The Universe has been preparing you the whole time.

I have to take a moment, beloveds, to laugh at myself.

I have been having quite the pity party for the last few days. I had been feeling forsaken by everyone and everything.

A caterpillar’s belly has been higher than me.

So much so I found myself going through an old external drive that I had downloaded tons of movies I had not had time to watch.

Rather, I had been working so hard, so long, so much overtime I did not make the time to watch.

Every now and again, I would watch some of the shows I had already seen. I didn’t want to watch any of the shows I had not seen as wanted to watch them when I was not tired.

I was ALWAYS tired, hence I never got around to the movies. I forgot why I had downloaded them for. I had NO idea what they were about.

During my pity party, I decided to go through them and watch each one. One after the other, I watched. One after the other, I was surprised/moved/comforted.

They were all turning out to be about folks who had gone through unspeakably hard things and how they learned to go through them and process them.

As they processed their loss, IΒ  began to process mine. At least, I have found comfort if they can, I can. I think. I hope.

HOW on earth, did The Universe KNOW I needed these movies NOW? I have had them for years and years.

I had no idea THEN how much I would need them NOW. The Universe knew. God knew.

We think we go through life unseen and unheard. We don’t. We ARE seen. We ARE heard. We are just given room to make our way.

And, when life gets too tough, The Universe will make us popcorn and let us throw a pity party and watch movies to let us know we truly are NOT alone.

I stopped the latest movie to gather those who are in need of some care, some prayer, some love, some encouragement and some peace.

Be encouraged. In the meantime, have some popcorn with me and a show. In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You got this!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Uh-oh!: Don’t be afraid to try new things.

Uh-oh!

I have learned something new! Sorta!

I have learned how to add my bitmoji to my blog!

MMMMMUUUUUAAAAAAAA!!

I used to never do things unless I could do them perfectly. The only problem with this is one rarely does anything with this mindset.

Now, I put it out there. I no longer fret about who will or won’t understand my inner goofness. I just enjoy being goofy.

In these tough moments, I am learning to enjoy me in all my ways. My feels have been all over the place. I am learning to give them space to get acquainted with my new normal.

Driving around the neighborhood, looking at all the tattered trees, thinking on all the trees and things gone has been terribly sad.

I’m allowing myself to BE sad. For a time. Then move on. The trees will grow. There will come a time when I will drive without sadness.

Even in the sad, beloveds, I am finding gratitude. I’m thankful my life was spared. I’m thankful I get another day to let you know how much you are loved and that you are NOT alone.

Whatever you do with your life, do so with joy. Do so with love. Do so with integrity. Do so with gratitude.

Your life was important enough to wake me in the wee hours to pray for you and ask a wonderful blessing be sent your way.

Have an amazing day. Be good to you.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: How is your heart β™₯?

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

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God, I feel misunderstood.

God, I feel misunderstood.

I have never felt more misunderstood. I don’t know what I am doing wrong. The harder I try, the more silent You become. The more silent You become, the more scared I get.

The more scared I get, the more I turn to a silent God and pour my heart out for the world to see. Yikes!😳πŸ˜₯

Hhhhmm. God, methinks there is a method to this madness…hhmm.

seeking while misunderstood,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Hhmm. The more silent God becomes, the more determined I am to seek His Face. The more determined I grow to encourage folk to keep on keeping on. No matter what. Hhmm…

Continue to allow ALL things to work together for your good. ALL of it. Scrounge through the hard and snatch the knowledge that comes from toughing out experience. Geeeeeeeeeez tho. Whew!

Be encouraged. Keep moving FORWARD!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

If this piece encouraged you, share it with someone please/thanks.

Don’t fall back. Move forwards.

Don’t fall back on bad habits.

Move forward towards your healthy goals and habits.

Don’t fall back on old ways when fear of the unknown shows up.

Move forward and embrace the new challenges.

Don’t fall back on anxiety, doubt and fear when things appear hard.

Move forward with joy and thanksgiving THROUGH the tough times and tasks.

Life is what we CHOOSE.

Life is what we DO.

Choose to move FORWARD. Refuse to give yourself permission to give up on you. You are much too important!

Beloveds, you are soooooooooooo amazing. You are. Think about all you have gone through?! Yet, you still love. Yet, you still try. Celebrate you. Your life is far from over.

Enjoy your day. Be sure to sprinkle laughter throughout. In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep moving FORWARD…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

If this piece encouraged you, share it with someone please/thanks.

Don’t worry about it.

Don’t worry about it.

Pray about it.

Don’t worry about it.

Do something with it.

Don’t worry about it.

Share it with someone.

Don’t worry about it.

Be encouraged about it.

Don’t worry about it.

Give it to Him.

Don’t worry about it.

Express your thoughts on the matter.

Don’t worry, beloveds. Your cares ARE cared about. Your needs WILL be taken cared of.

In the meantime, do what you can. Then, give the rest to The Universe to take care of.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I have much on my mind. I am being mindful to not spread negative thoughts onto and into my circumstances. I have no idea what the day shall bring me. I do know I shall bring kindness, joy and love with me. How about you?

In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He. Love you, okay?

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

STOP explaining you. Just BE you.

STOP explaining you.

Just BE you.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I have a ridiculous sense of humor. I find the silliest things hilarious. Have ALWAYS been this way. 56 years later, I have not improved.

See?

Over time, I have learned to accept this about me. I am a super serious person that MUST laugh on the daily. I find myself telling myself dumb jokes, in the middle of the night.

