Day 1.
Again.
Ack. It seems like all I do nowadays is start over. I guess that’s a good thing. We can start over as many times in the day as we need to.
I made my Christmas chili. It had been many months since I made chili. Life has not been funny. I have not been in the mood for much. that have been fighting with myself to continue keeping on keeping on. I have not wanted to. I need to.
I did not want to fight with Christmas this year. I wanted to enjoy it. I told myself I would enjoy it. I told grief it was not welcome this year. I made a plan. I told myself I would get up early and get my Christmas chili made. I got up early. I made chili. I turned on music. I reached out to my siblings. I did the opposite of what grief wanted me to do.
I’m working on some pieces so I can enjoy the football games come the weekend. The competition has not been great. In fact, many of the games have been horrible. Mom and I would have spent countless hours lamenting over the awful football. I’m going to enjoy watching awful football with mom in my heart and on my mind.
Be encouraged. If you’re going to a hard time just now, that’s OK. Give yourself permission to process. I allowed myself a day or so just to stay in bed and feel sorry for myself. Then I got up and kept it moving. I have things to do. So do you.
Don’t let the heart keep these from being your best days. I have been watching and listening to old videos lately. I have enjoyed them. I’m getting back to enjoying just being. I’m taking my focus off of trying to find a job and just focusing on what I currently have in my life. Life is more than work.
Remember that you can always begin again. You can start Day 1, again. And again. As many times as needed.
Try not to give yourself a hard time, because you have to start over so many times. That’s what erasers are for. It’s not how many times you start. The most important thing is that you finish. You will finish. Be encouraged.
Keep doing what you know. Keep giving it all you’ve got. Don’t worry about the outcome. The outcome will take care of itself. The only thing you need to worry about is growing. Make sure you’re not growing bitter or disappointed. Disappointments will happen. Life is full of them. That’s OK. Just make sure you remain the positive person that you are.
I never knew that hard could be so damned hard and long could be so damned long! Yet I am still here. So are you.
If you have fallen down, get up again. Don’t judge yourself for having fallen. It happens to the best of us. It WILL happen to all of us, at some point or another.
This is our time as new beginnings. again. How many times will we have to start over again? Who knows? Who cares? Start over as many times as you need to.
asking for A Friend,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I’m still getting over being mad about having to start over again at my age. Starting over sucks. I guess I should have said that a more tasteful manner. No matter what you do don’t give up. You have too much to accomplish for that.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
- COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
- REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS.👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢
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