Category: Writing

Ah, Life. Why do you keep breaking my heart?

Ah, Life.

Ow!

Why do you keep breaking my heart?

Hey there, Life. Why won’t you open these doors for me?

Come on, Life. Why do you do the things you do?

Don’t you, care?

Why won’t you share, your bounty, with me?

What else must I do, Life?

What else must I give?

How else must I act before YOU will act for/with me?

I’m tired, Life. Not of you. But of all you have been putting me through.

Take hard with you, Life. And, bring me rest, in return.

Tell bounty to head my way. And, take lack and watch it burn.

Enough, Life, of all this hard. Give it a rest. Give me a break. Whew.

Okay, Life, I get it. I see what you are trying to do. You have been trying to get me to keep on keeping on. No matter what.

I shall try, Life. I love you. Still. Even though you keep breaking my heart. The ONLY thing I will allow to stay broken is

broken not beaten,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note Every since I made a full-fledged effort to super try and make my dream come true, in real time, all kinds of foolishness and folly have come screaming out of the woodwork.

Folk have either been trying to get in my pants, get in my pockets, or both!

I have been told, endlessly, all the 50 bajillion reasons why I shouldn’t, can’t, won’t, dear egads don’t waste my time, and 90 other messages that would cause one to dive in bed never to return.

The more I have pondered and research the more, at first, I wanted to change my mind and stay in my comfort zone.

In my coffin, er, comfort zone, beloveds, I KNOW my space. I KNOW how far I can go. I KNOW what to expect. Every day…*sigh*.

Too bad, my heart absolutely REFUSES to stay in check and hide. Life is just too short, my life says to me. EVERY day. ALL day.

Okay, heart, I shall keep trying. Broken and all. Diamonds are formed by pressure!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

When life is not funny, laugh anyway.

I had to laugh, beloveds.

And, I mean laugh. NOTHING was working. I mean absolutely nothing. Stakeholders not happy. Managers not thrilled. Peers not amused.

I have spent the day apologizing for things I can do nothing about.

What did I do?

I laughed.

I made lemonade from the lemons.

I told myself the truth:

It is well.

When life hands you lemons, make something tasty.

Don’t fret.

Don’t sweat.

Don’t worry.

Things WILL be okay.

It is well.

laughing through the hard,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Hang in there. It will be okay. Okay take some of this with you and spread liberally:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU.

How’s your ♥ heart?

How’s your ♥ heart?

How are YOU doing?

What does YOUR heart need?

Beloveds, your heart matters. YOUR heart and YOUR needs.

Mine is currently on the ill side. I took the day off to get some things done, but my body says ‘not today’.

I am giving myself the time to get better. I put down my dreams just for the day. Okay, I daydreamed just a smidge.

Be encouraged. Keep doing your best. The outcome is not ours to worry about.

I am still learning that it’s okay to shut it down and heal the way I need to.

Ewwwww, I hear 😷 medicine calling. Want some? Here.♥️

😷,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: 🤮😴

Repeat after me.

Repeat after me:

I am amazing.

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Too often, beloveds, we tell ourselves ridiculously untrue things such as we can’t, we won’t, nobody cares, we don’t care. On and on. Feeding ourselves mound of foolishness and lies.

Speak truth to your heart. You ARE amazing! You ARE worthy. You ARE lovable. You ARE loved. You ARE intelligent. You ARE. Be encouraged.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

You don’t HAVE to.

A friend recommended a new type of coffee creamer.

It sounded gross.

I tell myself I will try it.

I am learning to try new things.

Ewwwwwwwwww!

I absolutely HATED it.

I pouted as I paid a million dollars for it. Okay, it was close to four bucks but now I have a 50 gallon monstrosity of nastiness in my fridge who is demanding I finish since I had already paid for it.

In the past, I would have toughed it out because I had already paid the 4 bucks. Yep, beloveds, I would have inflicted weeks of pain/agony from messing up perfect cups of coffee adding nastiness just because I had ‘paid’ for the horrifying coffee crime sitting in my refrigerator. Smh. Don’t judge me. I am learning…lol.

I don’t know why us humans do super dumb things like staying in relationships, jobs, situations that do not serve us simply because we have been there ‘too long’. How long must we put ourselves through torment, er, foolishness because we had been with this person or that job forever?

