Author: Cassandra S.

Last night, I cried. Today, I rejoice.

Last night, I cried.

I was missing mom.

I drank coffee.

I talked to mom.

Life told me to get on with life.

I told mom I had to go, and I got on with life.

Today, I rejoice.

Today, I drink coffee with mom.

Ah.

Aha!

rejoicing,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Enjoy your life. Loss comes for all in many forms. Don’t let change change who you are or change your direction and dreams.

Live. Embrace life. You don’t need greener grass. Lie upon your own spot. Enjoy it. It’s the spot Eternity set out for you to enjoy.

Huh?

Seems like Life has things to say to me over a cup of coffee ☕. I think I will invite mom for another cup. Care to join me?

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Leaving: Mom’s most important lesson to me.

Ah, mom.

You left.

In leaving, you taught me THE most important thing to DO, in life:

Live.

Live, Cassandra.

Every day, The Universe whispers, to me.

Live, Cassandra.

Every day, God whispers, to me.

Live, Cassandra.

Every day, Life whispers to me.

Live, Cassandra.

Every day, mom, you whisper to me.

It’s hard.

Yet, I’m living, mom.

Best as I can.

Slowly.

Painfully.

Awfully.

Awfully, painfully, slowly, I live.

Ah.

Aha!

living,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I am thankful. I am grateful. I am full. Life dealt me a hand I wish It had not. Still, I play. Ha! Still, I love. Still, I try. Still, I fight on. Life is short.

Keep going, beloveds, though the way may seem and is, hard. Go. Grow. Above all…Live!

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Keep trying Tissue paper wars.

OMG!

I need you!

I NEED you!!

What the what the what!!!!

Wwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaa!

*stamps foot*

O

M

G

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*Cassandra considers tossing the offending not wanting to open itself so she can roll off some tissues and thought against it. She DID NEED IT ALREADY!!! WHY IN THE NAME OF ALL THAT IS…OMG!!*

*Cassandra patiently slides her delicately fingers around THE STUPID TOILET PAPER FOR THE 100000000000 TIME IN HOPES TO GET A FEW MEASILY SQUARES OF TOILET PAPER!!!!!!*

What a way to start the morning, eh, beloveds? Not to mention I LEFT MY PHONE ON THE KITCHEN COUNTER AND WAS TOO TIRED TO GO BACK AND GET IT!

Hhmm.

*Cassandra, listening to the apparent hints from The Universe, and goes back to 🛏bed.*

Have an awesome Thanksgiving, beloveds.

For those missing loved ones, be encouraged. Love on you today. Enjoy your day.

For those who wish they had loved ones, what the world you still sitting on the sidelines? Join a group. Make your own group. Pray. Reach out. Be the friend you are looking for.

For those who have loved ones who are working their last nerves…hhmm. I got nothing. Do the best you can. Whew.🥰😆

For all:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

Thank(ful).

I am thankful, today.

I thought today, the day before Thanksgiving, would be super hard.

I thought I would be:

Sad.

Melancholy.

Wistful.

I find myself:

Thankful.

Grateful.

Hopeful.

Yes, I miss mom. Yet, not. She is with me. Just in another place then me. Yet, with me. Still.

Ah, mom.

I am tickled, thinking of all the dumb conversations we had. I loved saying super dumb things to make her laugh. Her laugh was as ridiculous as mine.

Ah, mom.

Life is good, beloveds. Be encouraged. Remember loved ones. Embrace the moments and memories shared. Make new ones, in a new way.

Ah, beloveds. Be encouraged. I am thankful, for each and every one of you. Newbies AND old-bies(okay Britta?..lol). I enjoy praying for you and wondering what the world you are up to in your corner of the world.

Yall are soooooooooooooooooooo special. Stop hiding your hearts from the world! The world needs YOU. Don’t worry if you will be loved back. YOU go the 100%. God/Life/The Universe will meet you the rest of the way. You SHALL be loved. Be sure to love you some YOU. Stop waiting for others to fill your bucket. Get to filling yours and the rest SHALL be added unto you.

forever grateful/thank(ful),

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Smh. I can NOT believe yall still here waiting for a note. Off with you! We got thangs to do. Geeeeeeeeeeeeeez. Since you still here, Valencia AND Silent Knight…hehe…

*Cassandra tosses some water balloons and tears out of the room…hehe…*

No nonsense: Tell your feels No!

Me: No!

Me: Nonsense!

This was me, beloveds, when I found myself wanting to get all up in my feels because life was being mean. Or, so I thought/said/whined/complained.

It’s important, beloveds, to not allow your feels to run your life.

Otherwise, your feels will have you all up in your feelings. You will begin to say:

No way.

I don’t know how.

It’s hopeless.

I am hopeless.

It’s imperative to tell your feels NO, and absolutely NOT, when they want to act a fool and act like all is lost. All is NOT lost. Some things may be hard, at the moment. Other things, may have been removed, but ALL is NOT lost.

Tell your feels:

No!

So what?

Keep going.

Boo hoo!

Then, get back to:

Living.

Loving.

Hoping.

Life can and does happen. So what, beloveds? What are YOU going to do about it? Stop carrying on and start happening to your life! Life is not always fair. So what? Boo hoo. Now, happy? I have cried for you. I have played a little violin for you. I know, this sounds hard/harsh. And? Life is short. Hard/harsh is NOT a crime, you know.

