Category: walking

Give them what you have.

I start my new job soon. Yay.

Knowing this, I have been resting. A lot. Too much for some…lol.

Still, for the first time, EVER, I have given myself permission to take this time. For ME.

Today, wombie called. I only had 2% of energy. In the past, I would have grumpily given her time.

I would have harrumphed my way through a conversation I really didn’t want to have, being as I was tired and wanting MY space.

I have been teaching myself to be more considerate. I realize that I had, in the past, used fatigue as an excuse to not be all in a conversation or situation.

I don’t do that anymore. At least, I try not to. Why am I telling on myself?

Well, I recognized sis just wanted to hang out and have a bit of company. HER heart needed to be tended to.

Does that mean that MY need for stillness was not just as important as her need for company? Tough question.

We both talked about this: her need for company. My need for time alone.

We compromised. I gave her some tired moments, whilst making a coffee date for the next day.

We both ended the conversation satisfied.

Life is short. If someone reaches out, beloveds, spare them a few moments. Give them a bit of your love. They reached out because they needed YOU.

This is not a lecture so much as an entreaty for us to remember the importance of life.

If you are too busy to give a wee bit of yourselves to those you love, perhaps you are a smidge too busy, eh?

I’m trying to impart something. My heart is trying to share something of which I am just slowly beginning to grasp. If anyone knows what that is, let me know.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Love one another.🥰🤗😁

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Perspective: It’s okay to express different parts of you in different ways and spaces.

Howard and I engaged in a mini battle. A minor skirmish. I won.

Why? Because, it is MY life…LOL

He had been fussing with me. He wants me, in my videos and tiktoks, to speak to folk as I speak to HIM. Says he wants to folks to get to know THAT me.

I told him no. THAT me is only for my closest of mates. THAT me is the me that shares the entirety of my tired soul. THAT me gives up the deepest of tears. THAT me is not meant for the entirety of the world. The world eats up the super vulnerable.

Now, that is not to say, beloveds, I am fake or “different” in the videos or tiktoks. Far from it. In fact, THAT part of me, rejoices in imparting wisdom, humor, and in love a much more measured, more calm, more quiet manner. THAT me HAS to reign in her passion. If not, I speak entirely toooooooooooooooooooo fast. I get so excited, super stoked, I am unable to articulate what I would like to impart.

It takes work to reign in my super stoked self. I so want to love on folk. I sooooooooooooooo want to share the joys of this life, I can sometimes rush in, headlong, giving way too much information, too fast, cramming MY hopes, dreams for the future, upon others.

I have learned to just share. To give folk the opportunity to utilize the wisdom, knowledge, and words at their leisure. Or, not.

Besides, I enjoy the tiktok me. She is fun. She likes to laugh a lot. She enjoys slapping down images she KNOWS, full stop, will annoy Howard for being too this, that, or the other. Alas, please don’t tell, I take his counsel to heart. I make changes, as needed, from his perspective. Then, I give him mine and keep it moving.

I am learning to leave folk to their work. I do mine. I present ME. As I am. In THAT moment. In THOSE moments. If folk receive THAT part of me, so be it. If not….*shrug*. Different strokes, for different folks.

Hear me, beloveds, I am NOT saying it’s okay to say whatever we want, however we want, whenever we want, without reading the room. Without taking others thoughts and feelings, into account.

Do those things. Then, do you, keep it moving, keep on loving, keep on expressing your thoughts and heart, keep on fighting for you and your dreams.

True communication is hard. Everyone won’t understand. Everyone won’t appreciate. Half will hate it. The other half will love it. Everyone will have an opinion about it.

The point of speaking is to share and give the recipient the freedom to feel, to react, as he/she/they see fit.

No lecture here, beloveds. Just sharing a bit of me. Just sharing my thoughts, in real time. Wow. Scary thought, that!……hahahahahahahahahahahaah!

You have an amazing rest of your day.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is what we make it. Make it a good one. Try not to get upset when people you love share their thoughts with you so. Because they love you. Even if they’re wrong……hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Perspective: Lost does not mean lost.

*sigh*

Yesterday was challenging. Life changing even.

I had decided to change course. Rather,  I had decided to take THE leap of faith.

In me. In my dreams.

Gathering my gumption, I changed course. I steered towards something I have ALWAYS wanted to do.

I went down a new path. I saw a new corridor. There was a door there.

I knocked. Strangers greeted me. The place was unfamiliar.

I looked around. I didn’t recognize anyone. I looked in the mirror. A stranger looked on me with compassion.

For a moment, just a slight one, I wanted to retreat. Back to the familiar. I was lost.

You are not lost, said God. You are simply in a new place. He told me to fear not. He told me to enjoy this new place. He told me to find my comfort in the growth I had found.

Ah.

Aha!

I find myself in a new place.

All is NOT lost. I have been found. Here. In this new place. It’s up to me to receive, to rejoice, to embrace these new surroundings. I think I will.

content and not lost,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Fear not, beloveds, if and as you find yourself in a new situation or circumstance. Enjoy it. Embrace it.

Yes, it will take time to get comfortable in and with new things. I am learning to not seek comfort. I’m learning to simply seek and enjoy what I find. Ah, God. What do I do with me now?

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Thank God for boring!

Thank God for boring!

Nuff said, beloveds.


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Thank God for boring times, eh? They are certainly preferable to broke, tornadoes, what in the fresh hells and other thangs life can throw at us….hahahahahahahahahahaha!

