Month: January 2024

Put the time in.

We have been so busy at work that I have had to readjust/rethink when I can get some pieces written.

I promised myself I would encourage someone EVERY day. EVERY DAY!

I am doing my best to put the time in, for ME. Yes, I give work, my time. I give others, my time. Now, I am working to give ME, the time.

To, write.

To, grow.

To, rest.

To, experience my feels.

To, cry.

To, weep.

To, grieve.

To, build.

To, tear down.

For, ME.

It’s important, beloveds, to put the time into whatever your dream is. You just can’t sit back and wait for answered dreams to knock at the door. You have to put the time and effort into whatever it is you are pursuing.

Plant the seed. Pull the weeds. Water the dream. Nourish your spirit. Wait. Wait. Wait. Rinse. Repeat.

Until.

Until!

We shall not know, beloveds, what our efforts will produce.

We can be assured that our harvest SHALL come. It may not be what we thought it would be. It may not be as much as we thought it would be. However, what shall be has been what we have made, with our own hands! How awesome is that?!

Don’t worry about the results. Just try. Try, again. Try, yet again.

Until?

Until!

Let’s goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

going with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Ah, beloveds, you got this! You do! Keep going. Keep on trying. Don’t worry about your critics. Keep on telling them thanks and keep it moving. One step at a time.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

A posse of one.

Life has been tough.

Life has been interesting.

Life has been frustrating.

Life has been fruitful.

Life has been soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo lifery!

I have been feeling my aloneness. Not lonely. Just aloneness. Not even sure that’s a word but that’s how I have been feeling.

I have been wanting, no NEEDing.

Needing:

A friend?

Friends?

Love?

Something?

Someone?

I don’t know.

God, I don’t KNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

Fresh hell.

All the while, beloveds, I am loving on some me. I am being a posse of one, whilst I wait for MY posse to arrive and hang out with me.

I am hankering for some someone’s to share my life with. Just a bit of my life. And, to experience thers. I want to:

Share dumb jokes.

Have dumb jokes shared with me.

Talk of serious things.

Talk of nothing.

Love a lot.

Be loved a lot.

Ah, beloveds, am I shouting to a void of which no answer shall EVER return?

No matter.

I shall continue to keep on putting my heart out there. The silence, though, hurts, I must admit. Just a smidge. Okay, a tad more than a smidge.

I’m not sad, though. Just introspective. I am living. Alive. Here. Now. I can live with that, for now.

In the meantime, I thought I would wander in here and see how you are doing. I figure I can be your posse. And, maybe more folk will join us, eh?

If you should have a hankering, drop in my inbox and say hey.

Be encouraged.

hopeful still and always,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Your life matters to me, beloveds. Not sure if that means anything to you. Yet, you mean a lot to me. To, God. To, The Universe. To, Life. To, those around you. Don’t let your doubts and fears make you doubt these things.

Believe in you. Love you. Ask for what you hope for and need and enjoy some you, in the meantime.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Heart check Wednesday.

Hey there, beloveds.

How is your heart?

YOURS?

How is mine? Thanks for asking. Mine is much better. I have had to keep readjusting my attitude so my altitude could stay rightside up. Else, the world was looking a bit upside down.

Not because of anything in particular. I was just feeling all of my 55. ALL OF IT!

WHEW!!

I don’t know what it is about turning 55. I was happy to have turned 50. Felt like an accomplishment. All of my dumbness did not prevent me from getting to 50. Who knew!?

Yet, as soon as 55 showed up, good egads ALL the hidden fears of what ifs and can Is and will I ever ALL showed up at once!

GGGGGGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZZZZZZZZZ!!

This stranger, now known as me, has been something to get to know. She sure can get moody, if I let her. I have to sit with her, constantly. I have to listen to her, constantly. She has been quite for 54 years, she says. She has much to say. I am learning to listen to her.

I do my best not to silence her with comfort eating and distractions. Yikes!

Anywho, my heart is…just is, I guess.