I have been snatching my feels, by the collar, and letting them know….well, NO. You will NOT run my life. I do. It’s okay, to feel things. Just not the best choice to allow your feels to run you ragged doing things that do not serve you. Be encouraged, though. You got me. How terrible can your life be knowing this amazing factoid!?

Here,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. Everything will be alright. Remember you are loved and not alone. Keep being you.

Ah, God. Why NOW?

Ah, God.

Why NOW?

Did this hard HAVE to get extra hard, just NOW?

Ow, God!

Thus hard really hurts. Especially NOW.

Oh, God.

You promised not to give more than we can bear. I trust You. Me? Not so much with this much hard.

I want to:

Run.

Hide.

Rage.

What good would that do?

So I:

Stand here.

Mute.

Screaming inwardly.

Praying outwardly.

Ah, God. Why NOW?

asking for a friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep pushing through the hard. You will get through. You are NOT alone. You are loved. Be encouraged.

I can not tell you how hard life has been to me. So what? I have thangs to do. As do you. I no longer allow myself to wallow. I don’t know how many more moments I have. Neither do you. Live. Love someone. Starting with you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU.

Shut it: The Universe told me to shut up(it).

The Universe: Shut it! Close your mouth. Open your heart.

Me: Ow. Ew. Okay.

Geeeez!

So, I had been praying, er, complaining, about how woe is me and why is my life acting this way and…

*sound of needle being scratched across record can be heard*

Yeppers, beloveds, The Universe snatched me up quick, fast and in a hurry. Reminded me that I had to CHOOSE to wade past all my blessings, to get to the things I did not have.

I had to move my joy, to the side, to focus on the no, I thought I heard.

I had to kick to the curb, all the images of past victories, I had experienced, in order to look upon the apparent victories that would never be.

In short, I was choosing to look at my nots, my not nows, and forget about all the yes and amens I have experienced, up to now.

Life won’t always tell you yes. So what?

God won’t always tell you yes. So what?

The Universe won’t always tell you yes. So what?

You were ecstatic, weren’t you, when you received your yes?

High time we all learn to except the no, just as graciously.

I told The Universe geeeeeeeeeez then got back to living, hoping, trying and enjoying my life, right NOW, not in some nether world of maybe or how come.

When your feels get you all up in your feelings, shut it. When your try wants to cut up and sit down, shut it. When your fears want to get all up in your business and scare the behooey out of you, shut it.

Shut the door on:

Complaining.

Fear.

Hopelessness.

Anger.

Impatience.

And all the things you may have been allowing to tell your joy to shut it.

Shut the door on disbelief. Shut it out. Tell it to kick rocks. Life is short and you got thangs to do.

telling doubt to shut it up,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, so, um, why you still here? Get on out there and love someone. Someone needs the awesome life called you. Don’t forget how amazingly fabulous your heart and life is. For those who don’t think so…what the world is the matter with THEM?

Be encouraged.

Be encouraged.

You CAN.

You WILL.

Have awesome evening/day wherever you find yourself.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Don’t be afraid of your lonely.

I have been lonely lately. I don’t know why. Normally I enjoy being alone.

I am learning to sit with my lonely and talk to her. I ask her why she is lonely. I asked her what she would like to do with her life. I ask her what she needs from me.

She sighs.

She looks at me in a longing way.

I don’t know what she longs for.

I don’t know what my heart is longing for right now.

I used to be afraid of feeling such as this. I turned the noise up loud so as not to hear feelings like this.

Now I sit.

Now I listen.

Lonely has been awfully loud lately.

I think I shall take lonely and go sit with The Universe. I shall ask The Universe to speak with lonely.

It would be easy if I could work my way out of lonely. I have tried. It hasn’t work. Lonely obviously has something it wishes to say to me. I shall listen.

listening to my lonely,

Cassandra,

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Listen to your lonely. Don’t fill the space with distraction or other people. Sometimes, your heart needs to speak to and be with just you. Many are terrified of themselves. Don’t be, beloveds.

Don’t be ashamed of who you are. Don’t be ashamed of where you are. If you have been or done some not so nice things, forgive yourself. Make things right, if you can. Ask forgiveness then begin again. Stop shaming yourself for things you were ashamed of doing.

God loves you when you are loving. God loves you when you have been not so much. He loved you. Period. Let yourself out of the jail you have placed yourself in. You hurt. So, you hurt someone else. Unfortunate.

Be encouraged. We are NOT our mistakes. We are NOT our pain. You do yourself a disservice when you lock away your heart. Let folk in. Begin again. Okay? Asking for A Friend.

Remember:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

You are not alone.

You are not alone.

Someone is.

Love them.

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Someone needs to hear they are not alone. Maybe that someone was you, today. Love somebody. Be encouraged. I have been telling folks to be encouraged for more than thirty years. A long time. I have to tell myself that often. Fighting for dreams can be discouraging. This has been an awfully discouraging year and a lonely one for me for some reason.

We only get this one life. I don’t think folk understand this. If so, they probably wouldn’t be acting the way that they are. I am so earnest when I write because I hope to catch a few before it’s too late and they run out of time. Ah…