There is no such thing as quit in you!

Ah, I see you, beloveds!

Yea, boy, I see your fight!

Yyyyasssssssssss, I see you being about being about it!

I tip my cap, too you, beloveds!

I see your love.

I see your try.

I see your awesome/amazing heart.

I see YOU.

As does God/Life/The Universe.

Keep going.

Keep trying.

Keep LIVING.

Keep loving.

Keep rejoicing.

Let the cynics, let the world, let the rest, rest on their laurel. We got thangs to do, don’t we?

Love someone. Start, with you. Let someone know they are loved and NOT alone.

loving with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, you should already be gone being about being about it. Smh. Get going. Take this with you:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I love me some you…

Don’t you dare give up on you!

Beloveds, don’t you dare, ever, no never, give up, on you! YOU are much too important. You have too many things, to say. You have too many things, to do. Your life is so very precious. I wish I had known you, sooner. I would have told you, then. I’m telling you now. Hold on. Hold fast. Hold out. This is not a pep talk. It’s a life talk. Get on out there, beloveds, and LIVE.

Stop surviving life. It’s high time life had to survive you and your try. Don’t listen, to those who have given up. Pray for them. Then, move forward. I don’t care what happens, in your life. The happenings, happen. True that. Yet, those self same happenings, happen to change your life.

Why/how?

Because they happen, they force you, to choose to fight or quit. Ain’t no quit in you, beloveds. Nah! You too awesome, for that. Your dreams are too important, for that. Your impact is too impactful, for that.

Believe in you. You got this. Don’t worry about outcomes. Just give it the best you have be okay with what happens next. The next is a God/Life/Universe problem.

What’s next?

You tell me!

Rooting for you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: The ONLY thing holding you back, is you. Get going. Life be waiting upon thee! Skeedadle, beloveds. Don’t waste another second worrying how. Just do. Something. Go on…

Huh? I forgot something?! Oh, yea, scuze me…ehem….:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I told God it’s okay. It’s not.

I find myself in a quandary.

I sooooooooooooooooo want to tell God to kick rocks, today.

I’m angry.

Mom is gone.

Mom is gone, dammit!

I am TIRED of going around this stupid grief mountain!

For the most part, I am okay. Will be sailing along. Okay, until I am not. Then, I will have found grief all snuggled up in my snuggy and waiting for me, cup of coffee, in hand.

Dammit!!…*Cassandra snatches the cup of coffee from grief, and swallow bitter tears*

Fresh hell.

*sigh*.

I’m not angry. Not, really. Just not okay, today. I will be. I don’t let grief stay too long. Grief is much too greedy and will swallow your day, whole, if you allow it. Nah, grief, I got thangs to do.

I told God it’s okay. It’s not. Good thing I know that it is perfectly okay to not be okay until you are okay, again.

I stopped by, beloveds, yet again, to let you know to be as not okay, as you need to be. You don’t have to have it together ALL the time. There are times when the LAST THING you want to do is to be together.

Altogether now:

Ack!!!!!!!!!!!

Whew, okay, we got that scream outta the way. Only about 90 more to go, for me.

I did NOT want to do this day, today. Not, today. I wanted to:

Stay in bed, eating fruit snacks and carrying on about the unfairness of being an orphan at near 55, alone, dreams unfulfilled and have a whale of a time, feeling sorry for me.

Nah, beloveds, I had things to do. So, I got up. Stamped to, the bathroom. Stormed, from the bathroom. Tore, into the kitchen. Angrily, snatched eggs, butter, shredded cheese, from the fridge. Pouting, I madly stirred, said ingredients. Flippantly, I flipped those whipped eggs, into shape.

While doing so, I whipped my angry/sad/mad/frustrated/missing mom self, back into some form of act right. Meaning, I called my wombie, worked her last nerves and hung up, sad/mad/frustrated.

Long story short, I dragged ALL my feels up Joy Mountain. I turned on some uplifting music, ate breakfast, got to work, then got to work telling myself it’s okay to not be okay, for a while.

