Real talk, beloveds, it really is truth that when the student is ready, the teacher shall appear.
For weeks, I have been ramming my head against the same wall of fear 😱. EVERY day. ALL day. I told myself because I was in need of a job.
In truth, beloveds, the job had and has nothing whatever to do with my TRUE need(s):
The need to FEEL safe.
The need to BE safe, financially.
The need to KNOW the safety of the love of/from others.
NO job can meet those needs. NO person can meet those needs. NO bank account can meet those needs. Okay, they can TEMPORARILY. Then, the ultimate need will AGAIN present itself:
The need to be cared for. The need to KNOW/EXPERIENCE the fact we are NOT alone. The need to be cherished. The need to be heard. The need to be recognized.
Without these things, we feel empty, worthless and not worthwhile.
The reason I write is to let folk know they ARE:
Loved.
Seen.
Heard.
Valued.
Cherished.
By who/Whom?
Ah, great question! Answering this question is our quest, eh?
The FIRST person that must love us is US! How do we do that when we have forever been advised we are not lovable unless we come with endless gifts?
Ah, great question! Answering this question is our quest, eh?🥰
It took me many years to learn to love ME. There are still days when I have to remind me to keep loving me through all of my foolishness. Ah, Cassandra, why did you do THAT?! Oh, Cassandra, why didn’t you do THIS??!
One day, God told me to stop worrying about the outcome. He told me to focus on the try. I didn’t understand. Not at first. I was used to living and dying from the outcome.
I judged God by outcomes, or lack thereof. I judged people by outcomes, or lack thereof. I judged me by outcomes, or lack thereof.
Slowly, I learned to simply focus on MY try. I can’t do a thing about folk reading or not reading my pieces. I can’t convince folk to receive my care or not. I can’t force The Universe to bless me, monetarily.
ALL I can do is TRY. Lately, I found myself focusing more and more on the outcome, or lack thereof. All that did was send discouragement pouring in all corners of my world.
I forgot to look UP. I was too afraid to move FORWARD. I forgot to take joy with me through the hard. All I saw was nothing happening.
Thursday morning, I chose to put everything down. I told myself I refuse to allow fear to run my life and job search. The job is not the point. The point is to continue building my life upon FAITH, ACTION, INTEGRITY, AND LOVE. Everything else will come out in the wash.
I turned off the job searching and went in search of my peace of mind. I needed a reset. A while after that, a CS Lewis channel came across my feed. He was talking about resting and the fact that God is moving in our lives whether we see it or not.
Then, another wonderful channel appeared with beautiful scenery and positive affirmations.
Today, I came across a WONDERFUL piece from The Work At Home Guide. I HAD to share it with you as she has literally shared what I have been praying and asking for for weeks:
From Dreamer to Doer: Taking Action for Success – The Work At Home Guide
https://theworkathomeguide.com/from-dreamer-to-doer-taking-action-for-success/#respond
The whole point of this piece is to encourage you to just try. What you need SHALL be added to you. Who you need SHALL appear.
I hear a cup of coffee calling my name. Who is up for a cup?
asking for A Friend,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Keep trying, beloveds. If your try was not having an effect, your haters wouldn’t be hating so hard. No matter what results, you are growing. You are living. You are moving forward.
Life is much too short to waste on bitter feelings over what was or wasn’t. Move on. Move past. Start again. Again.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
- THE HAND FROM HEAVEN ✋🏾☁️🧻🤣
- COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
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