How is your heart?

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I sometimes wonder if my care is getting folk anywhere. I may never know. I shall continue to care anywho. Take care.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

One step.

One step.

ONE step.

Keep taking one step, beloveds.

Don’t worry about how far you have to travel.

Don’t give a second thought about not making it there.

Don’t give two hoots when doubt/fear show up to tell you that you have too far to go and won’t make it, anywho.

Ha!

You shall.

Keep going.

Keep trying.

Every day.

Every single day.

Don’t allow your feels to keep you from taking a step.

One step.

One step.

One step.

stepping with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Look forward to your future. Look forward to today. Enjoy today. Enjoy each step. Even the hard ones. Especially the hard ones. They are exposing the greatness within you. Don’t allow yourself to be mediocre. Strive for excellence. Be kind. Love a world who seems to care less. Be encouraged. I love you.

Love someone. Starting with you. I tell folk EVERY day they are loved and not alone. Why? Cuz we are, homies/homettes!

True that!

True that!

Give yourself your all.

Try.

Try.

Then, try again!

Stop giving up on yourself so easy, beloveds!

Nothing worth having comes easy.

The more I fill myself with positive music, thoughts, prayers, support from others, love for/from myself, the more I grow patient as I await what God and Life and The Universe has in store for the remainder of my life.

I am anticipating…hmmm….don’t know. I just know it feels good to be anticipating instead of dreading what come next.

Life is short.

Get on out there and keep trying.

Don’t waste time drinking the hateraide of haters and naysayers. Tell them ‘nah’ and keep it going!

going with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, so after that rousing speech you should already be gone living you some life, beloveds. Smh.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I’m going to make it!

Nuff said.

So will you!

Keep going.

going with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: The year has started. It feels like I have not started with it. I am ready to be doing new things but find myself doing the same things, still. Still! Crap. Ack!!

I keep asking The Universe to help me figure out the HOW so I can do the WHAT so I can BE!!!!

Egads!

Yikes!

Until then, I continue to strive, grow, cry, fuss, fume, laugh, rejoice, do, be, LIVE, love and laugh. Then, I rinse and repeat.

doing until,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: If this piece feels unfinished, well, it’s because I am discombobulated and feeling unfinished. Ack. I feel alive, though. I feel free, though. I feel love, though. Though, I am not yet there, I am still…here!

Ah.

Aha!

Enjpoy your HERE, beloveds, whilst you are waiting to get to your THERE. I am learning to enjoy myself in the meantime. It’s not easy. In fact, there are days when I want to tell The Universe to kick rocks and leave me alone and let me just livinga boring life where I am NOT forever hopeful and optimistic and believing. Let m be like many who are half alive who….the heck with that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Live, beloveds. Yes, it hurts when dreams keep laughing at us. Live, anyway. Tell your dreams you SHALL wrestle them down and enjoy them.

Be encrouraged. You got this. God and The Universe has us all. Love someone. Starting with you. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Today has been a good day.🤗

Today has been a good day.🤗

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Took today just to rest. That’s it. No being about being about it. No fighting 🐯 and wrestling 🤼‍♀️ with 🐻. Nope. Nada. Nuttin. Just resting.

It’s important to give yourself a good no me not about to do nuffin type of day. Write weirdly. Make something stupid. Be silly. There is always time to do the serious.

Be encouraged and remember you are loved and you are not alone. Keep on being you.

Stop bugging me, God!:Stay open to The Universe.

Yikes!

Egads!

Every since I had to have drywall fixed, under the sink, I have been having to fight with bugs.

Yikes!

Egads!!!!!!!!!

I hate bugs!!!!!!

Almost daily, it seems, I find myself hooting and hollering, raging at The Universe, fighting with my Thanos sized can of bug spray, whilst attempting to finger snap these dumb things out of existance!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It also feels as if God and The Universe keeps bugging me by revealing past issues and unresolved issues/feels that have been preventing me from moving forward.

