Repeat after me: It’s not my fault.

Repeat after me:

It’s not my fault.

I gave my all.

I tried my best.

I loved best I could.

I gave all of me.

It’s not my fault.

I WAS there.

I WAS present.

I WAS ready.

It’s not my fault.

I stayed.

I fought.

I prayed.

It’s not my fault.

Things ended.

Things end.

As they were/are meant to.

It’s not my fault.

I did NOT deserve what happened.

That said, it happened.

I choose to deal with, heal from, then leave the past IN the past.

I move forward.

I remain hopeful.

I promise to be good to me.

Repeat after me:

It’s not my fault.

That being the case, beloveds, why are you STILL lamenting the loss? Pick yourself up. Dust yourself off. Keep going. You have a life of wonder to live. As do I.

For days I have been crying in the silence that greets me now. I thought an outpouring of love would come for me, by now. It hasn’t. The silence grows. Louder. More insistent. Wondering how I will fill it.

I’m choosing to sit here. In the silence. I shall wait to see what Life, what God, what The Universe shall say to me. Now. Here. In this tough place. In this new and terrifying space. Ah, God. What in the wide world do I DO with me now?

asking for a friend(me),

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Don’t fear the silences, beloveds. They come for a reason. Don’t rush to fill them with noise and distraction. Sit with them. See what they shall say to you. In the meantime, STOP judging yourself and beating yourself up for things long since past. Move on. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

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