Add some ‘So What’ to your diet(day).

I have been out of sorts, this year. ALL year, so far. Abnormally so.

Sooooooooooooooooo, I got to scrounging around, within my heart, to find the source of my anxt, my ain’ts, my wherefores, my whys, and my whynots.

Hmmm.

Aha!

It appears I have had too much of contemplating and dwelling on the hard. Normally, I tell hard, ha!, and move on about my day.

I tell hard, ‘So what!?”, and I dare to keep it moving.

For the past few weeks, beloveds, all I have allowed myself to see was the hard. I started missing, the joy. I started dismissing, my try. I started, discounting, well, everything.

Everything was just hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaarrrrrrrd, I carried on. I stopped climbing onto The Father’s Lap. I began hiding. From, Him. From, Me. Afraid. Afraid, He would be disappointed with me. Disappointed IN me.

Then, I decided I was going to sit with Him, anyway. Afraid. A disappointment. Slowly, I admitted to God, to myself, I was feeling so much I didn’t know what to feel. Or, not.

I shared how afraid I felt. I shared how afraid that I was afraid that He would be annoyed with me being and feeling so damned afraid about everything, right now. I told Him I was disappointed. With me. I felt I should ‘know better’. That, I should ‘be better’.

I’m glad God understood. He sat with me. He let me be…me. I didn’t have to perform. I didn’t have to put on a happy face. I wasn’t happy. I was:

Sad.

Mad?

Disappointed?

Afterwards, I got my ‘So what’ back.

Life was being hard.

So what?

Things were not fair.

So what?

I was a bit lonely.

So what?

So what: What are you going to DO, Cassandra?

Me: I am going to live. As best as I can.

Today, I am tired. So what? I have things to do. I am dragging my tired with me. I am making my tired do the dishes…lol.

When you are discouraged/tired/frustrated and the like, be sure to add some ‘So what’ to your diet(day).

Take care of you. You are the only you that you have.

Be encouraged and know that you are loved and not alone. I never tire of saying this to you. You are. Take care of you. You are much too precious to keep running yourself into the ground the way you do.

grateful,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Someone needs to hear from you. Someone needs to be loved by you. You need to be loved by someone(s). If you don’t have them, start with me…hehe…

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