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I am not strong: It’s okay to be Clark Kent.

I am not strong.

Not today.

Not for some time.

I wonder if I shall EVER regain my strength.

I wonder if I shall ever find my feet upon solid footing.

God: You are standing upon My Word. You are standing on faith. You are standing on joy. You are standing on love. You are standing with the fruits of the Spirit. How much safer could you be.

Ah.

Aha!

I am learning to be okay with being Clark Kent. I do NOT have to be Superman all the time. I can just be:

Tired.

Worn.

Uncertain.

Hesitant.

Why?

Because, as the Bible says, when I am weak, THEN He is strong. And, His Strength is made perfect in my weakness. It’s a good thing because I am awfully weak, at the moment.

I have never been allowed to be weak. Society DEMANDS black women to be stoic, strong. We are expected to champion, carry, deliver for the entirety of the world. We are not to have dreams.

Our dreams, we have been told, are to uplift and make true the dreams of everyone in the world. Then, and ONLY then, if there are a few meager scraps, we are able to hoard them and partake ONLY if no one else wants them.

Beloveds, hear me, we were NEVER called to bear the burden of the world. Yes, we serve others. Yet, ONLY out of choice, out of love, out of integrity, out of desire to make things better than where and when we found them.

We were NEVER meant to toss aside our dreams. We were NEVER asked to dismiss our why. We were NEVER supposed to keep our hearts away from love meant to love us.

Ah, beloveds. You are worthy. You are valued. You are cherished. Your life was worth the death of A King. Jesus. Even those who hate Him. Even those who don’t believe He is.

Ah, beloveds, lift up your head. Stop shaming you. Stop allowing others to shame you. They are only projecting THEIR shame onto you.

Ah, beloveds, it’s okay to be Clark Kent. You do NOT have to be Superman. You do NOT have to be strong.

Why?

Because, beloveds, you are loved. And, you are NOT alone.

Be encouraged. If you are weary, rest. If you are ready to move on, move. If you are ready to go, then go.

You got this. God has you. How much safer can you be?

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Beloveds, you are NOT alone. Life can feel awfully lonely. I have never felt soooooooooooooooo lonely in my life. Ever. I have also never felt so loved. Ever. By God.

Folks who I thought were friends, showed themselves not to be friendly. Folk who I thought had my back, turned their backs on me. Folk who I was CERTAIN would show me love, ghosted me instead.

Yet, God has been with me. Here. Now. He has gathered my tears. He has listened to my fears. He has held my dreams when I had tossed them aside. He has reclaimed prayers I had stopped giving Him thinking He had not and would not hear.

Be encouraged. This time is NOT here to break you. It’s here to help you realize you do NOT have to be Superman. Pick up your glasses, Clark Kent, and rest. God got this. Let Him be there for and with you. Asking for A Friend. In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He. Jesus said ‘what’s up?”

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I am not strong: Life kicked me in the hiney.👢

Life: 👢

Me: Ow.

Life: 👢

Me: Ow!

Life: 👢

Me: OW!! 😳😡

Life: 👢

Me: 😭🤬

Life: 👢🥊👢👢🥊🥊👢🤯🤡🥊👢

Day/Night: 🤼‍♀️.  You may want to spend less time wrestling with us, and more time addressing Life kicking your hiney. Not saying, just saying…

Me: K.

Life has been kicking my in the hiney for quite some time. Trying to get my attention. Trying to get me to move. Trying to get me to act in faith. Trying. Trying. Trying.

All the while, beloveds, I have been a trying soul for Life, for God, For The Universe to deal with. I have, had, been getting on my own last nerves.

I have been fighting.

Fighting me.

Fighting with me.

Fighting within me.

The me, with all the dreams, has been fighting with the me who had always been told she never could/would/should have all God, Life and The Universe had been preparing for me since before I was born.

For years, I have been wanting/needing to move forward. Onward. Somewhere!