There is a time and purpose for everything. You may have outgrown friendship from 30 years ago! You and the person may have grown in different directions. There is nothing wrong with missing folk well and growing in a larger/different pot.

Now, I am NOT saying leave a marriage/relationship you think has ‘grown stale’. Could it be YOU the one who is stale? Refresh the relationship. Talk to your other half. Grow together. Love each other and keep it meaning.

I am talking about a job you KNOW you have never cared for but have not taken the courage to look for something new, get the new job, THEN say goodbye to the one that is holding you back.

Please, please, please don’t blow up your life because you are feeling out of sorts.

Oftentimes, God and The Universe are trying to upset your apple cart so you can start asking questions to determine your why and get to doing YOUR why.

Be open to new things.

Just know you don’t HAVE to force down something not to your liking. Just because someone else believes something, find out for YOU if you agree/disagree. Then, keep caring for them and keep it moving. Disagreement does not mean the opposite side is your enemy. Just means you don’t like their coffee creamer. Eww!…lol

trying new things/sticking with my creamer,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. Remember your thoughts/opinions matter. Don’t follow like the rest of the world seems to be angry about this, mad about that. Half the time I don’t think most folks even know what they have decided to be mad about. They have just seen a bunch of folks up in arms and began to yell and scream as well. SMH.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Cut yourself some slack.

Cut yourself some slack, beloveds.

Life is much too short to be worrying about things you can not change, alter, get away from etcetera.

Life is just going to go all lifery on you, anyway. Do what you can. Leave the rest be.

I mean it!

ALL you are doing is wasting the day.

Keep pursuing your dream. Be good to yourself as you wait for it. Acknowledge when you are tired and frustrated. Rest. Get up and keep it moving. Rinse. Repeat.

Simple as that.

How do I know? I wasted a bajillion years until I got tired of banging my head against the same wall every other five and a half seconds….ow!

Be encouraged. You are exactly where you are supposed to be. God and The Universe has already calculated your acting a fool, wasting time, discouragement and the like into your equation.

You got this.

You CAN.

You WILL.

cheering you on,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: In case no one told you today – I love you. Let someone know they are loved and not alone would you please/thanks? Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:

Guard your why.

It’s important to guard your why.

Why?

If you don’t, you may find yourself pursuing the whys of the world. You end up hopelessly chasing likes, subscriptions, joiners and all manner of things.

You will find yourself wondering why you are doing what you are doing.

YOUR why is important.

Why?

Because, the world needs YOU. The AUTHENTIC you. Not the contrived you folks try to get you to be to suit THEIR agenda and needs.

Be YOU.

Just you.

Pursue YOUR why.

Why?

Your why will grow discouraged waiting for you to get back to it, that’s why!..lol.

Life is short.

Guard your why, beloveds.

Your peace is contained in your why.

Your joy is hopelessly tied up in your why.

Heckamia, the key to MY dreams may be hopeless tied up in your why!

Be encouraged, beloveds. Take heart. I have seen tons of folks, here lately, who are quitting their YouTube channels etc because of burnout, feeling like imposter(s) due to feeling as though they have had to pretend they were something they were not, thinking they had to lie and pretend they were ‘more successful’ so they could be in the orbit of other folk they feel are ‘more successful’.

Remember, beloveds, you are soooooooooooooooooooo much more than what you do, what you have, what you wear, who you know, who does not know you.

Why?

Because, you are loved and you are NOT alone, that’s why!

It’s crucial you guard your why and enjoy your life whilst being, doing and pursuing your why. The rest will come out in the wash.

#YourLife MattersToMe

Note: Why are you doing what you are currently doing? Why are you not pursuing that which you have desired to do? Answer yourself then get on with your why.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

My dreams woke up and told me to go.

Dreams: Get up, Cassandra. Hurry!

Me: 😴. What’s the hurry?

Dreams: 🤑

Me: Nuff said.

going,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Just sharing a bit of a 😂 laugh, beloveds. Life is short. Also, lazy took over this piece and said to keep it super short. Don’t tell but I was successfully bribed by lazy and nap. Nap promised to be especially long and comfortably snoozy!

In the meantime, keep embracing your now and enjoying it, while you are in your in the meantime stage of life. You know the drill by now:

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Take YOUR vision and go!

