I used to think that life was all about getting the trophy. I used to think real success did not happen unless you had large crowds cheering you on. I used to believe true success did not come if he did not have. Some of their waiting at the end to embrace you.
I have learned, through all these hard days, that I have been my biggest champion. I have experienced, through all the hell from the past two years, that God has been My Biggest Cheerleader. I have experience, first hand., The universe has championed me when no one else would… even me.
Through all these lonely days, I have learned to be there for me. I have held my tears. I have comforted my heart. I have resurrected and fought for my dreams. I am thankful for the hard. Hard brought me back to me.
I enjoy the journey now. All of it. The sad days. The quiet days. The unfulfilling days. The lonely days. The wandering days. The wondering days.
As we speak, I am drinking a cup of coffee in the birthday mug my niece gave me. So satisfying. I spent my birthday alone. At first. I was terribly lonely. I wondered if I had been loved. I felt unloved. I felt unlovely. Yet only for just a moment. That was just old voices speaking to me.
My new voice told me that I was altogether lovely. My new voice told me to enjoy my birthday. I spent the day in quiet and solitude. I made myself birthday bacon and eggs. I drank coffee. I watched old Youtube movies. I was still.
I just stopped by to encourage someone. Starting with me. Enjoy the journey. We only get this one go around. Yeah, I know life can be hard. Times are tough all over. Still, there is so much to be thankful for. To be grateful for.
I am thankful for every person who stops by. You could be doing anything, but you chose to spend a few minutes with me. I am honored. I just want you to know how much I love you and care about your life. I truly do. I pray for each and everyone of you every single day. I don’t know how much that means to some. It means the world to me.
I will continue to ensure for the world every single day. Every single one. This world needs love. This world needs light. This world needs truth. I shall endeavor to provide a light as best as I can. Be encouraged.
I am grateful this morning. I just got notification that the equipment has shipped for my new job. Orientation is in two weeks. The time is flying by.
I just wanted to stop by and thank those who have encouraged me over these last almost 18 months. I will have been out of work for 17 months. If I had a nickel for every tear I cried, I could have retired a long time ago.
I just wanna say thank you for those who encouraged me to keep on keeping on. It took more than a year just to get one legitimate job I could apply for. That can play with your mind. It played with mine.
Still, I wouldn’t change these days for anything. I have learned so many lessons in this time. I was introduced to my tenacity. I got to meet the greatness inside of me.
Now, beloveds, I take that tenacity and greatness into my future. I plan on enjoying this job. I look forward to it. I look forward to the hard days. I ready to embrace the boring days. I look forward to laughing at the frustrating days.
I won’t name any names. You know who you are. I thank you. I appreciate you. You help me keep going when I wanted to quit. I’m glad I hung in there. I’m grateful for your words. I appreciated your empathy. Your words meant a lot to me.
I encourage anyone who is still looking for a job to hang in there. I encourage those who are working and who are mighty tired to hang in there. I encourage everyone who is discouraged about the times right now. Be encouraged.
Life is what we make it. We are so much more than what we do. We are more than our bank account. Take some time for you today. Love yourself today.
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I woke up with a song in my heart. I have been enjoying my coffee. I have been enjoying encouraging people this morning. I have already done my meal prep. I am singing badly to my positive music. I am considering having a 3rd cup of coffee. What a wonderful life.
Lift up your head. Look around you. What do you see? The boogeyman has nothing but noise. Get out there and enjoy your life.
God: Why must you DO anything? This has been a hard year. Go have fun.
Me: I have been so busy fighting, so busy trying, so busy being about being about it, I don’t know HOW not to DO.
God: Ah.
Me: Aha! So, what do I do now.
God: Smh. Who’s on first…🤣🥰.
Only those who have a bit of age on them will understand “Who’s on first”. To the rest of you, look the skit up on YouTube. A classic I am telling you. 🥰😁
I’m learning how to have fun. Life is not meant to be one big skirmish. It’s meant to be love. It’s meant to be embraced.
More of us needs to learn how to have fun. I was raised to work. Hard. All the time. There was no time for breaks. Breaks were for chumps! I was taught to wind myself into the ground. Then get up and do it again. Everyday. All day.
A tornado sat me down. I’m glad. I was exhausted.
I just stopped by to tell someone to sit down and have some fun. Put down the broom. Put away the toolkit. Work will work when it’s time. Rest. Play. Be encouraged.
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: What are you still doing here???? Get out there and play in a mud puddle or something…
Note: Love one another. We are NOT transactions to be suffered through. We are NOT Mark’s to be taken advantage of. We are NOT thoughtless beasts with no room for growth, change, and love.
We ARE all:
Flawed.
Different.
Indifferent, at times.
Still, se are all we got. Yet, we are all we need…
Okay, beloveds, I am being a tad bit melodramatic. The old me would have been:
Flabbergasted.
