AND stirred. Alive. Wondering. Wanting.

I used to be afraid to want. I was always afraid The Universe would say no or make me feel like a fool for wanting at all.

I used to be afraid.

I used to.

Ah.

Aha!

I am no longer fearful of being afraid. Of failing. Of failure.

Peace looks good on me!

Too many folk are running around trying to be ‘happy’ all the time. What does that even mean? For most, it means they want the world to be a butler and doing EVERYTHING for them. Ha!

I am vulnerable.

I am naked.

I am exposed.

Delicious!

deliciously vulnerable,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: 55 is almost here! What will she bring?!🥰

Remember:

You are loved and you are not alone.

Chronic things.

Life can be a pain.

Literally.

My vertigo was acting ten times a fool this week.

What a pain!

I have learned how to keep living when life is being a pain. I laugh. I cry. Add keep on keeping on best I can.

When going through things that just won’t stop, just don’t stop!

Life happens.

Make sure you happen to life. Put your input/stamp on things. No need in stamping around complaining about what is fair or not. So what? Boo hoo. You have had your cry, keep it moving.

I choose to be chronically joyful. It works for me.

chronically joyful,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: These tests and trials seem never ending, don’t they? They do end. I think. lol. In the meantime, get some you time in. I am considering chicken strips and tater tots for supper…hhmmm…scuze me…ehem…brb.

Love someone. Starting with you. You are loved. You are NOT alone. Keep on being… YOU!

♥ Heart check Wednesday.

It’s Wednesday.

Middle of the week.

Take a minute to just breathe.

All that has you concerned, sit it down. Just for a few moments. Ah.

Then, renew your try.

Then, be encouraged.

It’s okay to be frustrated/annoyed/confused. We all get there. Just means you care.

Keep going.

Don’t let lazy keep you under those warm covers. Lazy and I had quite the fight, this morning. Lazy did NOT want to join me and day, in getting breakfast made. I told Lazy to shut up and start th coffee ☕!

I told excuses to wash the dishes. Fear wasn’t having any, and took off before I sent it to awfully boring places.

Me and The Universe are seeing what all I can do to happen to my day. God told me to hurry, He and I got thangs to do.

being about it,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, beloveds, your dreams will not just come up to you and tap you on the shoulder. Your lover is not going to just knock on your door. Unless, he/she/they are the UPS or delivery person!….hhmm.

In the meantime, enjoy your day. All of it. Even the annoying parts teach us…hhmm…don’t ask me, they too annoying.😄

Remember to love someone. Starting with you. Pass some love, to your neighbors, and tell them to give some love away. Speaking of which:

You are loved. You are NOT alone. Keep on being… YOU

Repeat after me: The only one standing between you and your dream is you.

Repeat after me:

They only want standing between you and your dream as you.

The only thing holding you back is your fear.

The only one who can walk away is you.

Nuff said!

Now get out there and make it happen, beloveds.

getting after it,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: What the world you still doing here?! Go! Live! Hurry!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Fear, I am no longer afraid to feel…you.

Hey, fear.

Yes, I’m talking to you!

Surprised?

I imagine you are.

You are not used to seeing me, up close.

You were used to seeing me, fear, with my head down.

Afraid.

Afraid to:

Feel.

Acknowledge.

Hurt.

Cry.

I was always told I couldn’t cry. I was always till I had to be strong. I was always told that I could never be afraid.

So, I learned to be terrified of you, fear. After a while, fear, I forgot why I was supposed to fear…you?

I have learned.

I learn, still.

To:

Feel.

Acknowledge.

Hurt.

Cry.

For, I know, I am not strong. I don’t have to be.

Still, I am loved.

Still, I am not alone.

I shall continue to be…me.

Unapologetically.

Sometimes, afraid.

Loved, alway!

Yes, fear, ALL you do, when you show your face, is give me yet the opportunity to love, in spite of, because of, despite you!

I have to go now, fear. You thought you stopped me. You didn’t. I got thangs to do!

doing thangs unapologetically,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: This blog has changed my life. Truly. It has forced me to get to know…Me! Don’t be afraid, beloveds. To, ask. To, wonder. To, wander. To, fear. To, fret. To, feel.

Turn down, the noise. Listen, to your heart. Be encouraged. You are loved and not alone.

Fear, I’m afraid I no longer fear you.

Hey, fear.

Hate to break this breaking news, to you.