Yet, I kept repeating lines others have whispered to me for the whole of my life:

“You never will”

“You never can”

“You are not enough”

“You don’t have”

“You won’t ever have”

“You can’t do THAT”

“You will never make it through THIS”

It’s not even that I believed them. It just seemed easier, somehow, to listen to them. Which led me to stop believing. In me. I stopped fighting. For me.

God knew this. Which is why He and The Universe kept sending Life to kick my hiney until I began to fight back.

For me.

With me.

Within me.

Now, beloveds, I fight with all that is within me. Bless His Holy Name.

Ah, God. Thank You for helping me to fight back.

Oh, Universe. Thank You for convincing me I could/can/shall/will.

Ow, Life. Thanks. Geeeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

grateful for lessons learned,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is short, beloveds. Best get to living it. It’s time to stop allowing yourselves to be ruled by fear instilled by others. By fears fueled by you. By fear coming from not knowing what comes next.

Ah, beloveds. You CAN. You WILL! The ONLY way to find out is to actually get out there and find out. I have. More about that in upcoming posts. Let’s go!!!! Asking for A Friend. In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Keep getting in your ten.

Eight.

EIGHT!

Me: I’m tired.

God: You promised you would write TEN pieces for the week. You have done eight.

Me: Only I will know, though.

God: Yes, only you will know. So will your dreams. So shall I.

Me: Geeeeeeeez. When You say it like that…*stomps to get in ten*

keeping my promise to ME,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: It’s necessary to keep your promises to YOU, beloveds. Don’t let lazy stop you. Don’t let unbelief stop you. Don’t let your circumstances keep you from keeping the promises you have made to you.

Okay, have to go now. Another piece is calling me. Good habits can be awfully mean, can’t they?

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

You got this.

You got this.

You can do this.

You can have this.

You shall overcome this.

You shall rejoice and be glad in this.

You will receive this.

You will experience this.

What is the this I speak of?

God knows and He’s not telling.

Get out there and find out all He has in store for you.

getting this with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You got this. Now go get it! Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

What are you waiting for?

What are you waiting for?

Who are you waiting for?

What are you hoping for?

When are you thinking of going?

How long before you allow yourself to get going?

What are you waiting for?

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Go, beloveds. You got thangs to do.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Uprooted: Overcoming me.

I am overcoming, beloved.

I am overcoming:

Me!

I am overcoming:

Fear.

Doubt.

Dread.

Scared.

Sad.

Mad.

Circumstances.

Situations.

Machinations.

Mechanics.

Mentals.

Incidentals.

Accidentals.

All things.

Everything.

I absolutely REFUSE to allow ANYTHING to cause bitterness or lack of faith to grow anywhere near me or inside me.

Nada.

Nope.

Not going to have it!!!!!

What has changed?

Me.

Me!

ME!!

As I have been forced to fight FOR me, because God has been so damned silent, I have learned to just try, to just keep it moving and let the rest take care of itself.

The bible says, in Isaiah 26:3 – YOU will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You. Which means to keep focusing on HIM. He shall keep us in perfect peace.

Now, for the non believers, I still pray perfect peace for you. We all fam, eh?

We are not alone.

We are loved.

How can we NOT be uplifted?

I am overcoming me. I’m sure this shall be the case for the rest of my days. No matter. I got time. I think…lol.

Be encouraged. Keep overcoming you. Don’t let you be the reason things don’t happen in your life. Try. Live. Love. Hope. Rejoice. Do. The rest SHALL come out in the wash.

I know it’s discouraging not hearing or receiving the way we think we would have, should have or could have. I am doing my best to ask and then joyfully receive what is given. Period.

Sooooooooooooooo, beloveds, I hear a large cup of coffee calling. Who is joining me?

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: We are more than conquerors. Get to conquering!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Uprooted: Go anyway.

It’s time to go.

Somewhere.

Somehow.

Some kind of way.

My heart absolutely REFUSES to stay, in THIS spot, for one more second. Nope, she says it’s time to get out of here. She doesn’t know how. Frankly, she could care less.

My heart could care less about my 55 year old whining, complaining, what if it doesn’t work out self. Ha, my heart says. Let’s go.

