Category: Song

Shaken.

I have been shakened.

Stirred.

Finally.

It only took 56 years.

My confidence laughs at me.

I find I can not yet make lemonade out of lemons, here lately.

Lately, I question.

Lately, I wonder.

Lately, I am hesitate on taking the next steps.

Ah, hard, why must you be so hard.

You challenge me at EVERY turn. You ask me if I am sure. You demand an accounting of my choices.

Ack. Crapola. Heckamiah Jeremiah.

For the first time, though, I face you. I refuse to run from you. I will NOT run from these questions.

Shakened.

Stirred.

Awakened.

Ah.

Aha!

I wonder what life shall bring out in me.

wondering,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: The closer I get to my birthday, beloveds, the more old fears want to rush out of everywhere to confront me. I fight on.

I just stopped by to encourage someone. Starting with me. Be encouraged. Don’t allow your age, the unknown, your bills, lack or any other thing to cause you to question your dreams. Keep moving towards them. Keep moving FORWARD. Keep looking UP. We SHALL get there. One day. Some day. Some kind of way.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Searching for something.

I’ve been searching for something.

I’ve looked everywhere.

Something is missing.

Somehow.

Some way.

I can feel it.

IT.

WHAT am I looking for?

What is IT?

It has been calling me lately.

At first, a quiet whisper.

Later, a nagging itch.

Now, a silent roar.

It has taken over.

Everywhere.

It pursues me in my dreams. Awakened, I wonder where it is.

Restless, my days now seem empty. I don’t know what is missing. I just know there is SOMETHING missing.

Crap.

I must find it.

Where are you?

seeking,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I have been restless for days. My heart is desperately seeking SOMETHING,  beloveds. I have NO idea what it is.

My birthday is coming. I am now closer to 60 than I ever was to 50. I’m not sure how I feel about that.

Normally, I would have written my way out. I would have written dozens of inspiring pieces meant to encourage you and me.

This time, I have decided to sit with this. This unknowing. This unsettled feeling. This. It. Ah, God. What do I DO with me now? Asking for many friends.

This is a challenging time in history. Things are changing. Things have changed. Many things have gotten hopelessly worse.

I choose to continue to be a light. We shall make it through these times. Somehow. In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He. Be encouraged.



One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Feed your soul.

Feed your soul.

Feed your heart.

Feed your spirit.

Feed yourself with positive things, hopeful things, inspirational things, thoughtful things.

Get rid of the thoughtless. Dismiss the heartless. Kick out the apathetic.

Life is what WE make it, beloveds. What are you making with yours?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: It has been on my heart this year to press into love. It has been in my spirit to keep pressing through the apathy and the divisiveness everywhere. It has been on my soul to continue to love everyone, regardless of where they stand and what they stand for.

We are living in an age where black is no longer black and white is no longer white. The world seems to have turned upside down. It is not.

Lies are still lies. The truth is still the truth. Choice is still choice. That’s a good thing.

Life is still worth living. Yes, everyone is getting on everyone else’s last nerves. Yes, nerves afraid just now. Still, this space in life will go by. Another will take its place.

I’ve been doing my best to embrace my days. I don’t know how long I have to live. I’m doing my best to live life to the fullest. I’ve been enjoying talking to my family on the phone. My lonely has been lonely for physical presence of others, but I do the best I can with phone calls and texts.

I look forward to my days. Are you looking forward to yours? If not, why not? Life has much to offer you. Will you receive what life is trying to give you? You only get one shot. Enjoy your life.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Don’t be afraid to use what’s in front of you.

I’m starting my third channel. I’m being more deliberate in how I began this time. Yes, I’m going back to work on the other two, but here I can really focus and hone in on things.

Years ago I was asked what I thought of chat GPT. I was afraid to try it. Back then, I was afraid to try many of the. New technology that was meant to make our lives easier.

In the last year I have been branching out on the research. I have been utilizing as many tools as I can come across. Yes, I am careful of what I use and I follow my research with more research.

I don’t go by what everyone is saying. I research for myself. Then I let myself be open to changing my mind. I don’t know everything. In fact, the more I grow, the more I know that I know next to nothing……hahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahaha!

I have not been successful yet. That said, I’m learning a lot. In fact. I have been steered towards what I truly want to do. I’m taking a pause on things to actually pursue what sets my heart on fire. I’ll be speaking more of this in the future.

