The louder I am, the quieter I have gotten.

The louder I am, the quieter, I have gotten.

The more, I have to say. The less, I find, to say.

Odd.

I am.

How odd.

oddly saying less,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I find this piece, odd. Deliciously so! How odd? So what? Why can’t I be odd? I can. So can you. The point, of the piece, of life, of this moment, is to BE. In, the moment. IN THE MOMENT!

Who cares who think it’s odd? Why can’t you be odd?! Be. Who you are. Unapologetically.

And the people said:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

THAT does not define you.

A relationship.

A job.

A house.

A car.

A mate.

No mate.

A child.

No child.

THAT does NOT, define who you are.

THAT does NOT, define who you are not.

THAT does NOT, define who you will/can be.

We fail each other, don’t we, when we try to cramp one another, into this box or that one?

Why, don’t we hold one another, by what we say, by what we do, by who we ARE?

Why must we have, before we can have, the esteem, of another?

Can’t I, just be, me?

Can’t you, just be, you?

Must we, be defined, by who we loved, by who we had, by who we didn’t have?

Must we, define ourselves, by where we live, where we didn’t live, who did or did not live, by us?

Must our children, or lack thereof, bear the brunt, of our definition? Must THEY be, in order for us to feel as if we, belong?

What then, does this, make our children?

Oh, that we lived, in a world, where our merit is by OUR merit. Yet, we have unmerited favor, by He who loves us, just cuz.

Just cuz, we are.

Never forget:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

I have been under the weather. No fun. It reminds me I know not how long I shall roam. I find myself wanting to shake the whole damned world. Wake up. Life is short. Time for us all to wake, from our slumber.

I am awake. The Universe is calling. Can you hear??…

listening,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: These words, won’t let me rest. They need to find…YOU! Go, now. You know I am speaking, to you. The Universe needs you. Ah, you feel it! That tug. That pull. Fear not. Go…

THAT defines who you are.

THAT defines who you are.

That.

That!

THAT!!

THAT defines who you are:

Your, try, or lack, therof.

Your, love, or lack thereof.

Your, care, or lack thereof.

Your, choices, or lack, thereof.

Your empathy, or lack, thereof.

Your, faith, or lack, thereof.

What you lack, financially, does NOT, define you.

What you lack, status-wise, does NOT, define you.

What you lack, physically, does NOT, define you.

Therefore:

Try.

Love.

Care.

Empathize.

Choose.

Believe.

In, you.

In, Life.

In, Love.

In, me.

In, God.

In, The Universe.

In, your fellow man.

In, your community.

In, your family.

The world will tell you not to. Tell the world to kick rocks and care, anyway. You and I are defined, partially, aren’t we, by…?

You tell me. Too often, we wait for others, for things, for this, for that, to define us. Best WE be about defining ourselves, eh, beloveds?

Life is much too short. Keep doing THAT…

doing THAT with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You tell me…

The Universe woke me up this morning.

The Universe, woke me up, this morning.

“Your life is about to change”.

How?

In what way?

Breathless, I await.

For?

I know not.

I find myself, breathless.

I have found, myself.

Ah.

Aha!

Your life is about to change, beloveds.

How?

In what way?

Ah.

Aha!

Keep asking.

breathless,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life woke me up early, this morning. Why? I shall tell you, perhaps, at day’s end. Don’t you have your own present, as in the present, to open? Let us go. Our lives are about to change…

You don’t HAVE to.

I made some instant coffee.

Instantaneously, two thoughts occurred:

Ewww!

Yech!!

By far, the worst cup of coffee in the history of mankind. I almost drink it. I was raised not to be wasteful. There were starving children, you see, across the world.

What did I do with the worst possible history of mankind? I thought of start with children across the sea, and poured the coffee down the drain. I’m tired of being guilted into doing things. I made a fresh cup of coffee.

I am done doing all the things the world thinks I should. The only things I should do, is to ask myself what I am going to do.

I no longer do things, blindly. I no longer do things, because that’s how they were always done. I no longer do things, because I have to. I don’t have to do anything neither do you.

I’m working on being the best me that I can be. For me. I can’t help what the world does. I can’t help what you do. All I can do is shine my life.

