Category: God

Again. Again. And, again.

How many times will I try?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I forgive?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I love?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I lose?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I win?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I seek?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I receive?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I laugh?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I surrender?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

living to the utmost,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: How many times shall I think of you, beloveds?

Again.

Again.

And, again!

In case no one has told you today: I love you.

Enough already with simply surviving. Get on out there and live. Enjoy your life. Right now. Right where you are. Enjoy the folk around you. Love those in your vicinity. Expand your circle. Love as many folk as your heart can hold. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Heart❤️‍🩹check Tuesday on a Monday.

If your heart looks/feels anything close to mine, beloveds, you are currently in need of a whole lot of love and care.

Why?

You are simply exhausted.

Why?

Your world has turned into a never-ending series of try, fall, fail. Rinse. Repeat.

After a while, without an end, without resolution, without fulfillment…*sigh*

After a while, it begins to wear on the soul.

The Bible says for us to NOT be weary, in well doing. As we SHALL reap if we faint not. I’m too weary to remember where this is found in the bible(kidding Galatians 6:9).

My try is awfully tired. I just want to wake up and live in my fulfilled dreams. The way I imagine they will be.

I was laying in bed, pondering, wondering what the world would even LOOK like fulfilled.

Don’t get me wrong. I love life. I love yakking incessantly with God, with Life, with The Universe, and with you.

I love working. I love telling jokes and making folks laugh.

I love watching my sports. I love wandering through my eclectic mismadge of YouTube channels.

I love sooooooooooooooooooooo many things.

Yet, there has been a dream which has been calling me for the entirety of my life. I feel I may fail it/them. I fear I may I let them down.

I beat myself up for not having born them into fruition.

I no longer know if I am chasing my dreams or if they are now chasing me?

Am I afraid of them? Is this why they have not come?

Ah, God.

Why do Yall keep bothering me?

Asking for many friends.

How is your ❤️‍🩹 heart, beloveds?

If your heart is anything like mine, I feel your pain!

Be encouraged.

Keep going.

Don’t give up.

Not just yet.

I know you are tired. I know you want to be there already! So do I. The fact that we are not there yet IS an answer.

We are EXACTLY where we are supposed to be. The Universe has already calculated our dumbness, our foolishness, our fear, our doubt, our apathy, our disappointment, our try or lack thereof all into the equation.

In the meantime, beloveds, enjoy this life you have. We only get ONE shot at this. Enjoy each moment.

In case no one has told you today: I love you.

His and yours,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Ah, beloveds, be encouraged. The week is just starting. Just saying that makes me tired. Yet, just saying that also feels me with joy. Today, my dreams may yet well catch up to me or vice versa!

Love someone. Starting with you. Reach out to someone. Someone needs to hear and to know they are loved and not alone.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

55, thanks for scaring the hell out of me.

55 has been a harsh teacher.

55 could give two hoots about my feels.

55 laughs at tired.

55 dismisses fear with desdain.

55 scoffs at doubt.

55 refuses to relent.

55 has scared the hell out of me.

Thank you, 55, for scaring me half to death. Thank you, 55, for forcing me to confront EVERY shred of anxt.

I appreciate you, 55, forever shouting at me life is soooooooooooooooooooooo short.

It becomes awfully hard to waste time wasting time now.

It has become impossible to tell myself achieving my dreams is impossible.

I don’t have time, beloveds, to give up. Neither do you!

The clock is ticking. We have NO idea how many moments we have. This is nothing to be afraid of. It is something to reflect on and be mindful of.

What are you waiting for?

Do the hard.

Embrace where you are.

Try.

Rinse.

Repeat.

Keep making your act right act right.

We don’t have time to do as the world is doing in chasing things that matters not.

I rose early.

I encouraged.

I loved.

I tried.

No, my dreams have not shown up yet. Yet, I show up. EVERY day. I can’t help what’s not coming. I CAN control when and where I show up.

Ah, God. Hurry. I got thangs to do. Show me how to make my dreams come true!

I am soaring, as best as I can. Help me get up higher. I think I can. I’m not sure, though. I have never been this high. Ah, God. I am terrified of heights.