Be encouraged. Be sure to laugh today. Asking for A Friend.


One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Let NOTHING keep you from feeding your spirit!

Let NOTHING keep you from feeding your spirit!

Nuff said,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is going to life. Hard times are going to be hard. Folks are going to hurt your feelings. You are going to do, say, and think some super stupid things that don’t and won’t serve you. So what?

Stop using those things to give you the excuse to comfort eat, quit, complain and all the super dumbsky things we do AND say, when going through things we don’t like.

Yada yada. Nada nada. Tell yourself you are going to get some act right. Then, beloveds, go on ahead and get some act right before God, Life, AND The Universe gives you the swift kick, to your behind, that you richly earned and deserved….hahahahahaahahahahahah. Ow, God, we sowwy…lol.

We got this. Let’s go get it. Let’s love someone. Starting with ourselves.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Happy birthday to me and my wombie!!!

Yay!

Today is my birthday!

Today is my twin’s birthday!

Yay…hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

Somebody wish me a Happy Birthday!!

I love me some me….((((((((((((hugs self))))))))))))))))))))

Someone sing me Happy Birthday.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Yaasssssssssss!!!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

All over again, ALL OVER AGAIN!😳

What do you DO, beloveds, when life makes you make lemon meringue from the lemonade you had to make, from the lemons life handed you?

I had to find out. In real time. Ack. Ick and Heckamiah Jeremiah!…*stamps foot*.

The job I was due to start on my birthday, has been pushed back to start December 1st.

BUT, I have to redo ALL the pre-onboarding stuff and pass all of it, AGAIN, and wait….AGAIN.

Then, I will have one more step to get through and THEN hope this contract will have not been yanked beneath me…again!😳

I admit it. These events through me for a loop. I lied to myself. I told myself I was fine. I attempted to be about being about it.

Then, I got mad.

At God.

At Life.

At The Universe.

At me.

At the stupid, blasted job.

Rinse.

Repeat.

I cried.

I pouted.

I pouted AND cried.

I fussed.

I tossed in the towel.

I tossed myself into bed.

I tossed and turned, in said bed.

Good habits told me to shut up all that noise and get back after it.

So what asked me “so what?”.

Boredom got bored watching me act the fool.

Act right told me to get some act right.

I agreed with boredom and act right and for to being about it!

I just stopped by to encourage someone. Starting with me.

Be encouraged.

Start again as many times as it takes.

Stuff happens. More stuff has happened. So what?! What are YOU going to DO about it, beloveds?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: We got this. Hard is not here to break you. Hard is here to get across to your hard headed self that you can, that you will, and that you are so much more than you give yourself credit for.

Now, stop pouting at the hand you have been dealt and enjoy the game!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Take the time to take all the time you need!

I’m taking the time, beloveds.

I’m taking the time to do things right, the FIRST time.

I’m done with doing things in a half hazard fashion. I am through with tossing my dreams crumbs whilst I give my all to any and everybody.

I have spent ALL day dreaming, planning and scheduling things to DO. NOW. HERE. IMMEDIATELY.

I am:

Ready.

Steady.

Aiming for all that God, Life, and The Universe had planned and put away for me since I was yet a wee one. Yes, before I was conceived, my me was already in the works! How amazing is that???????!!!!!!!!

I’m taking my time. I no longer feel as though time is running out on me. I’ll have the time to do what needs to be done. Or I hope so. All I can do is do the best I can and see what happens.

Tomorrow is my 57th birthday. Yikes. I don’t know what happened. I’ve been 25 for the last 21 years.

I’m looking forward to seeing what life has to offer me. Ah God, thank you for my life.

I just stopped by to encourage someone to take the time to take all the time you need. Be good to you. Remember that you are loved and that you are not alone.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I can’t believe another year is coming on. I look forward to seeing what my birthday will bring.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

STOP arguing with life and do the blasted thing already!

STOP arguing with life and do the blasted thing already!

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Nuff said, beloveds. Now that we have gotten all the arguing out of the way, we can commence the doing of life, eh?

Please and thanks stop doing the following:

Complaining that you don’t know what to do. Do SOMETHING. Get your feet moving in ANY direction. Life will kick you in the hind end, trust me, if you are going in the wrong direction….hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

Doubting yourself already. Enough! Geeeez, beloveds. You give yourself little to no credit for any of your successes. Stop doing that. Celebrate your wins. Even the small ones. Especially those. You need the little things to give you the courage to try the big stuff.

Telling yourself dumb lies. Really, beloveds. You have filled your head with all kinds of nonsense that you can’t, you’ll never, you won’t do it right. Yada Yada and nada nada. Holy Crimeny and Apple Jack pancakes! Enough!

You CAN. You WILL. You simply MUST. Heckamiah, beloveds, one of yall may perhaps be holding onto the keys that I have been waiting for for the past 56 years. Give them here! Get your dreams out there so we can experience them. Geeez already!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

It’s OK to wonder why.

It’s OK to wonder why.

It’s OK to wonder why not.

It’s OK to wonder.

It’s OK to wander.

How else will we grow if we don’t ask? How else will you get there if you don’t go?

Let’s go!

I just stopped by to encourage someone to get up and try again. I know you’re tired. Get up and go anyway. Victory shall be yours. The only way you lose. is if you quit. There is no quit in us. We got too many things to do.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: The more I live, the less I am asking why. I do tend to wonder a little bit though…lol

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!