I like my blog because it brings me joy. It pleases me to encourage others. To encourage myself. With my words. Words, that comes from my soul. Words, that makes me laugh. Words, that makes me think. Words, that hopefully makes other people laugh and think.

Staying positive takes work. Doing your best when you’re tired, takes effort. Caring and a world where Caroline is scoffed at, takes real effort. I don’t have to. I choose to. I want to.

I love making it do what it do. I love being about being about. I enjoy making dumb sentences. I enjoy making myself laugh with my own words. I get a kick out of daydreaming about what my life could be. I enjoy being me.

Enjoy your life, beloved. Do things because you choose to. Never because you feel you have to. Or that you should.

Stop lying about what others think of you. What do you think of you? If you are satisfied with your efforts, let that be enough. You are enough. I will keep telling you this, unto you believe me. Until, you believe in you.

Take care of your heart, for it is precious. As are you. You know what I am about to say next:

You are love.

You are not alone.

Keep on being you.

You got this.

I got you.

Rejoicing,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: this is your time. Use it.

Heart β™₯ check: Take vertigo with you.

Vertigo has been kicking my tail, lately. This morning, I woke to the world spinning madly. What did I do? I got about my day. I’ve move more slowly. I moved, deliberately. I refuse, to let vertigo from enjoying my day.

I made coffee. I wrote. I talked to my twin. I made tater tots. Scrumptious.

Fighting with a chronic illness is no fun. It gets old. Yes, I pray for healing. As the meantime, I keep living. Life is short.

There are days, but I don’t feel like fighting the good fight I don’t feel like fighting, at all. I just want to live. Without all the hard. Life must life be so hard, I ask it. Life, only laugh. And, smiles, at me. Live, life says.

I have had a wonderful day, so far, dragging vertigo with me.

I refuse, to let anything stop me. Not, anymore.

I just stopped by, beloved, to check on. I hope you’re making the most out of your day I hope you’re doing something that will make you smile. I hope you have reached out to someone. I hope…

Be well. Be encouraged.

Look around you breathe deeply. You have done your best, this week. Rest now. You have earned it.

Resting with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: obstacles are just that: obstacles. Yet, they are also opportunities. Opportunities to:

Grow.

Stretch yourself.

Learn.

Heal.

July.

Embrace.

Rejoice.

Resolve.

Determine.

Endeavor.

Remain steadfast.

Keep trying. Today, you may be on the losing end. Tomorrow, you may win. Either way, you are in the game. Keep playing. Keep supporting your team. They may lose, this week. They may when, the following. Enjoy their fight. Enjoy your flight. Let’s go, beloved. We got things to do…

Remember:

You are love.

You are not alone.

Keep on being you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

After.

When can you, stop?

After.

After you have, crossed the finish line.

When can you, quit?

After.

After you are, done.

When can you, walk away?

After.

After you have, won.

When can you, forget about your dream?

After.

After your dream, has come true.

When can you, stop believing, in love?

After.

After you are, lying in the arms, of your lover.

When will you, stop?

After.

After, all things have worked out for your good.

Keep going, beloveds. You have a happily ever ‘after’ to live.

Believingi n you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: it’s so easy, to give up on ourselves and on our dreams. It’s so easy, 210 walk away. It’s so easy, to allow disappointment to keep us from trying again. Don’t take the easy way out. Keep going. Things will turn out for your good. Maybe, not the way you thought they would, but how life chose him to be.

You could do much more than you give yourself credit for. Fight for you. Fight for your dreams. Fight distractions. Find fear. Fight despair. Fight discouragement. Fight disappointment. Keep trying.

Life is what you make it. You have one life to live. Enjoy your life. All of it. Take a moment. Take a breath. Take one step. Then, another step. Don’t worry about the end result. Don’t work. Do you best. Be satisfied with that. It’s all you can do. Just try.

You can do this thing called life. You will.

Remember:

You are loved.

You are not alone.

Keep on being you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

Note number two: my woman is going to get mad, because I did not capitalize the word not after you are not alone. Also, she is going to laugh because she’s also going to get mad because I didn’t put the three dots in between being in you and capitalize you.