After a while, I forgot all about being sad. I was too grateful for being able to work from home, the wonderfully uplifting music, for my wombie who listened to my ramblings, and for scrambled eggs!

Longer story made shorter: Life is tough. Grief ain’t no joke. It’s okay. Keep going. NO matter what. Talk with those who love you. Love on you, as best you can. Scramble some eggs. Be encouraged. We got this, eh?

Sad but okay,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You are loved and not alone….

Dear 55: I have fallen. I don’t want to get up, today.

Dear 55,

You will be here, in a few weeks.

I want to be angry, with you. So what!

Mom won’t be here.

Dammit.

I found I am fighting anger, today. Anger, at mom. For leaving me to have to fight with sad, who wants to visit, who I can NOT allow to stay around. I have things to do. I have a life to pretend, er, live.

Fresh hell.

55, how the hell am I supposed to celebrate you? I feel like I am 5, without mom.

I fought with the night. ALL night. Now, me and day are arguing. I am TIRED DAMMIT!

It’s not your fault, 55. It’s not even mom’s fault. It was her time to go.

It’s just that forever is such a long time. I can barely hold the word, in my heart. Not, today.

I look at my shattered laptop. I looked at my heart, now shattered. What do I DO with it? This, my heart? Who will care for it? I am alone. Yet, not.

I must go, 55. I have work, to do. I have to get up, today. I HAVE to. Crap.

going on while wanting to punch something in the face,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: The heck if I know. Keep going. Oh, yea:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Note 2: It’s okay, to hurt. Let someone know when you are not okay, okay? Asking for Your Friend…

So amazing!

I am listening to ‘So Amazing’ by Clark Anderson. Beautiful song. It’s on the soundtrack from the movie The Hurricane.

When I heard it, for the first time, was in the theater and was in the ending credit. Stopped me. In my tracks. Had to sit and listen πŸ‘‚ to the end…

Life has been super tough, lately. I have been doing my best to encourage myself. Have felt alone. Have wished for hugs. Have wished for many things.

Early this morning, God woke me. Just would NOT let me sleep. I wandered into my super early online prayer group and heard exactly what my heart needed!πŸ₯°β™₯️

I wandered, to my balcony, and found a pleasant breeze! Ah! A wonderful relief after months of 100 plus temperatures. I made some Instagram videos to post, later.

I wandered, back inside, and began tapping encouragement to folk I shall never meet. I wonder if MY words even matter. To them. No matter.

All I have to give, is yours. I so hope you receive this care. I wrapped it special, for your eyes and hearts. I pray they are enough.

Be encouraged. If I could take away all that wounds you, I would. I shall ask The One who can! Be well.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I find myself restless. Too many hurting hearts. Too few folk who fight for and love them.πŸ˜₯

When Is Now

β€œHow much longer will you continue to say not yet?” Tabitha Brown.  What an absolute beautiful follow up to yesterday’s post about getting out of our own way, I swear I can’t make up the timing of when these messages come through. We are clearly being told: We are the ones holding ourselves back. We […]

When Is Now

Beloveds, I just HAD to share this blog! So timely! EVERY time my heart β™₯ has needed encouragement, she ALWAYS knows what to say. Amazing! Be encouraged. She is right! Let’s get to doing thangs, aite?πŸ₯°πŸ˜‚

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Uh, oh, yall. My heart so full of love, today, I fear I am fixing to make it rain, up in yall inboxes.πŸ˜πŸ’―β™₯οΈπŸ’‹πŸ€·β€β™€οΈ

Start fresh.

I woke.

Early.

Refreshed.

Ah.

Feels good.

I have left yesterday, with yesterday.

Me and today, have thangs to do.

As do you.

Get to doing your thangs.

Uh, oh!

I feel silly wanting to get all up in me, today.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Laugh.

Live.

Love.

Start fresh.

Forget what happened, yesterday.

You and today, got thangs to do.

