Category: walking

Again. Again. And, again.

How many times will I try?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I forgive?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I love?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I lose?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I win?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I seek?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I receive?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I laugh?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times will I surrender?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

How many times?

Again.

Again.

And, again.

living to the utmost,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: How many times shall I think of you, beloveds?

Again.

Again.

And, again!

In case no one has told you today: I love you.

Enough already with simply surviving. Get on out there and live. Enjoy your life. Right now. Right where you are. Enjoy the folk around you. Love those in your vicinity. Expand your circle. Love as many folk as your heart can hold. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Heart❤️‍🩹check Tuesday on a Monday.

If your heart looks/feels anything close to mine, beloveds, you are currently in need of a whole lot of love and care.

Why?

You are simply exhausted.

Why?

Your world has turned into a never-ending series of try, fall, fail. Rinse. Repeat.

After a while, without an end, without resolution, without fulfillment…*sigh*

After a while, it begins to wear on the soul.

The Bible says for us to NOT be weary, in well doing. As we SHALL reap if we faint not. I’m too weary to remember where this is found in the bible(kidding Galatians 6:9).

My try is awfully tired. I just want to wake up and live in my fulfilled dreams. The way I imagine they will be.

I was laying in bed, pondering, wondering what the world would even LOOK like fulfilled.

Don’t get me wrong. I love life. I love yakking incessantly with God, with Life, with The Universe, and with you.

I love working. I love telling jokes and making folks laugh.

I love watching my sports. I love wandering through my eclectic mismadge of YouTube channels.

I love sooooooooooooooooooooo many things.

Yet, there has been a dream which has been calling me for the entirety of my life. I feel I may fail it/them. I fear I may I let them down.

I beat myself up for not having born them into fruition.

I no longer know if I am chasing my dreams or if they are now chasing me?

Am I afraid of them? Is this why they have not come?

Ah, God.

Why do Yall keep bothering me?

Asking for many friends.

How is your ❤️‍🩹 heart, beloveds?

If your heart is anything like mine, I feel your pain!

Be encouraged.

Keep going.

Don’t give up.

Not just yet.

I know you are tired. I know you want to be there already! So do I. The fact that we are not there yet IS an answer.

We are EXACTLY where we are supposed to be. The Universe has already calculated our dumbness, our foolishness, our fear, our doubt, our apathy, our disappointment, our try or lack thereof all into the equation.

In the meantime, beloveds, enjoy this life you have. We only get ONE shot at this. Enjoy each moment.

In case no one has told you today: I love you.

His and yours,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Ah, beloveds, be encouraged. The week is just starting. Just saying that makes me tired. Yet, just saying that also feels me with joy. Today, my dreams may yet well catch up to me or vice versa!

Love someone. Starting with you. Reach out to someone. Someone needs to hear and to know they are loved and not alone.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

55, thanks for scaring the hell out of me.

55 has been a harsh teacher.

55 could give two hoots about my feels.

55 laughs at tired.

55 dismisses fear with desdain.

55 scoffs at doubt.

55 refuses to relent.

55 has scared the hell out of me.

Thank you, 55, for scaring me half to death. Thank you, 55, for forcing me to confront EVERY shred of anxt.

I appreciate you, 55, forever shouting at me life is soooooooooooooooooooooo short.

It becomes awfully hard to waste time wasting time now.

It has become impossible to tell myself achieving my dreams is impossible.

I don’t have time, beloveds, to give up. Neither do you!

The clock is ticking. We have NO idea how many moments we have. This is nothing to be afraid of. It is something to reflect on and be mindful of.

What are you waiting for?

Do the hard.

Embrace where you are.

Try.

Rinse.

Repeat.

Keep making your act right act right.

We don’t have time to do as the world is doing in chasing things that matters not.

I rose early.

I encouraged.

I loved.

I tried.

No, my dreams have not shown up yet. Yet, I show up. EVERY day. I can’t help what’s not coming. I CAN control when and where I show up.

