There’s nothing like a natural disaster that can shake some sense into you.
Literally.
Fresh hell.
Before the tornado, I had been lying to myself. I was unhappy at work. Not happy WITH work. Just not happy because I have wanted to move on.
Except, I have been too afraid to move on. I have been afraid I wouldn’t find something else. I was afraid I would not be chosen because of my age, my race, my you can add whatever you want here.
A week ago, I was presented with a choice. No choice really. I could force myself back to work or I could choose my mental health and step away.
I chose my mental health. I stepped away. In stepping away, beloveds, I have set off a war within.
All because The Universe called me a liar. How rude!
I had convinced myself I could remain, at work, and continue to ‘fake it til I make it’. I told myself I could. I told myself I could continue to pretend I could be satisfied with what I was doing.
The Universe said:
Ha!
Liar!
Fraidy cat!
Defiant, I told The Universe to kick rocks. Then, I apologized and went about reclaiming the truth.
I’m tired. I’m ready to move forward. I’m ready to move in another direction. I just don’t know which direction to move towards.
I guess WHERE I move is not as important, beloveds, in THAT I move, eh?
I have moved. Now, I wait. I am giving myself a month just to rest and to breathe. A week in and I am ready to run away from home just to get away from this restless me. Ack!
I won’t pretend anxt has not visited me in the past few days. It has. I keep telling my anxt to take two seats and go away from me!
I am on my second cup of coffee. I think I may have a spot of tea. Who wants to join?
asking for A friend,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Life is short. Best to stop wasting time lying to ourselves about what we are truly feeling and hoping for. I am thankful I FINALLY made the decision to move. I spent more time miserable, at work then working.
Be encouraged. Move. In any direction. Just move. Your heart will whisper to you where it has been hankering to go. The Universe will let you know if you are lying to It and yourself. Get going, beloveds. You have folk who are waiting to love you. You have friendships to experience. You have boundless joy to run into. You have sooooooooooooooooooo much ahead of you. Your life is NOT over. It’s not.
The hard shall have it’s end. In the meantime, keep looking up. Keep getting out of bed. Keep being good to yourself. Keep showing care to one another. Life is hard. For all of us right now. Yikes. In case no one has told you yet today: I love you. So does He. Jesus says ‘hi’.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
- COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
- REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS.👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢
Why Can't I Be Loud?! 