Live now. Let it go.

Music, Poetry, Running, Song, walking, Writing 3 Minutes

Life is short, beloveds. Much too short to keep beating yourself up for all you did, did not, should have, should not have done.

I have been forever forgiving myself, this week, for not being able to contribute as much as I ‘should have’ to my 401 and now it won’t be as much as I would like.

There is nothing I can do about that. Not now. I couldn’t afford to. Not then.

So, back and forth I go:

You dummy.

You did the best you could do, at the time.

You idiot!

You did what you could afford to do, at the time.

YOU MORON!!

You did what you could do, at the time, Cassandra.

Okay. Okay!

I did what I could. Then. Nothing can be done about it. Now.

I am using this time to get my act right acting right in as many places and spaces as I can.

I see why, now, why God and Life is being so silent. So, I can have the time to face and acknowledge sooooooooooooooooooooo many things I have shoved in a corner to be dealt with ‘later’.

I am making ‘later’ right now. It’s not easy. Facing up to things. Acknowledging things. Forgiving things. Mitigating things. Then, getting on with it already, Cassandra!

I am trying to cut myself more slack. I did dumb things, because I was afraid. I did stupid things, because I was lazy. I did ridiculous things, because I woke up in an annoyed mood. I said silly things because…*shrug*. Just no telling.

In ALL those things, beloveds. They happened. Get OVER it already, Cassandra, and move on with your life already!!

I can’t blame myself for being alone because I was so focused on helping other folks get THEIR other folk…lol. I don’t regret that. Now, I am just paying the consequences of giving too much of my me away to them and not taking enough time to do me FOR me so I could have more things in MY corner/bank account. Whew!

I am starting over. Again. For the 50 billionth time. This time, I am building for ME, with ME in mind. Yes, I am still going to look after folk and encourage folk and do what I can for folk. I am just adding ME into the equation.

Speaking of you, beloveds, it’s time for you to get off your case for all your coulda/shoulda/woulda. Live. Now. Let the rest go. You used to be a pain. So what. Stop being a pain. You used to act a fool. So what. Stop acting a fool. You used to be lazy. So what. Stop being lazy.

Get up. Move forward. Let things go so you can grow already!

I hear some chicken strips calling me. A cup of coffee is also scolding me for not drinking it whilst it was scalding hot…hehe.

I hope your day is going well. If not, do something. If so, carry on…hahahahahahahahaha.

Don’t let your struggles keep you down in the dumps. You are doing the best you can. With what you have, right now.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I am doing my best to do the nothing I wished I could be doing whilst I was working so hard. I am looking forward to do more nothing, tomorrow…hahahahahahahahahahaha.

Take care of yourselves, beloveds. We got this. The outcome is not for us to worry about. If you are concerned about something, that’s okay. Drag that worry and heave it up on The Father’s Lap. If you are not a believer, drag that worry and heave it up on The Father’s Lap anyway….hahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahaha.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

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