Ah, God. Hurry. I got thangs to do. Show me how to make my dreams come true!

I am soaring, as best as I can. Help me get up higher. I think I can. I’m not sure, though. I have never been this high. Ah, God. I am terrified of heights.

55, thanks for scaring the hell out of me. I got thangs to do.

doing them thangs,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: The only thing keeping you from keeping on is you. Tell yourself to get going. Life is short. Tell doubt to kick rocks. Tell fear ha! Tell yourself the truth: You CAN. You WILL. You HAVE TO! Get going…asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

When the news ain’t good.

Ah, God.

I’m sooooooooooooooooooooooo tired of all this bad news runnin’ ’round!

Ah, Life.

I’m soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sick of you handing me lemons to make lemonade with!

Ah, Universe.

Why are You NOT protecting me and them that I love?

Ah, me.

What are we going to DO!?

*Cassandra crawls up on The Father’s Lap for a good cry*

*sigh*

Be encouraged, beloveds. Do NOT allow tough news to set you into a panic. Tough times happen. Tough things happen.

That said, we are NOT alone.

When going through, be sure to reach out for love and support. Keep being good to you. Be honest. It’s okay to be upset when upsetting things/news happens. Still, we MUST hold fast to our faith, to our hope, to our joy.

I talked to my boss and am taking the rest of the day off for my mental health sake.

Be encouraged, beloveds. Keep on keeping on.

We got this.

I think.

having a mini freak out but that’s okay,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Ah, God. Life has NOT been funny this week. Whew!

Love someone. Starting with you. It has been such a joy getting to know folk here. This is our safe space to cut up and act a fool. A place where we can say ‘Ow, God’ and not feel bad. Be encouraged.

In case no one has told you today: I love you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

For you, for them, or for Him?

Why are you with them?

Why are you working there?

Why are you serving Him?

For you?

For them?

For Him?

Or, are you doing things to serve you?

Nothing wrong with that. It’s just important to know what you are doing your why for. So you are not disappointed with the results.

Why are you trying?

For you?

For them?

For Him?

It’s important to know, to understand WHY you are doing what you are doing.

Why?

Otherwise, you will lead a life of quiet frustration. Vaguely annoyed/angry/dismayed as life appears to be swaying you this way and that.

Knowing your why helps keeps you centered and focused. It also helps keep you from living your life in a victim-like state.

Too often, folk allow themselves to be swayed by other people’s views and desires.

Life is short, beloveds. It’s time, don’t you think, for folk to…THINK!! 🤔

Who do I live/love/dream/hope for?

For you?

For them?

For Him?

Don’t you know by now?

All of the above!

Nuff said,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Heart check Sunday.

How’s your heart?

Have you found some time just for you?

If not, why not?

If so, good on you.

Be at peace this day.

Don’t fret about tomorrow.

Enjoy Monday.

Monday has some delightful things in store for you. You just have to be open to the moments The Universe has planted in your moments.

Be encouraged.

Be sure to climb upon The Father’s Lap and have a good yak. If you say you don’t know how, try it. Your heart knows exactly what I mean….. 🙂

Take care of yourself, would you please? Tell yourself an especially corny joke.

Take a walk. Tell fear to take a hike!…..hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

Look out for someone. Someone is in need of an encouraging word. I could use one or two myself.

Okay, so a cup of coffee is waiting for me. Tell Craig I left out some Special K. Tell Maggie to load the dishwasher on her way out….

here,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is good. Even when it’s hard. Especially when it’s hard.

P.S. I love you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

The more you try, the more He shows.

How wonderful is that?!

I have just discovered a new way of preparing pieces which will save me boatloads of time!

How great is that?!

I have been praying and pondering on what I can do to find more time so I can write and learn and grow MY dreams.

I have NO idea where I am going. I just know I can trust He who guides me.