STOP explaining yourself. Just BE you. Enjoy being you. Even the parts you think folk will think odd. They may. So what? More will find you as delightful as you should be finding me just now.

Life is short. Enjoy being who you are. Remember:

You are worthwhile.

You are worthy.

You are worth it. Okay, I think I am done for now encouraging folk. This has been an especially difficult day. I promised myself I would encourage the most when y heart was the heaviest. We got this, beloveds.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Despair is NEVER an option.

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I have gone through the gamut in the past hour or so trying to figure out how to pay January’s rent, there cc payments, power bill, etc with 143 dollars. 🀣

Since I couldn’t do so, beloveds, I got out of bed, turned on the lights, put on my headphones and began blaring some uplifting music.

I admit my bank account has scared the bejeez out of me.

Then, I applied for more jobs. Fingers crossed these are legit and not scam as others have been.πŸ˜³πŸ™

I told myself I I REFUSE to despair. Despair is NOT an option.

I am 56 and have been working steadily since I was 14 or 15. I only had one job interruption due to my home care client passing away. It took 11 hairy months to find a job and I did that another 14 and a half years.

I have learned so much about ME during these past 5 months. Much of my identity was in working hard. Jimminy Cricket but it has been soooooooooooo hard reminding myself I am worthwhile whether I can pay the rent in January or not.

I am learning how to REST. It really can be difficult resting when used to working for decades.

I am learning how to listen to MY heart and give her the attention she deserves. Man, I worked the poor thing half to death. I ran her into the ground. I dismissed my needs as unimportant.

I just popped around to encourage you to look after YOU. Your needs are just as important as those you so diligently care about and care for.

And, if you are going through a particularly tough patch, do NOT allow despair to be an option.

When you have NO idea what to do, beloveds, do SOMETHING, if only a small something.

Turn on some music. Do some chores. Have a cup of coffee. Breathe. Then, tell yourself the truth:

Everything WILL be okay.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Then, try and reach out and love someone. Helping others will help you. If nothing else, it will give you the chance to stop stewing on things you can’t yet change.

Be encouraged. Come. Sing with me. Scrape your joy from the pile of hard and be encouraged.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He. Keep asking for what you need. Keep asking for what you want. Keep moving FORWARD. Keep looking UP. Things WILL get better. Have FAITH.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Hard ain’t nothing but a thang…

Life has been hard.

So what?!

I have things to do. So do you, beloveds. What are you DOING about and with your hard?

Be encouraged. You are NOT forgotten. Nor are you forsaken.

I have felt soooooooooooo forsaken. My feels are all feely.

I have gotten weary of the journey. I’m ready for a pitstop. Ready to get out of the hot car and into the Motel waiting up the road.

I’m tired of wondering “How long”. I feel like the child asking “Are we there yet?”.

I’m exhausted from living ‘in the meantime’ whilst waiting for my change to come.

Knowing this, beloveds, I am giving myself some extra slack. I am being good to myself. I have scrambled around, in my cabinets, for things to toss about in my electric skillet.

Be good to you, beloveds, as you make your way through today.

Do what you can. Then, wait. Patiently. Enjoy your day, okay?

waiting expectantly,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You got this.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

NOTHING can defeat love.

NOTHING can defeat love.

Fear can not.

Despair will not.

Hopelessness shall not.

Fear not, beloveds. No matter what you are going through. Fear not.

Perceptions can cloud the judgement, bringing darkness to our thoughts. That darkness often paralyzes our ACTIONS.

Continue, beloveds, to MOVE FORWARD. When life lands an unexpected blow, take a breath. Then, continue to lift up your head. Tell hard ha and keep it moving.

These moments are precious. We only have today.  Embrace your today. Make some coffee. Read a book. Take a walk. Tell fear and doubt to take a hike.

We got this. Sorta, eh? πŸ₯°πŸ˜†

Don’t let hard steal your joy. Keep being and doing your why. If your why wasn’t crucial, you wouldn’t be fought as you have been!

I am fixing to have a nice cup of coffee. Sit with me as we regroup. Then, we keep pressing forward. I love you.

hopeful still,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. Perfect love casts out fear, the bible says. Fear not. I love you. So does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Today I tried.

Today I tried.

I didn’t want to.

I longed to feel the familiar envelope me.

Today I cried.

I couldn’t help it.

I cried out for the old, fearing the new.

Today I lived.

I had to.

It’s time to embrace the new, eschewing old views.

Ah.

Aha!

free,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Today was a scary day for me. It’s one of the first days, since the tornado, that I got about business and LIVED.

I was afraid. I have not driven in forever. I felt like a kid again. I kept telling myself to breathe.

I took it ALL in. I exhaled all that pent up fear. It felt good.

I conversed with strangers. Strangers conversed with me. We enjoyed one another.

I drove home and sat in my car. Satisfied. Yes, it truly hurt driving amid all the tore up trees. The drive home now is unknown. All the usual landmarks are gone. I grieved their loss. They wer more than ‘just trees’.

Beloveds, it’s okay to lament your losses. Even the losses that are necessary and beneficial for your growth. Loss STILL hurts. Don’t let folk make you feel badly for feeling badly.

After a time, the hurt didn’t hurt so much. I was able to take in the wonderful glare of the sun. I was able to enjoy the fantastic blue of a sky saying hello to one who had been so afraid to get outside after the tornado.

Today I tried. How great is that?

Keep trying, beloveds. You CAN. You WILL. In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

If this piece encouraged you, share it with someone please/thanks.