EEEEEEGGGGGGGGGAAAAADDDDDS!!!

I now find myself hooting and hollering, raging at The Universe, at God, at this, at that, at me, at you, at Life, at work, at me again, at Life again, at….whew….rinse….repeat, at…

You get my point.

Still, in the midst of all the raging and hooting and hollering, I find myself:

Growing.

Going.

Believing.

Receiving.

Acknowledging.

Feeling…

Feeling?

Hmmm.

Ah!

Aha!

I used to squash my feelings into some drawer that I would get to ‘later’. Later never came. So, I found myself a ball of unresolved what the world is this feels. I am thankful that God and The Universe keeps on bugging me to continue to heal and to grow.

I am looking forward to my future. I am enjoying my present. I am embracing all this hard. I have asked, though, for God and The Universe to teach me some lessons on a beach whilst feeding me grapes!

Be encouraged, beloveds. Don’t give up yet. Not just yet. I find myself on an encouragement kick. I need it. Now, more than ever. I feel the days running away. How many do I have, God? Universe?

I want to see what it FEELS like to be living my dream outloud. Ah, God. Won’t You come down and hang with me as I wait for You to…*shrug*. Just come kick it with me.

waiting patiently kinda/sorta,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. Keep going. You got thangs to do. Enjoy you in the meantime. We only get one go around.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Repeat after me: Hey, Monday!

Repeat after me:

Hey, Monday!

This SHALL be a great day.

I CHOOSE.

I will give the best that I have. This shall be enough for me.

I shall handle stressful situations without stressing out. I know I can overcome all that happens in this day.

I refuse to allow lazy to keep me from pushing forward. I will try whether I feel like it or not.

I can.

I will.

Life maybe hard today. So what? I eat hard for breakfast!

Now, get out there and happen to your Monday, beloveds.

Don’t you EVER allow yourself to complain about the start of your week! Your week shall be full of all the miracles and moments you have been asking and waiting for.

The problem is too many are too afraid to move from fear of making mistakes. So what?! Get out there and get things wrong til you get your thangs right!!

doing thangs with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

🗒: You STILL here!? Get going!!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Use what you have: You can do it.

I ran out of trash bags.

Again.

I forgot to order trash bags.

Again.

Crapola.

So, now I have to use left over delivery bags. Yea, I know, they are smaill and ugly.

So what?

They are suiting my NEED.

Oftentimes, folks tend to want to dress up things. They want to run around in flash because they feel like a bit of less than, deep inside.

I used to feel that way.

Deep inside, where no one else could see, hear, or no. Yet, I KNEW. I hid. From, me. From, God. From, Life. I gave my all, inside secretly feeling as if my all was ugly, like a little delivery bag that was no good for anything but carrying just a bit of this and that.

Over time, a LOT of time, and healing, and healing, and healing, and time, and time, and a whole lotta aggravation, I have come to learn that I am more than enough. My life. My thoughts. My heart. My this. My that. My all that makes me….ME.

I.

Am.

Enough.

How great is that?

I, me, Cassandra, whodathunkit?!

It seems as if we spend a lifetime, chasing after validation. Does he love me? Does she think about me? Does the job respect me? Did mom love me? Does dad care for me?

On and on and on we ask for love everywhere but where we need to start: Within!

If we can’t love ourselves, how the world can we expect to be able to RECEIVE or feel love from anyone else? Answer: We can’t!!

Know, beloveds, KNOW:

You are enough.

Period.

End of story.

Continue to rewrite and reimagine your life. WE frame what we see.WE perceive events that happen to and for us. WE can change things, change our perceptions, whenever WE choose.

We are NOT helpless and hapless victims of circumstances.

Use what you have.

Create new things out of old things.

Keep on keeping on.

We got this.

We ain’t done yet, beloveds. We got thangs to do!

doing thangs with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToYou

Note: It’s imperative to remain focused when your feels get all feely on you. Else, you will be believing lies and foolishness that it’s over for you and your dreams. Ha!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!