I was up all night trying to get my dreams to shut up long enough to get some sleep!

It’s amazing what happens, beloveds, when you give yourself permission to act upon your dreams no matter how you feel.

Take your fear with you, but go!

Take your doubt with you, but go!

Take YOUR vision and go!

I have had a blast dreaming up 50 ways to do my first motivational video. I think I am going to use my piece called ‘Fear, you don’t run me!’ I looooooooove that sentence! Makes me want to punch excuses in the face!

Excuses: Hey! Why you bothering me? I wasn’t doing anything yet! I mean, I wasn’t going to do anything because lazy was…

Lazy: Hey! Why you bothering me on my day off? I was fixing to get up but you woke me now I have to take another nap.

Nap: Hey! Don’t involve me! Day promised me an extra treat if I got up on time!

Day: Quiet. QUIET!! Lazy, go on and take excuses with you and leave nap alone! Cassandra has thangs to do!

Thanks, day. Uh, oh, beloveds, I had better take off before dreams wake up again.

Dreams:😴🥳 You rang?

Me: Oh, no!

living my dreams outloud,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Get to daydreaming then get up and make them happen. You got this. Be encouraged.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

You can soar from your current position.

A funny thing happened on the way to my dreams…

For months and months, my heart had been driving me up ten walls. Thankfully, beloveds, I can now speak in past terms. Whew!

My heart had been pestering there was more she wanted to do with my life.

More.

More.

More.

The word chased me to bed.

More.

More.

More!

The word chased me out of 🛏 bed.

More.

More.

More!

More what!?

I couldn’t ignore the stupid word. Nothing was satisfying anymore. See!? There is that ‘more’ again!

I asked God what on earth was going on with my heart. God said ‘beats me’ and left ME to figure things out for myself. How dare!

Finally, I had a heart to heart cry with God and asked WHY He would give me a dream and then not let me fly!

I wanted to do this, that and the other thing, but life was currently in the way.

He asked one sentence that stopped me in my tracks:

Why can’t you soar from where you are right now?

Hhmmm.

I was forced to ask myself:

Why can’t you soar from where you are right now?

Can you soar from where you are right now?

Will you soar from where you are right now?

What things do you need to help you soar right now?

Hhmmm.

Ah.

Aha!

After a hard and honest talk with ME, I began to surf YouTube. As background, I was never into YouTube. For years and years.

I paid for the cable. Flipped gaskets over high internet bill over usage. Wondered why on earth sis and niece forever were carrying on about YouTube this and YouTube that.

One day, I wondered on, wandered around, and th rest was history. Now, I have to schedule time. Otherwise, I could spend a lifetime watching udon noodles being made.

While surfing, some tutorials on website building and other things I would need to learn popped up. Yikes!

God heard me! So, I started a playlist and got to pondering my what next and what now.

I had also determined I was going to find a more modern apartment with central air. I asked myself if this was a deal breaker because I liked my neighborhood. It’s quiet. Neighbors doing bother each other.

I live in central location of the stores and post office etc. It’s the perfect spot. Just older building and upstairs. I considered if I wanted to live beneath folk stomping upstairs.

I think I may stay where I am!

I also pondered on how much time I am allowing myself to learning how to create and build my own weird website and how much I am willing to put out, monthly, if I never make a dime.

Am I writing to encourage, to entertain, to make money or all three? If so, do I do a website with blog? Do I stick with just a blog and play around with that?

Questions. Questions!

I decided to soar from where I am. Right now. Here, I shall plant my 🚩 flag. I have no idea where or how things will turn out. I am just going to create my own opportunity and see what happens.

Right now, I am watching my favorite YouTube channels in a new way. I am pondering what I like about them. Why I choose one channel over another.

Hopefully, this will help me with this blog so I can present my magnificent words in a more eye pleasing way…😂.

I love a good meal. Half the enjoyment is how it looks on the plate. I am going to learn to feed yall steak on something other than on a paper plate.🥸😂🤷‍♀️

In the meantime, beloveds, I just stopped by to encourage you to soar from where you are. You will get to your somewhere sooner or later. Or, you may end up someplace totally unexpectedly.

Look around you. Look within you. Then, look up and keep moving forward. We got thangs to do.

doing thangs from here,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Um, you are supposed to be soaring! Scoot!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!