The more I try, the less I see come to fruition. I don’t know why. I’m not doing anything differently. I’m not trying any less hard. I’m still giving my all. my all just seems to be giving me less.
I tell myself to keep trying. I have been dragging fear and doubt everywhere with me lately. I don’t know why they won’t leave me alone. Maybe they think I will give up if they stick around. Maybe hopeless things I will become hopeless due to the lack of outcomes I see.
Thankfully, I am learning not to rely on the outcomes. I would have given up a long time ago that had been a case. I would have stopped writing two or three years ago. Hell, I probably would have stopped writing last week.
The universe is silent right now. God seems to have packed up His toys and walked away. I don’t know where He is hiding. I don’t know where to find me. Still, I promised myself I would continue going on. I promised myself I would continue to be about being about it.
55 keeps laughing at me. she tells me to sit down somewhere. I am just too damned to want to make some dreams come true. on days like today, I want to believe her. Still, something inside of me keeps saying that there’s more to this life I have been living. Something inside, just won’t let me quit. Something inside, just won’t let me stop reaching out to a world who could give two damns about me.
Keep trying, beloveds. Today, just may be your day. Today, just maybe my day. We will never know unless we seize this time and this day.
Be encouraged. Keep moving forward. The way is hard. It was never meant to be easy. Besides, we eat hard for breakfast!
We have nothing to lose. We have a whole world to gain.
Stop focusing on the outcome. Discouragement lives there. Keep trying then enjoy the rest of your day. Speaking of which, I hear cup of coffee calling. Who is up for a cup?
asking for A Friend,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: You can do it. You will do it. Keep believing in yourself. There’s much more to you than you know. You got this. Sometimes, we just need someone to tell us we can do it. You can. In case no one has told you today, I love you. So does He.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
- COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
- REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS.👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢
Why Can't I Be Loud?! 