The more I live, beloveds, the more I am seeing how I have allowed the paths/past, of others, to dictate MY path/present.
I did things, because mom did them like that. I viewed things, because dad/church/folk, viewed them, like that.
I questioned, not.
I dared, not.
Why?
Because, I was told it was bad to:
Challenge.
Ask.
Try, outrageous things.
Question, God.
Challenge, “authority”.
I was forever being told, as a loud, black woman, to shut up and keep my head down.
Why?
In order to be viewed, sadly, as one of the ‘good’ black folk. Meaning, one who did NOT make waves. One, who did not make folk, white folks to be real, feel ‘uncomfortable’.
So, I:
Kept, my mouth shut.
Kept, my head down.
Kept, it moving.
Understand this: I love white folks. They are:
Amazing.
Loving.
Loyal.
Caring.
That said,…will save those thoughts for another day. Just know, I know folk are just doing all they know. Folks fear what they don’t understand. I have been called, all my life, an ‘angry, black woman’. For the most part, I am not that. At times, I AM angry. Just look up mortality rates on black women, giving birth, and you will get angry/sad as well.
Anywho, I am learning, STILL, how important it is for me to continue to ask ME, how I feel, what I think, what I hope for, what I dream of, how far I will go, how far I will NOT go, who I will go with, Who I will go with, who I will NOT go with, when I will go, when I won’t go.
Not just for me. For, you. For, Life. For, The Universe. For, Jesus. For, friends. For, family. For, everyone/everything!
Ah.
Aha!
Life has been especially tough. I appreciate it. It is bringing out the best, in me. I think…lol.
Be encouraged, beloveds. Your hard SHALL, of a surety, bring you awesome gifts. No matter what you go through. Amazing. Life is amazing. Surprisingly, I find this stranger in my bed, amazing.
amazed,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Okay, really? By now, you should be sending me notes, eh? Get on out there, beloveds, and LIVE. YOUR life. Be encouraged and know you ARE loved. A lot. Jesus told me so…*wink*…
- COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
- REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS.👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢
Why Can't I Be Loud?! 