I’m actually thankful that my channels have not taken off. I have been able to regroup to reassess. And to ask myself what it is that I am hoping to accomplish.

Now that I know that my heart has gone off in the direction has been wanted to go off in for the past 30 years.

All of the failures before are helping me to reach my dreams now. I no longer view them as failures, but as stepping stones to my greatness. I hope you will do the same.

I no longer see my mistakes as catastrophes. I see them as a chance to begin again. I see them as a chance to exercise my faith muscles. I see them as a chance to grow. I see them as a chance to laugh. I’ve been laughing often.

I just stopped by to encourage someone. Starting with me. Don’t be discouraged if you have not yet succeeded. Life is speaking to you a mixed your mistakes and your failures. Listen. You’ll be surprised at what you hear.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Defeat is not here to defeat us. Is here to remind us the game is not yet over. Get up and try again. Today, I try. I may fail. If so, I will try again. Rinse. Repeat.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Build on the right foundation: Can I admit to being an idiot?

I’m an idiot. I admit it.

I had spent the last few years building on a foundation of fear and doubt. Doubt in my abilities. Fear that I won’t be successful, so I didn’t really try. Not for me, anyway.

I was an idiot. I listened to a world that had no clue. None of us knows what we can accomplish. The only way to find out is just to find out.

I have been having a blast rebuilding myself these last few weeks. I am building my new Youtube channel the right way. I spent all day coming up with scripts in a schedule for the month.

I am building something sustainable. I’m building something that I can maintain whether I feel like it or not. I’m bit on something that is easy to follow.

In the past, I was so meticulous about my job. Yet as soon as I clocked out, I actually clocked out on my life. I told myself I didn’t want to do anything that would cause me to work because I had given everything at my job. I had nothing left for me. I had nothing left for my dreams. What a big dummy I was.

I freely admit to being an idiot. That said, I doubt I am the only one. I wonder who has a courage to admit they did the same. That they are probably doing the same thing right now?

Don’t be harder on yourself. When you knew better, you did better. I’m doing better. I’m choosing to put my focus in getting my life situated the right way.

I am using my hard work to build a future for myself, not just for my new job. I am being consistent in every aspect of my life. I am rebuilding my health. I have built me time into my day. I am building a balance between work and play.

I have made sure to include my spiritual side, my funny side, my hopeful side.

I just stopped by to encourage someone. Starting with me. It’s time that we all took better care of our personal lives. It’s time that we gave that same seriousness to ourselves as we have given to our jobs, to our friends who are church into our community.

We can’t give out what we don’t have for ourselves. I encourage you to stop and assess what you are doing with your life. Are you including you up in those dreams and plans of yours?

What do you want to do with the rest of your life? Begin doing those things.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep moving forward. Keep looking up. Embrace your life. Enjoy the challenges within it.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Fear no longer holds me.

Fear no longer holds me.

Fear no longer runs me.

Fear no longer keeps me captive.

Fear no longer runs my life.

I do.

I have fought fear.

I have won.

Fear, big dummy, returns, from time to time. Just to see if I mean what I say.

I pop fear upside the head and keep it moving.

Ah. Aha!

I live.

Beloveds, I LIVE. Because, a tornado roared by, tore my life up, tossed fear into the mix, and watched to see what I would DO.

Ah, God, look at me now! I am not afraid. I live. I move. I have my being. In and with You. I rejoice. I dance. I sing. Badly. Still, I sing. With gusto. Uncaring if folk laugh at me. Unmoved if no one joins in. Ah, Life, I hear you.

free from fear,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: It feels wonderful living a life free from fear. You don’t know how much fear controls your life until you have dealt with something truly hard and scary. Only then can you see clearly what you have been avoiding, what you have been afraid of, and choose to do something about it or not.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Take your eyes off the storm.

I can see now. I am no longer focused on the storms. I’m focused on the future.

I can breathe now. I am no longer afraid of what may or may not happen. Life will happen. I will respond to that with peace, Lovejoy, hope and laughter.

I am finally able to receive love myself and I’m ready to live my dreams out loud. Here. Now. Exactly where I’m at. Exactly at this age, exactly at this stage of my life.

It feels good. It has taken a long time to get here.