So, I go.

Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez.

going even though I have NO idea where/what/when/how,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I am excited. I am anxious. I am ready, though. Life is short. I am taking a leap of faith. I am leaping, beloveds. For ME. Pray for me. Leap with me. For YOU. Asking for Your Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Repeat after me: I’m amazing.

Repeat after me:

I’m amazing.

I can do countless things.

I WILL continue to thrive in EVERY element.

I shall NOT give in to callousness, apathy or fear.

I shall TRY. My try SHALL be enough.

I KNOW I am enough. Already. Always.

I’m blessed.

I’m courageous. I keep going no matter how badly I may feel.

I am loving.

I am lovable.

I am altogether lovely.

Let’s go, me!

I got thangs to do!

doing thangs,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, um, so like you have me sooooooooooooooooo fired up, beloveds! What the heckamiah are we still doing here!? Let’s go! We got thangs to do!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Heart check Monday.

How is your heart doing?

Have you:

Gotten in your me time?

Taken a chance?

Taken a break?

Cut yourself some slack?

Worked on your dream?

Let someone in?

Kicked someone out?

Looked up?

Prayed?

Stayed?

If so, good on you. If not, what in the wide world are you waiting for?

Be the person you have been waiting for. Give the love you have been waiting for. Share the gifts you have been waiting to receive.

I am currently jamming to ‘She’s A Bad Mamma Jamma’. For, I AM a bad mamma jamma!

YYYYYYYAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

How’s your heart, beloveds?

Just checking on you.

Okay, enough talk. Time for us to be about being about it.

Be encouraged. Enjoy your Monday. ALL of it. Don’t be afraid of the beginning of the week. It’s a wonderful time to start all over the mess you made from last week, eh?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHAAH!

chair dancing cuz life has got it going on like popcorn even when it’s hard,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You got this. As do I. Let’s rejoice, k? Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Uprooted: Fighting with(those)feelings again.

My feels are loud, right now.

My feels want to spill into/onto everything, right now.

My feels want me to feel everything in high definition, right now.

My feels want me to give up, right now.

My feels want me to run away somewhere and hide, right now.

My feels want to run amok and be as loud as they please without giving two damns about anyone hearing, right now.

My feels want to rage at The Universe for getting me in this uprooted mess, right now.

My feels want to just FFFFFEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLL DAMMIT, right now.

Right now, however, I have told my feels to sit down and to breathe, for now.

Breathe.

Rest.

Reflect.

Rinse.

Repeat.

Being uprooted can be terrifying. Being uprooted HAS been terrifying. Yet, I have found great comfort as I have continued to reach out and show my broken/tender/wounded heart.

I have been loved.

I have found that I am NOT alone.

Ah, God. Thanks for remaining silent so my voice can rise within me.

Be encouraged, beloveds. Continue to reach out for support and love. Continue to be good to yourself as you find your footing, once again.

I am shaken, still.

Still, my hope remains steady.

I have NO idea what the rest of this day shall bring. I shall greet whatever comes with hope in my heart. Still.

I fought the night, all night. The night won. Night kept dawn in it’s clutches much longer than it should have. Finally, Day wrenched itself from Night and Reality’s cold grips and gave itself to me.

Day: Make something of me, beloved. Life is too short to waste.

Me: K.

I am doing my bestest, beloveds, to make something of THIS day. I am not looking beyond this cup of coffee. Speaking of which, come have a cup with me. Someone bring some Herbal tea for Craig. He says no milk please/thanks.

asking for a friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Hang in there, beloveds. Don’t let your struggles lie to you. You WILL be okay. As will I. I refuse to allow fear to enter ANY equation for me, right now. I have been fighting with NOT being anxious since the tornado.

Fear not, beloveds. Remain hopeful. The best is yet to come. It just doesn’t FEEL like it. Do NOT allow your feels to run your right now. Acknowledge them. Listen to them. Feel them. Deal with them. Then, send them on their way and continue walking underneath your umbrella of love, hope and joy. I go with you. In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He. Be encouraged…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!