Month: February 2024

Turn frustration into some action.

I was frustrated about what was happening in my life.

Okay so I was frustrated about what was NOT happening.  I had been enjoying breakfast and coffee. For whatever reason I began to get frustrated thinking about what I had not yet accomplished.

The more I thought the more frustrated I became.  We are lighting this I told myself to shut up and go take out the trash.

I have learned to put myself on punishment to help keep my act right acting right.

As an additional consequence I told myself to clean out the refrigerator. Peeeeeuuu!

Ew!!😳

The things I pulled out of that refrigerator cannot be named in polite company.

We are expecting a storm with at least 6 inches of snow tonight. I did not want to have piles of garbage sitting in my house to collect bugs. I did that before and have been trying to get them out every since.

I appreciate my frustration. It caused me to move. It forced me to do what I needed to do in the first place.

I was able to get a bit of exercise in also after taking out the trash.  A double win.

Be encouraged, beloveds. Use your frustration and DO something. As you work on your dreams, allow life to work on and in you to help you clear out trash and other things needing done.

Every try is getting you closer.

Closer to what?

Great question! Keep asking!

clearing the path for a dream,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Um, like, you should be taking out trash or cleaning your fridge or something, remember? Smh. Scoot!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

What if you could? Would you?

What if you could change your(the) world by:

(Fill in your why here)

Would you?

Really?

Would you start today?

Would you give it your all?

Would you sacrifice your time?

Would you keep going even when it hurt?

Would you do so if you had to do so alone?

Would you if no crowd cheered you on?

Would you if no 🏆 trophy greeted you at the end?

Would you if the only heart/life changed was your own?

Would you even if fortune was not the end result?

If the answer is yes, beloveds, what on earth are you waiting for? Life is short.

If the answer is no, why on earth not?! This world needs YOU, beloved. Yea, you. This world needs your:

Integrity.

Truth.

Uniqueness.

Love.

Time.

Thoughts.

Share them, beloveds. Share YOU. Lift up your head. It’s time you showed shame the door. You have nothing to be ashamed of.

You have tried. You try, still. You are a hero. Most folk would have given up a long time ago. You have experienced much.

Stop comparing your struggles to others and finding yours unworthy or not special enough to be counted.

You matter. You do. Get up now, beloveds. You have things to do. Let THIS moment be the LAST moment you will dismiss your try and your worth.

Come. There is a world out there in need. We can change things, beloveds. We can. In our corner of the world. In those around us. In us.

Let’s go. We got this. God and The Universe has us all.

believing in you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I’m excited. I’m thinking about my first motivational video I am learning how to make. I have spent an entire off day working on my dream.

Ah, God. Help me reach the entirety of the world with MY try. Make my words viral. Folk need to hear and know they are loved and not alone.

Be encouraged, beloveds. Shoot me an email. Let me know how you are. Send a warm thought or prayer in my direction that I might do service to all my heart wants to give.

Do you want it? Really?

Do you want your dream to come true, beloveds?

Really?

This may seem like a ridiculous question but it’s important.

Why?

Let me ask another question:

If The Universe showed up and said “Let’s get started”, will you:

Run?

Laugh?

Cry?

Make excuses you are too busy “right now”?

Get started?

Wonder what the heck were you thinking and decide to stay in your safe space?

Yesterday, God and The Universe began opening me up to all kinds of tutorials and courses and software and all kinds of things to help me to actually put action to my dreams and start seeing what I had been dreaming and demanding for aeons.

What did I do when that happened? I cried of course then started wondering what in the fresh hell was I thinkinggggggggg, Caaaaasssaaandra!

😳🥸♥️😳🥸

After I got over a bit of stage fright, I began to daydream and ponder realistic goals I could achieve.

Ah.

Aha!

If The Universe has been driving you up 50 walls by whispering the whole of the world is waiting for you, despair not. You are on the precipice of wonderful adventures.

Keep fighting through your anxt. Keep challenging yourself not to give up. Keep being HONEST and admit you don’t know how. Keep asking to be shown how.

Mostly, beloveds, KNOW that YOU are the miracle you seek. The instant I settled, within myself, that I could soar right where I am, The Universe showed up.

See, God could have opened financial doors a long time ago. But, I would have been the same broken, afraid, hopeless, lazy person when it came to my own dream that I had been forever.

This sounds harsh, beloveds, but it’s true. I didn’t try as hard as I could for ME. I killed myself for everyone else to the point I had no energy, time or belief left for me.

Or, so I had lied to myself. It was only after I became honest with ME, with God, with Life, with The Universe, with family and friends, I could begin the hard work of healing and growing.

I share this in hopes it may encourage you and give you the courage to confront yourself, forgive yourself and move forward with your dreams and life.

Today, is the first day of my writing life MY way. A friend told me “It’s all about the blog”. She told me to keep writing but would not say why.

Many, many times I asked myself why bother when nobody reads it anyway?!

Yet, something inside said, still says, to reach out. Every day. Somewhere, someone needs to see and hear they are loved and not alone.

Now, I have oodles of ridiculous words and Cassandra sayings to make a million inspirational  YouTube videos or other podcasts and things.

I’m taking a chance on me. I am more than just one of many. As are you, beloveds.

Let’s take hold of our fears and do thangs anyway, shall we?

You are your niche, your target 🎯 audience. Point yourself in Life’s direction and let The Universe take care of the rest.

Let’s go!

excitedly horrified,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: We CAN. We WILL. WE HAVE TO!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Don’t be afraid of the dark.

I have been fighting with grief for a while now. Rather grief has been fighting with me.

Turn me loose!

Leave me alone!

I’m actually glad grief showed up.  I was forced to confront what in the world I was grieving.

?????

!!!!!!!!

😡🤒🥵😳☹🙏

For days, I wrestled. I cried. I slept little. I slept none. Crap. Ack! Fresh hell!

Finally!

I realized I was grieving…*sigh*… for my dad who passed away a dozen years ago now. I think.

To this day, I don’t/won’t/can’t think on the time of his passing. Until now.

It seems that I have healed enough so God and The Universe can walk me through this next level of hell, er, healing. Crap! Fresh hell…*pout*.

My heart is finally giving me permission to grieve. Okay. Okay! I am finally giving my heart permission to grieve.

Up until a week or so ago I was feeling too ashamed to grieve. I had not been able to attend his service and secretly never forgave myself for being a horrible daughter for not attending.

I had good reason. I had recently lost my private care job due to my client having passed away. He was more than a client.😥

So, I had to stay in town and look for another job to pay the bills. I also had to stick around for reporting to unemployment so I could receive my weekly $211 check. 211! Do you know how tough it is living on that! Don’t get me started.

In any event, I brutally told myself he was dead and we were alive and I had to beat the streets to find a job and keep it moving.

I eventually found a job. I kept it moving. Secretly, I beat hell out of myself for having to keep it moving.

A dear friend of mine lost her dad, recently. I prayed for her. I felt bad with and for her. I tried to move on and get on with getting on with it.

To my surprise, I found I was stuck. In the dark. Somewhere.

What the what the?!

I found myself:

Restless.

In tears.

Inconsolable.

????!!!!

It was only when I asked myself, over and over, that my heart spoke loud enough for me to hear over my grief.

I was grieving the loss of my dad.

I was grieving the loss of my dad?!

I WAS GRIEVING THE LOSS OF MY DAD!!

Finally, my heart said.

Finally, my spirit said.

Finally, my soul said.

Finally, God said.

Finally, The Universe said.

Finally, Life said.

Finally, Jesus said and stretched out His Nail-scarred Hand.

Ah.

Aha!

I find this fitting for this to be my last piece for the week.

I miss you, dad. Tell mom hi, for me.😥

I am grateful for the dark. The darkness forced me to fight my way back to the light and living.

Don’t be afraid of the dark, beloveds. You don’t go through your darkness alone.

I love you and care for your life. Be encouraged. Take care and allow me to sit with you as you come out of your own dark place or space.

here as best as can,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:❤

When nothing happens take out the trash.

Nothing.

Nothing?

Nothing!

Crap!

Ack!

Fresh hell!

*Cassandra scrounges around in the fulfilled dreams bag and found every dream fulfilled but hers*

Crap!!!

*pout*

*Cassandra decides to use her frustrations to clean out the fridge and take out the trash*.

*pout*

keeping it moving,

Cassandra

🤗#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep going. Your steps ARE leading you somewhere. Embrace and enjoy where you are, presently.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Why won’t You let me fly?!

Me: *sigh*

God: What’s wrong, beloved?

Me: I’m trying not to be frustrated.

God: From what?

Me: Living this in the meantime life.

God: What do you mean, beloved?

Me: I’m ready to fly. There are days, there are times, when I am in my element: writing, praying for folk, encouraging folk, where I feel as though I am soaring and that I can take on the world. Then…*sigh*.

God: Then what?

Me: Then, real life happens, and I am put back in my cage. Looking out, looking up towards I sky I can no longer soar freely on…*sigh*.

God: Why can’t you soar where you are, right now?

Me: Because, it’s soooooooooooooo hard to say YOUR Will be done when Your Will, won’t let me fly, just yet…*sniff*….*sigh*.

God: Do you trust me?

Me: Yes.

God: Are you SURE?

Me: Yea.

God: Then TRUST me. K?

Me: K

*Cassandra climbs down from The Father’s Lap and continues to trust in what she can’t yet see*

frustratedly trusting in what the world I can not see,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Me and discouragement have been fighting it out. I feel like an eagle who has been locked in a cage. I look out and up at a sky I can not soar freely to and in. I look around me and all I see is the limitations from not knowing how to make my dreams a living reality.

My unfulfilled dreams are beginning to feel like a nightmare. I keep telling myself to be patient and to keep learning and growing.

Be encouraged, beloveds. God, Life and The Universe are not keeping you hemmed in just to frustrate you. There is a time and place for EVERYTHING that happens under the sun.

Don’t rush ahead, beloveds, in frustration or from fear. It’s okay to grow weary and frustrated. Rest, as you can. Fuss, when you must. Then, keep moving forward. How fast or how far you move is besides the point.

Keep on keeping on. Remember you why. Recognize timing is not always up to us.

Your life IS making an impact. YOU are the very miracle you seek.

Repeat after me:

I CAN.

I WILL.

I MUST.

I HAVE TO:

Love.

Live.

Care.

Embrace.

Empathize.

Stand.

Remember alway, beloveds that you are loved and that you are NOT alone. Keep on being you. Just you. You are more than enough. For, you are precious in His Sight. I love you. Your friend, Sweetpea.

What/whose side are you playing for?

Good/evil.

Right/wrong.

Apathy/engagement.

Empathy/Uncaring.

Building up/tearing down.

Growing/Atrophy.

Hero/Villian.

Solo/Teammate.

Team you for you/Team you against you.

With/against:

God.

Life.

The Universe.

Every day, beloveds, we are asked to CHOOSE sides.  The choice is up to us. We get to choose if we are going be the hero or the villain in our lives and the lives of others.

With decide if we are going to be the solution or the problem.  We make the choice through our words or actions.

No one is exempt from this choice. If you decide not to choose others will choose for you.

It’s important to know where you are choosing to stand and who you are choosing to stand with or oppose.

It is equally important to know WHY you are standing and opposing. Is it because of YOUR choice or someone else’s desire for you?

Who/what are you LIVING for?

Who/what are you allotting your finite moments and momentum to?

There are only 24 hours in a day. Furthermore, we have no idea if life has apportioned us the entirety of the day.

I’m not trying to be morbid, beloveds. Just mindful that time does not belong to me.

Beloveds, I pray you chose a side of love.  I so hope you will choose to love and care for your neighbor.

I shall continue to ask God and The Universe to help you choose to work for your good and the good of others.

As for me and my house, I shall continue to serve The Lord. Ah, God. I love me some You.🥰

Take care, beloveds. Of you. Of your fellow man. We are all we got but we are all we need.

Team Jesus,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

#HereForIt

Note: Choose well.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

You are the inspiration.

Beloveds, YOU are the inspiration.

God moves heaven and earth on YOUR behalf.

Life works to work for YOUR good.

The Universe acts with YOU in mind.

Jesus died and rose for YOUR sin.

There are folks around you just waiting to love YOU.

You look at you and see someone not worthy of love or care. Foolishness!

Lift up your head!

Your heart is priceless!

There is none like you.

You are:

Irreplaceable!

You are:

Worthy of love and to be loved!

You are:

Amazing!

You are!

Ah, beloveds, I know life has not always appeared kind. Well I know you may have done some things which have caused you to judge yourself much too harshly.

It’s okay, beloveds. Look up. Look up into eyes that love YOU. Starting with mine.

inspired by and for you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:❤💝

Good habits told me to get to it.

Well, phooey!

I got in trouble, beloveds. I tried to skip out a bit early from finishing my weekly pieces.

The only problem is I have so gotten used to doing so that my habit told me to get my act right acting right and keep my promise to me.

*pout*

Okay! Okay!

It is soooooooooooooooo easy, beloveds, to skimp on OUR dreams. Yea, we kill ourselves helping our jobs and others fulfill THEIR dreams. Yet, we skimp on ours at the first sign of lazy.

Why? Because we are trying to win some aren’t you wonderful trophy or something. And, we secretly doubt we can or will anyway so why give full effort.

Geeeeeeeeeez, Cassandra! Get it together!😳😊

Whew. That was close. I now have my act right acting right.

getting to it,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

#HereForIt

Note: Someone else’s dream may be tied up in yours. Mine may be waiting on you or you may be waiting on me…hhm. Best we get to getting to it, eh? Who knows what we SHALL accomplish?

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Get out of your feels, beloved.

God: Get out of your feels, beloved.

Me: But….*sniff*….life is kicking my tail. Life is NOT being fair. The Universe is completely silent and I still don’t know how!…*stamps foot*

God: So, what is being all up in your feels bringing to these things, beloved?

Me: Well….nothing. Am just used to being all up in my feels, as You call it, when things like this happen.

God: Why? What purpose does that solve?

Me: Okay, no real purpose but it feels good, at the moment.

God: Does it really?

Me: Okay, so not really but…..hmm….ehem.

God: What POSITIVE things have you done, about these happenings?

Me: So, well, okay, I have not had time. I’m too busy all up in my feels.

God: Would you like to talk about it?

Me: You have too many important things to do. My things are small, in comparison to what other folks are going through. I feel ridiculous even feeling bad.

God: Are you and your needs not important, beloved?

Me: Okay, so I think so. I hope so. I’m scared to say that sometimes I get scared and don’t want to disappoint You.

God: My disappointment is in the extra steps and pebbles you add to your mountain, at times, when you act out of your feels, instead of with My Love and Care.

Me: What do I DO, then, with these feels. They are running around all over the place!

God: Share them with me. My Shoulders can handle them.

Me: K

*Cassandra clumsily lays ALL her cares upon the shoulders of God as she has thangs to do*.

doing thangs,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Hang in there, beloveds. It’s okay to get all up in your feels, at times. Just don’t move in or bring sun tan lotion and towels. Get on with your life. Even the hard part. Squeeze some joy out of your day. Breathe. Look around at all you have accomplished. Stop focusing on your unfinished room!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being….YOU!