I don’t have to worry about the darkness. I am not alone.

I don’t have to worry about the battle. I am loved.

I don’t have to worry…

Ah.

Aha!

All I have to do is try.

He will show me the way.

How great is that?!

Keep trying.

Don’t worry.

Be encouraged.

Rinse.

Repeat.

being about it with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Nuff said. Keep trying. Oh, yea, in case no one has told you today: I love you. Love someone. Starting with you. Lift up your heads, beloveds. You have nothing to be ashamed of. You are not a mistake. You shall mess up on the daily. So what? Keep going. I go with you. He goes with us all.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

God, I’m afraid.

Me: I’m afraid.

God: I know. Don’t be. I got you.

Me: I’m afraid of letting You down. I’m afraid of letting ME down.

God: I know. Don’t be. I see you.

Me: I’m afraid I’ll never realize my dreams.

God: I know. Don’t be. I’m with you.

Me: I’m afraid my ending will be disappointing.

God: I know. Don’t be. Just be.

Me: K.

*Cassandra slips down from The Father’s Lap and continues through/to an uncertain future*

wondering and a bit afraid,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:❤️‍🩹

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Go viral for the right reason(s).

Go viral for the right reason(s).

Go viral from spreading love.

Go viral from changing lives.

Go viral from giving and not expecting a thing.

Go viral for being a light.

Go viral for walking alone.

Go viral from pushing back the darkness.

Go viral from lightening the load of another.

Go viral for making someone’s dream(s) come true.

Go viral for bein a positive role model.

Go viral for being a good steward.

Go viral for being a great global citizen.

Go viral for the amazing love you bestow.

Go viral for the integrity you show.

Go viral for the work you do.

Go viral for the empathy you give.

Go viral for the exemplary life you live.

Go viral for the excellence you daily strive for.

Go viral for making this world a bit better than where you found it.

Go viral for the right reason(s)!

I feel sorry for souls who are content to pour out content that does nothing but hinder and hurt. All in order to make a dollar. I would rather starve than make money by wounding a soul.

It breaks my heart how many channels and avenues are making millions by making millions miserable. Oh, that the world understood how short life is. How priceless lives are.

I wish I had enough ‘clout’ to reach the entirety of the world. What would I say? It’s easy:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Go viral for the right reason(s). The world needs what you have to give, beloveds.

asking for a friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, um, so like you supposed to be out there doing thangs and going viral. What the world you doing here?! Scat. The world needs what we have…

P.S. I love me some you. Love me back. Asking for A Friend.

P.S.S. Since I was a little girl, there has ALWAYS been something inside me that told me there were folk out there just for me. MY posse. MY friends. At 55, I wonder where you are? I told God if it’s just in my heart to please remove this ache. He won’t. Where ARE you?…*sigh*.

Geeezzz! I don’t know if I can REALLY do it.

God: You called?

Me: Oh, sorry.

God: What’s wrong.

Me: I don’t know if I can REALLY do it.

God: Do what?

Me: This. Me. You know. THIS!…*Cassandra gestures in the direction of her unfulfilled dreams*

God: Oh. That.

Me: Yes. THAT. Geeeez.

Jesus: You called?

Me: No…*sigh*

He: What, pray tell, is the matter?

Me: I don’t know if I can do it, Lord. Not really. Not by myself.

He: ARE you alone? Really?!

Me: Not really.

He: Well Geeeeeeez. Thanks for the vote of confidence.

Me: My bad. I sowwy.

He: Remember. I am The Vine. You are the branch. Meaning, it’s MY job to produce/grow the 🍇 grapes. It’s your job to be available to pass out the wine. True?

Me: True that. I shall try. Thanks Dad. Thanks Jesus.

God: NO problem.

Jesus: You are not the problem. Ye of tiny faith. Believe. In Me. In you. In US.

Me: K.

trying I think,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Ah, God. Why You keep bothering me about these stupid dreams?!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!