I did this on purpose. I keep telling her, that you don’t always have to keep writing the same way. I keep telling her, sometimes you have to change your expectations. People are used to seeing things the same way. I have been working on trying to see things differently. I have been working on trying new things.

I’m learning how to color outside the lines things don’t have to be perfect. My tribe does not have to be perfect. I don’t have to be perfect. I just need to try. I do. I will. I’ll try.…

French fries at midnight: Take the extra day, Cassandra.

I have been fighting with the cold for more than a week. I took one day off. I should’ve taken an extra day. I thought about bills. I thought about needing to get back to work. I thought about everything but me. My body begged to differ. My body, asked for another day. To rest.

I chose me. I was hungry. It was midnight. I wanted french fries. Points french fries at midnight? I thought about my past life of always doing things I thought I should do. I told should to shut up. I may french fries, at midnight.

I think it’s time, for folks to start using them. Choose you, beloved. Choose french fries at midnight, at times. Life is short. Time to stop overworking yourself. Time to stop worrying about everybody but you. It’s time, don’t you think?

I took an extra day. I left the writing alone. I told the universe to take care of the world. I take care of me. The older I get, the more I understand I need to do the things I have been putting off. I don’t know how much time I’ll have. Neither do you.

I say we tried all kind of ridiculous things, and see what happens.

Trying new things,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Thanksgiving is next month. We all have things to be thankful for. Be thankful, now, for the things you have now. Stop focusing on what you don’t have, yet. Those things will come. Or, they may not. Your life is still full. Be encouraged and know you are loved and not alone. It’s easy to feel alone. Even, in the midst of a crowd. It’s easy, to think we are not seen. It’s easy, to want to give up.

I have been writing a lot about not giving up. Why? Because, I have to keep talking myself into not giving up. I’m 54. I wonder how much time I have left. I wonder, if I’m wasting my time. The moment I think that, I tell myself to shut up. I know, my life is having an impact. I just can’t see it. I don’t think we’re supposed to know the impact we really have.

Be encouraged. This economy, is quite discouraging. The climate we live in, is quite discouraging. The way people are acting, is quite discouraging. All we can do, beloveds, is to keep doing the best we can. All we can do, beloveds, is to keep being the best person that we can be. All we can do, beloveds, is to keep trying the best we know how. The rest will come out in the wash…

How much?

How much…

Are your dreams, worth?

How much…

Sweat equity, are you willing to put out?

How much…

Are your passions, worth?

How much…

Effort, prayer, faith, will you use to see these things through?

How much…

Time will you waste, doubting your try?

How much…

Time do you have?

How much…

Are you loved?

Infinitely!

How much…

Does God, Life, and The Universe, believe in you?

Infinitely!

How much…

Do I pray and hope for you?

Infinitely!

Life is short. Be encouraged. You are worth so much more than you know. Be good to you, okay? Asking for a Friend.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

NO excuses: Use your obstacles as fuel.

What?!

WHAT!!!???!!

🀯😀😑😠😳😲

That’s what I THOUGHT, to myself, as my boss was giving me news that…..

*stamps foot*

Long story short, I have to have my internet provider to replace my router or find myself out of a 12 year job!!

*stamps foot*

In the past, I would have….okay, you don’t even want to know…whew!

Instead, I started making calls, making arrangements and making myself prepare for drama. Smh.

I had taken another day, to get over this cold/flu. Obstacles, however, decided to show up and show out.

What did I do? Told obstacles I hope they packed a large lunch, then got to beating some obstacles…ehem, for messing with my perfectly pleasant day off!

NO excuses, beloveds! None. Nada. Nope!

NOTHING shall be reason enough, to get us to give up or give in!

I told hard, long time ago, it would be my REASON to keep going! I told fear, it would be my REASON, to not fear. I told doubt, it would be my REASON, to remain hopeful and joyful!

Life is hard, right now. So what?!

Your dreams won’t cooperate, right now. So what?!

Your finances are laughing at you, right now. So what?!

You are alone, right now. So what?!

You are not alone, right now. So what?!

Add whatever excuse/situation you want. So what?!

Life is short. Embrace your life. Enjoy your day. No matter what. We got this.

making no excuses,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay really? Get going…lol πŸ˜‚

Remember:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU