Note: Only someone who has or is truly going through it will understand this piece. Hang in there. We got this.
Am currently sitting here trying not to try so damned hard. I am getting in my own way. I’m digging up plants to see if they are growing. Metaphorically, of course. I keep telling myself to chill. I have time. 56 keeps reminding me that 57 is showing up after a while!
Be encouraged, beloveds. We have time. I think.🥰😁⚒️😂
My nerves wanted to keep me in bed. They said, why should you try today?
I told myself, I’m going to try. I made an especially bad video this morning. It made me laugh. I’m going to have fun editing it.
We have to give life something to edit. We have to be willing to mess up. We have to be willing to give life a heaping pile of mess. How else will we learn and grow?
Have FUN with your mistakes. Enjoy your failures. You are going to make enough of them anyway!🤣
My nerves are soooooooooooo shot. Why? The financial news is not getting better. Hence 56 is growing a bit nervous. I keep telling her we have time.
Life is short. Let’s make the most of the ones we have, eh, beloveds?
The 🔮 future is silent. She won’t speak to me. I want to make her.
God is silent. He won’t tell me what He is up to. I want to shake Him.
56 is afraid she will be left behind. I am shaken.
Fear: Run!
God: Be still.
Doubt: Hide!
Life: Be still.
Circumstances: Nobody gives a hoot.
The Universe: Be still.
Storms: We ain’t going nowhere.
My heart: Be still.
56: Let’s get the heck out of here.
57: Be still.
*Cassandra looks at the storms raging within/without, tells all doubters to shut it, and heads for a cup of ☕ coffee*
Be still, beloveds. This too shall pass. We are loved. We are NOT alone. We CAN. We WILL.
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Tears were my 🥣 breakfast this morning. I let them fall. I am not strong. Then again, beloveds, I don’t have to be.
Uncertainty does NOT mean certain destruction is imminent. It just means you can’t see what’s up ahead.
Keep moving FORWARD. Keep looking UP. Keep standing ten toes down on FAITH. Keep standing on business.
Get in your gratefuls. I am thankful for the hard. It keeps me on my knees. It keeps me from donning a cape. It keeps me from hiding. It keeps me from running. It keeps me fighting for ME. It keeps slapping me awake so I can live my life with INTEGRITY and INTENTION.
I put on some praise and worship to get this party started since all kind of foolishness wants to barge in to get me to look everywhere but up. I don’t think so. Homie don’t play that!
Be encouraged. Nothing is over. We just getting started! I love you. So does He.
My quitter quit again this morning. I’ve made quitter get up and make coffee. I wanted to give up so badly on starting. on starting my channel, I decided I’m going to work on pieces and get my channel started. There has to be a reason why doubts trying its best to get me to stop.
I fired up the computer, and I just started talking. The video turned into something else. I turned into something else.
Wouldn’t you know it, just as I was getting into with maintenance decided to start whacking down more old trees? The sounds of the chainsaw is driving me up 10 walls. I can barely hear myself think. I had to start recording videos.
Instead of giving up on my day, I decided to work one more pieces. I can’t believe my Dallas also tried to get me to delete my blog that I have been working on for 5 years now. I don’t know why discouragement has been so loud these past few weeks.
I am normally able to encourage myself with uplifting use egg or reading or talking to my family or encouraging myself. for the past week or so, I have not been able to consistently keep myself motivated and encouraged.
It’s a good thing my good habits are holding me down. It’s a good thing my trier with Jesus to give up more than 10 minutes or so. It’s a good thing my toes are standing. 10 toes down on faith.
I just stopped by encourage someone to keep on keeping on. If an obstacle gets in your way, move it out of the way. Or use the obstacle to step up to greater heights.
Don’t stop playing the game because it has gotten hard. Switch things up if you need to. Things may not turn out the way you had hoped. You will never know until you try. Be encouraged.
Your habits work for you. To your service or your detriment.
I woke from a delish nap. Automatically, I headed to the bathroom. After the bathroom, I found myself sitting, grabbing my phone, began editing, creating, and finishing pieces.
I wasn’t thinking. My good habits got about getting after it. Without needing cajoling or bribery. Good habits had thangs to do. I woke from my slumber and became an active participant. My goal had been another nap. Good habits said, ha!
I’m so glad my good habits have gotten so good that they paid no mind when I go into a mini pity party. I am thankful my good habits are used to making myself eat, getting old with my dad, whether I want to or not, and try. and trying to see the best out of life.
I have been pleasantly surprised to find myself reaching for the sunshine when darkness comes to visit. I have not been comfort eating or hiding under the covers. I have been facing my fears. I have been confronting the past. I have been making peace with it.
I’m doing my utmost to own my present and future.
The more darkness I see around me, the more I shine my light. I no longer allow myself to give in to the rage baiting that is going on right now. I choose to live. I choose to love. I choose to remain hopeful and joyful.
Keep doing what you know. Everyday. Good habits will continue to show love for you.
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