Get to it.

getting to it with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: What the world you still doing here?! Get going. Love someone, today. Start with you. Asking for A Friend…

Lesson learned.

So, that just happened!

*pout*

*Cassandra stares at her now water bed, after spilling water, evvvvvverywhere!*…hhmm…*Cassandra kisses a last nap goodbye*

*pout*

The Universe told me to change the sheets.

Lazy, I told The Universe, I would change the sheets on Saturday.

The Universe got jokes, today.

Sheesh!

Lesson learned.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Are you kidding?! Best change the sheets, when told to do so. Also, keep on keeping on, no matter what!

Yesterday, was hard. So what? Today, is a new day. Laugh, in this day. Love, in this day. Start with you. Move on, to me. Then? Beats me. Let’s go love on folk, shall we?

Perspective: focus on what you do have, not on what you didn’t get.

Okay.

Ehem.

Ooops.

My bad.

I sowwy.

well, then…*Cassandra tips out of the room, after her foolish and unneeded temper tantrum*….*discreet cough*….*blush*.

It helps to have perspective. It can save you an embarrassing temper tantrum. For years, I thought I had been treated unfairly, financially, by my job. In a way, depending on how you look at it, I had.

Twice, my job changed it’s pay structure, to meet market demands. Yet, I never received those raises. You see, I had worked, for years, to make the small increases, I did. I was highly hacked, to my consternation, that folk off the street, would be making the same pay as me!

I had worked, FOR YEARS DAMMIT, for that pay. Now, new folks would stroll in and make what I made!

I thought this terribly unfair. In a way, I still do.

I have been praying and asking God to increase my finances. My bills are no longer sustainable, with the pay and make now. Last night, I asked for him to move for me, financially, today.

This morning, I received an email they were changing my work designation. It would be more work, of course, but I will receive an increase of pay. Everyone would. New folk, again, would receive a nice raise. As for me, the rays would only be a few pennies. I was livid. Again!

I yelled. Loudly. I fumed. I acted a complete fool. That is, until, God told me to look at things in a different perspective. He told me to look up the salaries for people in my field, and the state where I live now. He told me to look at the minimum wage. What I was making, and fat, was a good 50% more than most people in the state. I felt like an idiot.

In addition, due to the change in my work designation, my bonus would potentially increase by 30% each year. I began to study what other states may and their cost of living. I am blessed. I work from home. I have made more than most, around here.

Yes, it’s on the low end of my field. Yet, it’s on the high end, compared to others in the state. Many other states, make less than half of what I make. I don’t know how they are making out.

I was so focused, beloved, I what new people with made. I fail to see, God was taking care of me right now. It just goes to show you, you can be blessed, being them. You can be taken cared of, right where you are at. It’s all in how you look at things.

Do yourself a favor, beloved. Look at the whole picture. Focus on what you have, right now. Don’t worry, about what others may or may not have. They may need more than you, anyway.

I am grateful for the extra pennies. Every penny counts. I am grateful for lessons learned. I am grateful for the hard. No, I don’t like so much hard all the time. Yet, I continue to grow, every time I choose to look at things in the right perspective.

Life is tough right now, financially, for everyone. Don’t let tough financial times keep you from living a joyful life. Be encouraged. Things will get better. In the meantime, make sure you continue to move forward.

I think I hear a cup of coffee calling me. I also think brownie said don’t forget about me!

Take care of you. Don’t allow your feelings to determine what you would do we your day. Don’t allow circumstances to determine what you would do with your day. This is the day the Lord hath made. Rejoice and be glad in it.

Rejoicing,

Cassandra

Note: today was harder than I would like to admit. Even to me. Even for me. I lost. A lot. I gained. I live I would love. A lot I will rejoice. A lot wife, because Jesus loves me. A lot he loves you as well. Be well…

Keep believing in YOU!

Keep believing in YOU! https://www.instagram.com/reel/CySBQVeusfj/?igshid=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I have to tell you this piece had ME fired up!

Keep believing in YOU, beloveds.

caring for your life,

Me

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: How you needing a note after that?!