I’m afraid, fear that I no longer fear you.

Nope.

Nada.

Nary a wit, do I.

About you.

It’s time, fear, that YOU fear ME!

You, see, fear, God has helped me, to see you, for what you are:

An imagined, foe.

A finite, thing.

A wisp, in the wind, of change.

A possible friend, keeping me, from harm.

A possible foe, keeping me, from pursuing my dreams.

An imaginary monster, tucked into the closet of unknown.

God says:

Fear not.

Therefore:

I shall not:

Fear.

Run.

Hide.

Stress.

Fret.

Ah, fear, I hate to be the bearer of bad news, for you. For, I am YOUR bad news, today!

I can.

I have.

I will.

Go away now, fear.

I have thangs to do, I fear.

doing them thangs without fear,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Tell fear to shut up, beloveds. We got thangs to do, remember? Seize this day. You CAN. You already have.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

Repeat after me: It Is Well.

Repeat after me:

It is well.

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life has been awfully scary, this year. Bad, weather. Worse, finances. Rough, health issues. Seems like fights have broken out, everywhere. EVERYWHERE! Whew.

Yet, this year has been one of learning and experiencing and loving and crying and whining, er, praying and believing and not believing and trying and not trying and hoping and feeling hopeless and…you get my point.

The key, THE key, is to REMAIN:

Resolute.

Steadfast.

Joyful.

Faithful.

Hopeful.

We, each of us, CHOOSE, how are days, shall be. True, we can not choose that the day will come. Once day has arrived, we choose how we shall receive it.

Every day, now, I say out loud “This is the day the Lord has made. I SHALL rejoice and BE GLAD IN IT”. Psalm 118:24. This helps me get going and focused on the fact that I am the one, who determines what my day shall bring/be like.

Repeat after me:

It is well.

No matter what happens, beloveds, it IS well. Life is short.

When you have lost it all, remember you have not lost it all.

Losing, hurts.

Losing, helps one, keep perspective.

Losing, helps one, find perspective.

Losing, can help you find your way.

Losing, can help you let go.

Losing, can help you win.

It all depends on what you have lost:

Hope?

Fear?

Joy?

Doubt?

When you lose, take heart. Your greatest victories, often come on the heels of, your worst defeats.

Don’t lose, heart. Don’t lose, hope, when you lose.

It’s all in your perspective.

There is often addition, by subtraction. I am most grateful for the things God said no to, then some of the yes’.

Hold things, loosely. Leave the important things, in God’s Hands. They will be safe there.

As for the rest? The things you truly need, The Universe shall make sure you have!

Be encouraged. Embrace the day and all you may lose/gain, within it.

winning with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Seize this day!

Seize this day! https://www.instagram.com/reel/Cy6JjM2uxXD/?igshid=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Enjoy your life.

Stop allowing your obstacles to get in your way. Move them. Remove them. MAKE them work FOR you.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Me: Unapologetically.

Me.

Me!

ME!

Unapologetically.

Loud.

Proud.

To be.

Me.

Beloveds, don’t allow this world to silence YOUR voice. Do NOT, be ashamed of how you were made. You are! Period.

STOP, trying to fit in places where you were never meant to fit into!

You were meant to:

Stir, things up.

Turn things, upside down.

Right, wrongs.

Change, the status quo.

Be, outspoken.

Be, quiet.

Be, still.

BE!

The reason you feel different, is because YOU ARE DIFFERENT!

Being different, is not bad. It’s just…*shrug*…different.

You are loud.

So what?

You are quiet.

So what?

You are. as you are!

Be that!

Be YOU!

Unapologetically.

You can’t do, my, me. I can’t do, your, you.

Enough!

No more living your life, with apologies for taking up space/air.

Breathe.

Live.

Do, you.

Those who are not for you, can’t breathe your air. Eagles, dontcha know, SOAR. Those bad boys be all up in them clouds! Get on up there, beloveds!

STOP living your life, walking among chickens. I love eating, chicken. I have ZERO plans of walking among them! Chickens, you see, are folk who spend their lives hiding. They spend their days, criticizing others, for living lives, they long/wish they could live!

Come on, beloveds, we got thangs to do!

No matter what.

No matter who.

We shall, in fact, we WILL, continue to live our lives, unapologetically, won’t we?

living unapologetically,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, really? Get to living, beloveds. We got thangs, to do!

I love you.

So, does He.

You are NOT alone.