Ah, God. Why You keep bothering me?

Ah, God.

Ow!

Why You keep bothering me?

Why do You keep tempting me to go on up higher?

You know I can’t reach that high!

I’m scared of heights, God.

I’m afraid I will fall and hurt myself.

Ah, God.

Stop tugging on my heart.

Let her sleep.

Ah, God.

Why do You chase me even in my dreams?!

You must be mistaken.

This me does not know how.

This me has known so much disappointment.

Ah, God. Why You keep bothering me?

asking for a friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Ah, God. I don’t know how. Oh, God. Life hurts. Ow, God. My dreams keep hiding their face from me. What do I do with me now?

Hang in there, beloveds. At your lowest moment, KNOW you are NOT alone. Things WILL get better.

Climb on The Father’s Lap. Yell at Him, if need be. Cry if you want. Be quiet if you want. Just get on up there and tell Him life is picking on you.

You have NOTHING to be ashamed of. You have tried. Let your try be enough. The outcome is not for us to do. Just be.

I have let bills scare the hell out of me this past week. Think I will tell fear to shut up. Who is with me?

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

My why said hey.

Why: Hey.

Me: What do you want now?

Why: We got thangs to do!

Me: Why now? Why me? Why in fresh hell won’t you leave me be?!

Why: My! Feisty are we?

Me: What do you want now? You have messed up a perfectly delicious and boring day. What do you want?

Why: I need you to keep being you.

Me: Why though? Why ME?! Can’t you see that I am old/broke/black/female/loud and fifty million other things the world apparently neither sees, nor needs?

Why: What do they know? Let’s go! We got thangs to do!

Me: Geeeeeeezzz!

Why: 🥰🤣

apparently doing thangs with my why,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: 🤣. Beloveds, I write theeeeeeee most ridiculous things. In my opinion. I don’t know anyone else ridiculous enough to get into an argument with their why. Let alone be goofy enough to share such foolishness with the world.🥰😅🤣

Keep being you, beloveds. Ridiculous and all. Don’t worry about being judged. You shall be. So what? There are oodles of folk waiting for your particular brand of stupid and foolishness. Keep sharing the whole of you. So shall I. I love me some you. As does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

No way, beloveds.

No way, beloveds!

No way in hell shall we:

Give up.

Quit.

Walk away.

Heck no!

Keep going. I don’t care how long the fight has been.

So what?!

Get up!

We got thangs to do.

Stop giving up on yourself when the fire is especially hot and the way is terribly lonely.

So what?!

Get up!

We got thangs to do!!!

doing thangs with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: The LAST thing I wanted to do today, beloveds, was to encourage me. Let alone you. What did I do?

I got up.

I encouraged me.

I encourage you.

Get up!!!!!!!

We got thangs to do!!!!!!!!!!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

You are worth the time.

I am still not feeling the best.

Not quite.

I started to work.

Lasted all of 15 minutes. I reached out to one of my bosses and let her know I still was not feeling my best. She offered me the time to get better.

In times past, I would have chosen bills, others, this, that and the other thing.

Now, I am doing my utmost to be good to me.

I chose me.

My bills said what in the fresh hell.

My bod said thanks.

Take some time for YOU, beloveds. It’s not okay to run yourself ragged for bills, for others, for this, for that and the other thing.

When you are empty, get refilled.

When you are tired, get refreshed.

When you are in need of care, give it to yourself.

Be encouraged.

Someone leave out some snacks and clean up on the way out. Be sure and love someone. Starting with you. Someone post a fantastic note for the rest of us. I honestly don’t have the energy for it today.

choosing me,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, just a tiny note. How’s YOUR heart, today? Please take care of it. It’s priceless. So, are you. So, am I. Which is why I chose me and fixing to head for a nap. I have spent the better part of a month allowing bills to scare the bejeez out of me instead of casting my cares upon Him. God don’t need sleep. Hurry, Father, we are in need. Help those who need a bit of love and care. Bless those who could use some comfort/joy/peace. Be with all who are lonely. Keep feeding those who hunger. Amen. P.S. Tell Jesus I am waiting on Him to kick it with me for the rest of the the day. Asking for a friend…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Alone, I sit with thee.

Me: Come here. Sit with me.

Alone: I am alone.

Me: So am I. Come sit with me.

Alone: NO one wants to sit with me!

Me: I know. They are afraid of you.

Alone: Whatever for?!

Me: They are really afraid of what others will think of you sitting with them.

Alone: Why?

Me: I don’t know. Okay, I know. I just don’t want to hurt your feelings.