Now I wish I had a vacation so I can get to work on these dreams……hahahahahahahaha!

living out loud in real time,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I’m excited for what I am building. I’m looking forward to what’s next. I’m enjoying the next steps.

I no longer dread life. I no longer fear the next storm. I no longer wonder if there is a boogeyman ready to jump out of the closet. Let him come. I have a bat waiting for him!



Take your eyes off the storm. Focus on where you have to get to. Then get there. You will make it. Enjoy the journey. Enjoy the process. Learn through the hard. Have an amazing rest of your day. I love you. It’s time for us to live. We only got this one life to live. Live it fully. In the meantime. In the moment.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Stop catastrophizing, Cassandra.

Stop catastrophizing, Cassandra.

This is what I remind myself now. Life is NOT one big catastrophe. Life is NOT waiting in the shadows, beloveds, ready to jump out and snatch our hopes and dreams.

Life just does life. Periodt.

Now, we are the ones who kick and scream about every old thing.

I’m learning to take each day as it comes.

It sure is nice living a life free from catastrophe. I can breathe now. I can relax now.

Life is truly what we make it to be. We can change our minds at a moment’s notice. We can change things at a moment’s notice. We can decide to go left or to go right. We can choose to do wrong or to do right. We can choose to love or to hate. We can choose to have honor and live a life that has no integrity within it.

I choose life. I choose love. I choose to be hopeful. I choose to see the glass as half. I choose to try. I choose to relax today.

Speaking of relaxing, I hear a cup of coffee calling. Who’s up for a cup?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is much too sure to be creating catastrophes everywhere, don’t you think? I think so. I’m sure God is relieved. He doesn’t have to be rushing to my rescue every other five seconds.



One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Freedom is NOT freedom. Freedom comes at a cost.

Freedom is NOT freedom. Freedom comes at a cost.

Folks are all up in these YouTube, TikTok, Instragram and other social media streets hollering about wanting to be “Free”.

I was just watching someone arguing with a YouTube creator who was doing his level best to exhort this young man NOT to quit his $70 dollar an hour job. This young man said he was “tired of people telling him what to do”.

Real talk, beloveds, we will ALWAYS answer to someone, somewhere, in some way, shape and form.

Folk think they can quit their jobs, then be an ‘entrepreneur’ without having done any research, set aside any funds, or even counted the cost to see how much it truly costs, financially, to ‘live a dream. Smh.

As we speak, I am working on my business proposal. This has been some looooooooooooooong slow hours. This includes adding tons of research, forecasts, breakdowns, and a million other things to do. Just the building blocks is taking forever. Let alone the DOING of the thing.

In the end, you could see this young man was fixing to dive off his cliff with NO safety net. This is the completely wrong time to take such a financial leap to be “free to do whatever I want?”

As my mom used to say “Those missed meal cramps will get you moving”. Meaning, your empty stomach will cause you to get up and work to put food on the table! OMG, people. Get some act right already! Whew.

Okay, mini rant over. I must say, though, I have been truly dismayed with this theme folk have about quitting jobs to travel, party and….*shrug*. They have no plan after that. Apparently, the rest of us working folks are supposed to take care of them, once they return home. Only, they won’t have a home because the up AND QUIT A SEVENTY DOLLAR AN HOUR JOB BECAUSE HE WAS TIRED OF PEOPLE TELLING HIM WHAT TO DO?!!!!!!

Smh. He was only 31. My hope is that he will have tripped, fallen, and knocked some sense into himself. Sure hope this young man hold onto this job. He makes three and a half times the job I am fixing to start! Geeeeeeeeeeez, young man!!!

Life is not easy. Life requires something of us. Freedom is not free. Freedom demands an accounting. Freedom demands much. What are you willing to give and to do for your freedom?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I have made thoughts on this subject. I shall keep the majority to myself. I will say that it didn’t come but upon us all to make our choices with love. Joy, perseverance, tolerance and empathy. Be encouraged.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Stay focused: Take it out of the microwave, Cassandra.

I was hungry.

I heated some food.

A while later, I realized I was still hungry.

Ehem, it dawned on me the food was still in the microwave!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Unfortunately, the aforementioned was based on a true story.

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Just sending a laugh and some love your way. Be encouraged.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be sure you get your laughs in for today. Life is short. Enjoy it to the fullest. I love you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!