Note: Love one another. We are NOT transactions to be suffered through. We are NOT Mark’s to be taken advantage of. We are NOT thoughtless beasts with no room for growth, change, and love.
We ARE all:
Flawed.
Different.
Indifferent, at times.
Still, se are all we got. Yet, we are all we need…
Knowing this, I have been resting. A lot. Too much for some…lol.
Still, for the first time, EVER, I have given myself permission to take this time. For ME.
Today, wombie called. I only had 2% of energy. In the past, I would have grumpily given her time.
I would have harrumphed my way through a conversation I really didn’t want to have, being as I was tired and wanting MY space.
I have been teaching myself to be more considerate. I realize that I had, in the past, used fatigue as an excuse to not be all in a conversation or situation.
I don’t do that anymore. At least, I try not to. Why am I telling on myself?
Well, I recognized sis just wanted to hang out and have a bit of company. HER heart needed to be tended to.
Does that mean that MY need for stillness was not just as important as her need for company? Tough question.
We both talked about this: her need for company. My need for time alone.
We compromised. I gave her some tired moments, whilst making a coffee date for the next day.
We both ended the conversation satisfied.
Life is short. If someone reaches out, beloveds, spare them a few moments. Give them a bit of your love. They reached out because they needed YOU.
This is not a lecture so much as an entreaty for us to remember the importance of life.
If you are too busy to give a wee bit of yourselves to those you love, perhaps you are a smidge too busy, eh?
I’m trying to impart something. My heart is trying to share something of which I am just slowly beginning to grasp. If anyone knows what that is, let me know.
Note: Life is going to life. Hard times are going to be hard. Folks are going to hurt your feelings. You are going to do, say, and think some super stupid things that don’t and won’t serve you. So what?
Stop using those things to give you the excuse to comfort eat, quit, complain and all the super dumbsky things we do AND say, when going through things we don’t like.
Yada yada. Nada nada. Tell yourself you are going to get some act right. Then, beloveds, go on ahead and get some act right before God, Life, AND The Universe gives you the swift kick, to your behind, that you richly earned and deserved….hahahahahaahahahahahah. Ow, God, we sowwy…lol.
We got this. Let’s go get it. Let’s love someone. Starting with ourselves.
What do you DO, beloveds, when life makes you make lemon meringue from the lemonade you had to make, from the lemons life handed you?
I had to find out. In real time. Ack. Ick and Heckamiah Jeremiah!…*stamps foot*.
The job I was due to start on my birthday, has been pushed back to start December 1st.
BUT, I have to redo ALL the pre-onboarding stuff and pass all of it, AGAIN, and wait….AGAIN.
Then, I will have one more step to get through and THEN hope this contract will have not been yanked beneath me…again!😳
I admit it. These events through me for a loop. I lied to myself. I told myself I was fine. I attempted to be about being about it.
Then, I got mad.
At God.
At Life.
At The Universe.
At me.
At the stupid, blasted job.
Rinse.
Repeat.
I cried.
I pouted.
I pouted AND cried.
I fussed.
I tossed in the towel.
I tossed myself into bed.
I tossed and turned, in said bed.
Good habits told me to shut up all that noise and get back after it.
So what asked me “so what?”.
Boredom got bored watching me act the fool.
Act right told me to get some act right.
I agreed with boredom and act right and for to being about it!
I just stopped by to encourage someone. Starting with me.
Be encouraged.
Start again as many times as it takes.
Stuff happens. More stuff has happened. So what?! What are YOU going to DO about it, beloveds?
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: We got this. Hard is not here to break you. Hard is here to get across to your hard headed self that you can, that you will, and that you are so much more than you give yourself credit for.
Now, stop pouting at the hand you have been dealt and enjoy the game!
Old has been stalking me. I tell old to kick rocks.
I want to play. I want to dance in the rain. Old says I am much too old for that.
Ha!
I look forward to 57 and all I shall do to her and within her.🤔🤣
sneaking up on 57, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I have spent the last week or so absolutely refusing to allow sad to mess up my coming birthday. I have felt soooooooooo old lately. No idea why.
It pursues me in my dreams. Awakened, I wonder where it is.
Restless, my days now seem empty. I don’t know what is missing. I just know there is SOMETHING missing.
Crap.
I must find it.
Where are you?
seeking, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I have been restless for days. My heart is desperately seeking SOMETHING, beloveds. I have NO idea what it is.
My birthday is coming. I am now closer to 60 than I ever was to 50. I’m not sure how I feel about that.
Normally, I would have written my way out. I would have written dozens of inspiring pieces meant to encourage you and me.
This time, I have decided to sit with this. This unknowing. This unsettled feeling. This. It. Ah, God. What do I DO with me now? Asking for many friends.
This is a challenging time in history. Things are changing. Things have changed. Many things have gotten hopelessly worse.
I choose to continue to be a light. We shall make it through these times. Somehow. In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He. Be encouraged.
I’m starting my third channel. I’m being more deliberate in how I began this time. Yes, I’m going back to work on the other two, but here I can really focus and hone in on things.
Years ago I was asked what I thought of chat GPT. I was afraid to try it. Back then, I was afraid to try many of the. New technology that was meant to make our lives easier.
In the last year I have been branching out on the research. I have been utilizing as many tools as I can come across. Yes, I am careful of what I use and I follow my research with more research.
I don’t go by what everyone is saying. I research for myself. Then I let myself be open to changing my mind. I don’t know everything. In fact, the more I grow, the more I know that I know next to nothing……hahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahaha!
I have not been successful yet. That said, I’m learning a lot. In fact. I have been steered towards what I truly want to do. I’m taking a pause on things to actually pursue what sets my heart on fire. I’ll be speaking more of this in the future.
I’m actually thankful that my channels have not taken off. I have been able to regroup to reassess. And to ask myself what it is that I am hoping to accomplish.
Now that I know that my heart has gone off in the direction has been wanted to go off in for the past 30 years.
All of the failures before are helping me to reach my dreams now. I no longer view them as failures, but as stepping stones to my greatness. I hope you will do the same.
I no longer see my mistakes as catastrophes. I see them as a chance to begin again. I see them as a chance to exercise my faith muscles. I see them as a chance to grow. I see them as a chance to laugh. I’ve been laughing often.
I just stopped by to encourage someone. Starting with me. Don’t be discouraged if you have not yet succeeded. Life is speaking to you a mixed your mistakes and your failures. Listen. You’ll be surprised at what you hear.
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Defeat is not here to defeat us. Is here to remind us the game is not yet over. Get up and try again. Today, I try. I may fail. If so, I will try again. Rinse. Repeat.
Looking for a way out. I’m pressing my way through.
Trying to remain comfortable. I’m stretching my boundaries.
Hiding from life. I’m living my life with intention.
I’m no longer settling for less than my best.
No longer do I hold back. I’m moving forward. I’m stretching towards something special.
I no longer look for the exit door. I embrace whatever I find in the room.
I no longer see lack as an excuse.
I no longer allow myself to remain unchallenged.
No longer do I hang my head in despair.
I no longer hold myself back.
No longer will I allow Lazy to run my life.
I’m no longer willing to give myself excuse not to try.
No longer will I get out of the fight. I would take the fight to everything that is getting in my way.
I’m no longer willing to allow disappointment, frustration and all its friends to keep me from pressing through.
No longer…
determined, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: It’s important to challenge yourself from time to time. It’s crucial to demand the best from yourself. It’s imperative that you not allow your life to be tossed to and fro. Life is what you make it. Make it an amazing one.
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