Alone: Tell me…

Me: Well, I used to be terrified of you. Afraid of what you would see in me. Afraid of what you would tell me.

Alone: I just wanted, I just want to be. With you.

Me: I see. Come. Sit with me.

Alone: What shall we do together?

Me: I have no idea. I just want to experience you. Without noise. Without distraction.

Alone: Why?

Me: Well why not?

Alone: No one has ever asked to sit with me. I have much I have wanted to share.

Me: Sit here, then. Share yourself with me.

Alone: K.

*Alone stretched out her hand. Taking her hand, Cassandra found herself surrounded by Love, God, Life, Jesus and The Universe.

Me: Ah.

Alone: Aha!

satisfied,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is short. Get to know Alone. You’ll be glad you did. You’ll know what I mean when you have found the courage to sit down your loud and invite Alone to sit with you a while.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Just build the platform for your dream.

God is teaching me to just build the platform for my dream.

I don’t have to worry about the foundation.

God is The Foundation.

Life is The Foundation.

The Universe is The Foundation.

What is 🏢 built upon the platform is up to me. I can build a skyscraper. I can build a shack. I can build a shed. I can put up a tent. I can put a sleeping bag on the platform.

What goes on the platform is not the point. We just need to build OUR platform.

Make it a big one.

Make a tiny one.

Build it from whatever materials suits YOUR fancy.

Decorate it or not.

Just build the platform for your dream.

Don’t worry, beloveds, about who or what God shall send to you and your platform.

Don’t fret, beloveds, that only a few, as far as you could tell, has come to visit.

The visitors meant may not show up in your lifetime.

Build your platform to profit mankind.

Don’t build for financial profits sake. Finances will come as you build useful things folk want to purchase.

Find your purchase(foundation) on building your purchase(platform).

The more I ask God for finances, the more dumb and ridiculous ideas and things He gives me to say and do.😁🤷‍♀️

building my dumb, er, platform,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:🤷‍♀️🍑🤦‍♀️🌎👋♥️🥰😁

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Love yourself: Hallmark movies 🎥 and me.

There is nothing more delightfully hopeful than a good Hallmark movie.🥰

You know the kind that has you cheering for all of mankind by the end.

I have spent a delightful evening of self love and care. Translation: Chicken strips, fruit snacks and super old Hallmark movies!🥰🥰🥰

I have spent the better part of a year fighting with work systems issues, health issues, money or lack thereof issues.

So much so, beloveds, I was allowing my vision to see the hard. Instead of embracing and learning from and through it.

Saturday, I was so exhausted I could barely work three hours. I was:

Tired.

Discouraged.

Dismayed.

I was too tired to work. Yet, too broke to take any more time off.

What did I do?

I clocked out early. I scheduled a day I could not financially afford off.

Why?

It’s important to love the only body we shall have.

I told fear and financial worry to take a hike.

I fired up the air fryer.

I flipped on some YouTube Hallmark 🎥 movies.

Ah!🥰

Take care, beloveds. Bills will always be around. As for you and me, not so much.

Rest. Rinse. Repeat.

Be encouraged.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: 💯♥️🎥☕️❤️‍🩹

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Together: We are more.

Together.

We are more.

We are more, beloveds, together.

Together.

What a thought.

The world wants us all divided.

The Universe calls us to unite.

Let’s get together.

Let’s love one another.

We are so much more than the sum of our parts.

I pray, every day, folk will learn how to love and chase, each other, in love, for no other reason than we are more…together.

My pieces have been short lately. Partially, from being tired. Partially, because folk are in such a hurry they will only receive love and things in small snippets.

I feel sorry for a world in which folk are mashing daily about in an all out hurry to get nowhere fast.

Take some time, beloveds, to be more…together.

being all of me with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: We are more. Together.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Don’t fear the coming storm.

It’s steamy.

Super humid.

A storm is coming.

I’m not worried.

Had my ☕ coffee with mom and God.

Had some good yaks with my twin, my big bro and a friend.

Enjoying some fantastic music.

Yakking with you.

Leaving the storm in God’s Hands.

Why?

He is My:

Shelter.

Friend.

Champion.

Support.

🥰

Don’t worry about your storm(s), beloveds. Everything WILL be okay. He promised. ♥️

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Nuff said. Lift up your head. Take your eyes off bills, worries, and fret. Enjoy your day. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I stopped by to say…

I stopped by to say…

Hello.

I love you.

Hang in there.

Enjoy your day.

You got this.

He got you…lol.

Be encouraged.

I miss mom.

I love me.

🥰,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: P. S. Life is short. Embrace what happens today. You don’t have to know everything or do everything right now.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!