55, thanks for scaring the hell out of me. I got thangs to do.

doing them thangs,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: The only thing keeping you from keeping on is you. Tell yourself to get going. Life is short. Tell doubt to kick rocks. Tell fear ha! Tell yourself the truth: You CAN. You WILL. You HAVE TO! Get going…asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

When the news ain’t good.

Ah, God.

I’m sooooooooooooooooooooooo tired of all this bad news runnin’ ’round!

Ah, Life.

I’m soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sick of you handing me lemons to make lemonade with!

Ah, Universe.

Why are You NOT protecting me and them that I love?

Ah, me.

What are we going to DO!?

*Cassandra crawls up on The Father’s Lap for a good cry*

*sigh*

Be encouraged, beloveds. Do NOT allow tough news to set you into a panic. Tough times happen. Tough things happen.

That said, we are NOT alone.

When going through, be sure to reach out for love and support. Keep being good to you. Be honest. It’s okay to be upset when upsetting things/news happens. Still, we MUST hold fast to our faith, to our hope, to our joy.

I talked to my boss and am taking the rest of the day off for my mental health sake.

Be encouraged, beloveds. Keep on keeping on.

We got this.

I think.

having a mini freak out but that’s okay,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Ah, God. Life has NOT been funny this week. Whew!

Love someone. Starting with you. It has been such a joy getting to know folk here. This is our safe space to cut up and act a fool. A place where we can say ‘Ow, God’ and not feel bad. Be encouraged.

In case no one has told you today: I love you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

For you, for them, or for Him?

Why are you with them?

Why are you working there?

Why are you serving Him?

For you?

For them?

For Him?

Or, are you doing things to serve you?

Nothing wrong with that. It’s just important to know what you are doing your why for. So you are not disappointed with the results.

Why are you trying?

For you?

For them?

For Him?

It’s important to know, to understand WHY you are doing what you are doing.

Why?

Otherwise, you will lead a life of quiet frustration. Vaguely annoyed/angry/dismayed as life appears to be swaying you this way and that.

Knowing your why helps keeps you centered and focused. It also helps keep you from living your life in a victim-like state.

Too often, folk allow themselves to be swayed by other people’s views and desires.

Life is short, beloveds. It’s time, don’t you think, for folk to…THINK!! 🤔

Who do I live/love/dream/hope for?

For you?

For them?

For Him?

Don’t you know by now?

All of the above!

Nuff said,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

The end is only the beginning.

Don’t despair, beloveds, when hard seems just toooooooooooooooooo hard.

Be encouraged. In fact, get excited!

The world will ONLY tell you your end is nigh, when it sees how AWESOME your life is fixing to become!

This is NOT the end of you and your dreams. It’s not. Be encouraged.

This morning, I told God I had NO idea how I was going to make it through ten minutes. Let alone ALL day. I told Him I would try. I told ME I would try. If even just a little bit.

The day greeted me with kindness and has laughed with me ALL day. I have had a blast encouraging folks, telling corny jokes, messing up a bit, doing well a smidge and basically making sure my act right keeps acting right.

Please don’t give up on you, beloveds. Not just yet. Please don’t.

We give up much, much too easily on OUR dreams, don’t we? Tell the truth. If to no one other than yourself.

We will slay dragons for everyone, including our enemies. Yet, just as soon as one whiff of adversity comes we are crying foul and what in the fresh hell was that?

I had a long talk with myself. It hurt. I’m glad I did so. I forgave myself for giving up on ME so damned easily. Dammit, Cassandra! Your life and your dreams ARE important! Fight for them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

55 has been relentless with me. 55 keeps telling me to keep betting on ME. If I don’t make it, it will NOT be because I have not given every single ounce of try that I hold.

I CAN.

I WILL.

I MUST.

Why?

Because your dreams may be contained in my why.

MY dreams, beloveds, may be contained in YOUR why!

You CAN.

You WILL.

You HAVE TO.

There are too many folks who have given up. If you are one of those folks, it’s okay.

Rest. Then, get to moving!

WE GOT THANGS TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hear a cup of coffee calling. Come have a cup with me. Asking for A Friend.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Don’t fear the giants in the land. Chase those jokers out of your promised land. In the meantime, keep reaching out for love and asking for what you need. The Universe hears you. God hears you. Life hears you. Jesus loves you. I got your back. How much safer can you be? In case no one has told you today:

I love you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

55: Enough already!

Me: Enough already!

55: What’d I do now?

Me: EVERY day, 55, you remind me of all I have not yet done!

55: How in the world did I do that?

Me: By being 55! My God!…55!!!!!!

55: What’s wrong with ME? You enjoyed all the other 5’s up til now.

Me: Hhmm. This is true. They never made me feel…well….oooooooooooollld.

55: Why do I make you feel old?

Me: Ah.

55: Aha!

Me: Couldja send 20s back round so I can redo some things?

55: Life doesn’t work that way.

Me: Well, crap.

55: I feel you.

Me: I don’t know what to DO with you, 55. I don’t know what to do with ME. I’m afraid of all your friends coming behind. I’m afraid they might not come.

55: I see. I have some things I would like to show you. May I? I’m asking for A Friend.

Me: K

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: 55 has been scaring the begeez out of me. She keeps pushing me over cliffs and forcing me to fly. How deliciously terrifyingly fantastic.

Keep going, beloveds. Don’t let your age, whatever your number, scare you into believing all is lost and your days are numbered. They are numbered. You just don’t know how many have been alloted. Best to enjoy each one, eh? Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

What do you do AFTER you have quit?

What do you do AFTER you have quit?

Great question!

Don’t ask any of us though.

Why?

Because we will NEVER:

Quit.

Give up on our dreams.

Give up on love.

Stop trying.

Stop believing.

Be content with mediocrity.

Be content with hiding within comfort zones.

Why?

We got thangs to do.

doing thangs,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I’m tired. I told God to either rescue me or let the damn shoe drop already!!

Then, I got some act right and thanked God for grace so I can keep it moving. This is the day the Lord has made. I SHALL rejoice and be glad in it(Psalms 118:24).

Be glad in your day, beloveds. Don’t drag worry and concern all through your day. You have no idea what life has in store.

I choose to laugh, whether it be rain or sunshine. Why? Great question. Keep asking!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Run: You CAN. You WILL!

Keep going, beloveds!

You CAN.

You WILL!

If you are reading these words, you HAVE!

I know, the way, has been hard.

Still.

Yet, something, deep inside, is compelling you to:

Keep going.

Keep trying.

Keep hoping.

Keep reaching.

Keep loving.

Keep living.

Go.

Go on, now.

God/Life/Universe ain’t done with you, yet.

Don’t worry, about how long you are taking.

Don’t concern, yourself with the mistakes, mishaps, missteps, along the way.

Don’t bother, being bothered, by the things which seem to so easily beset you and set you back.

This isn’t a pep talk, beloveds. Lift up your head and see how far you have come!

You could have quit, long time ago. Many, already have. Yet, SOMETHING just won’t allow you to give up. Not, just yet.

Everything in you wants to run.

It’s not yet time, to run.

That’s okay.

Your heart is being strengthened.

Your mind is being transformed.

Your spirit is being renewed.

Your soul is being fed.

It shall take ALL of you, to run.

As one.

Together.

Free.

To live, to move, and to have your being.

Be encouraged, beloveds.

You CAN.

You WILL.

You have to. The world needs you. Besides, you owe it to yourself. What in the fresh hell are you waiting for?!

running with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Run: You WILL!

Reality has been punching me in the face.

For weeks.

For weeks, I’m telling ya!

Ow!!

So much so I told The Universe to kick rocks!

I’m tired!

Help me or leave me alone already!!!!

*stamps foot*

😳

🥵

🤯

Unfortunately, for me, my try has NO interest in excuses. My try keeps telling me to:

Shut it!

Keep it moving!

So bloody what?!

Kinda hard to argue with try.

My try keeps telling me I WILL.

So, I shall keep trying.

Crap!

*pout*

running anyway,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep going, beloveds. You can do it. You can. If I have to, you do as well.😳😭😂🤣👢🙌🐐🔥

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!