Frustrated.
Utterly disgusted.
Why? Because I am having to use some free stuff that has been quite limiting towards the huge dreams I am trying to implement and get down on paper. Visually. Chronologically.
Only, much laptop does not have too terribly much power. Also, the freebie software is limited for a reason. I have plans to upgrade once I start working and earning a steady check.
In the meantime, I understand I am sacrificing time and using what I currently have. I am NOT, however, wasting time wishing I had upgraded things.
The old me would have done just that: wasted time lamenting and not taking advantage of what I DO have.
I just stopped to encourage someone to use what you have. Don’t waste time fussing about what you don’t have. Make use of what you do have. Make it work. Make something new out of it. Make something productive out of it.
I hear a cup of coffee calling. Who is up for a cup?
I’m doing the best I can to listen. I’m doing the best I can to understand that life is not trying to be mean.
Life calls us all to greatness. Yet we spend our lives disparaging ourselves. We doubt our gifts and talents. We dismiss our thoughts as unimportant. We spend our lives serving the needs of others because we are a bit afraid to branch out and go for our dreams and goals.
I’m no longer afraid to try. I’m no longer afraid to dream. I’m no longer afraid to be rejected. My efforts will be rejected. That’s OK. I know now that my work is not depending on what others think or not think of me.
I am worth it. I am worthy. I am worthwhile. Simply because I was born.
I was called at an early age to be an encourager. I don’t know why God chose me. I have stopped asking. I’m just doing the best I can to encourage as many souls as I can.
The direction of my life has changed. I am moving sewer towards the greatness that is inside of me. The greatness I dismissed. The greatness I scoffed at. The greatness I was afraid to believe in. I am beginning to believe in that greatness.
This is a really strange time to be a Christian. The world has kicked Christians to the curb. I don’t blame them. I am angry myself at people who has called themselves Christians, who have been the most evil and hateful people you could imagine. It saddens me.
Still, all I can do is be the best for me that I can. All I can do is continue to pray for the world. All I can do is admonish and encourage my fellow Christians to get some of that right and start loving the world the way we’re supposed to.
In the meantime, all are welcome in this space. The Unbeliever. The angry. The hopeless. The agnostic. The atheist. I shall love them all the best I can. I tell myself everyday that I refuse to see my fellow man as my enemy.
I just stopped by to. Let you know life is calling you. Are you listening? It’s time you stop judging yourself. To start loving yourself and get out there and live. We need what only you can provide. We need you just as you are.
I laugh at this version of me. She is overweight from comfort eating all of those mouths. Much of her hair has fallen out. The rest has been less Gray and laughing at me. She is financially devastated, but she laughs still. She is grateful now. She is me.
In all this hard I have learned to accept, to receive, every aspect of my nature and character.
I do my best to not sound too preachy in these WordPress streets. There are other avenues for that. In fact, beloveds, I am building a system for both secular and faith-believing audiences. I am excited. I will be sharing more details soon.
In the meantime, I love you. All of you. Even those who hate me simply for being born. I am saddened the world has been trying to divide men and women into various hate camps. Enough with that! I am doing my best to love as many as I can, to break down as many walls and barriers as I can.
Life is what we make it. Life is calling my old, fat, broke self. Life tells me to love as I am, to love as many as I can and leave the results to LIFE.
What say you?
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: What are you still doing here? Life is calling. Get after it.
Work I can NOT recreate in THAT manner. Work that will have to be redone. Only, done a different way.
I can not retrieve THOSE words. I tried. For hours. And hours. Too many hours to count.
So much so, beloveds, I feel into an exhausted stupor.
I awoke. To the same blank screen. On top of that, the power went out. Briefly. The power strip snapped back on. It appeared to laugh at me.
The old me would have been angry. The old me would have been raging and crying about the unfairness of life.
The new me simply rose. The new me knows this is simply a chance to rewrite my history. Again.
The new me embraces challenges now. This new me no longer judges me and my worth from what I can, may, or might produce.
I shall do my best to recreate my project. I am interested in what I shall say. HERE. NOW.
Beloveds, I am tired, I am done, I am no longer interested in lamenting all the what has happeneds of life.
Things happened. Things shall always happen. So what. It’s what we DO when things happen. It’s what we choose, in the midst of the happenings, that determines the course of our lives.
WE steer our ships. WE determine if we shall enjoy our journey or decide to grump and complain the whole way.
As for me and mine, I shall endeavor to enjoy my trip.
What say you?
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I am happily in the midst of recovering my lost work. All of it. I had even, stupidly, deleted my notes thinking I wouldn’t need them. I googled to see if they could be retrieved. They could. I did.
Then, I went back to see if I could find where I had left off and continue. I found. I continued. I continue to build on my dream.
Life is what you make it. Make it fantastic. Have an amazing day. I love you.
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