Me: I’m afraid.
Friend: Pick up the phone. Call and find out what you need to know about your job.
Me: I’m afraid.
Friend: You NEED to call.
Me: I’m afraid.
Friend: Pick up the phone.
Me: K.
I KNEW, beloveds, that I NEEDED to know what was happening. So I could:
Move forward.
Move on.
Have a nice long cry and chocolate, depending on the outcome of said call.
I told myself I absolutely REFUSE to allow myself to live in fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of the known. Told fear to get the heckamiah jeremiah away from me!!!!!
Taking a breath, I called my boss. He gave me the news I would not be paid beyond today. I cried. I at least found out I would still have my job once the internet reared it’s non-working head.
Then, I started to put on my big girl panties and get about being about it.
Then, my heart was terribly sad. Just sssssssaaaaaaaaaaaad, beloveds, with all the loss. So much loss.
DAMMIT!!
I decided to call my big sis and asked her if I could ‘just be human for a few minutes’. She let me. I was human. I was sad. For a bit. She made me laugh. A lot.
After a good sad/laugh/talk, I put on my big girl pants, made a cup of coffee and got on with whatever in the fresh hell my life is, at the moment.
I am smack dab in the middle of who in the world knows what. I am learning to care less and less about where I am. I am more focused on where I am, if that makes sense….lol.
Meaning, I KNOW I am with Him.
Enough for me.
Mike drop.
The rest WILL come out in the wash.
Until then, I am going to write, write, read, read, drink coffee, clean maybe, hope always, love folk, love folk some more.
Rinse.
Repeat.
All else is folly, in my humbly boring opinion.
I am hoping someone or someones will be able to find some use, in these words, so they don’t have to go through a horrible tornado, sickness, and all kinds of what the hell is this in order to get some nuggets to grow from and go towards.
In the meantime, beloveds, we had best be get to living in the meantime. Eh?
If you have not worked on your dream today, um, get the hooey out of here and get to working on it!!
Life is so worth living. Even when it’s hard. Especially when it’s hard.
gratefully loved,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Stop letting fear/doubt run your life. Tell them to kick rocks. You CAN. You WILL. You can do this. You can. So can I. And, when you are feeling super doubtful, give yourself an A and keep it moving….
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
- THE HAND FROM HEAVEN ✋🏾☁️🧻🤣
- COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
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