For months, forever it seems, I had been raging. At God. At the damned tornado. At me. At God again. At me again. Rinse. Repeat. Ad nauseam. Ad boredeum!
Forever, I roared. Scared. Angry. Angry. AND scared. Angry for being angry and scared.
I was angry at God for being silent. I was angry at me for being too stupid to hear.
I felt stupid, stupid, sttuuuuuupppidd!!
This was no way for a positive, moving forward, be about being about person to feel. Was it?…
All the while, beloveds, I was encouraged to encourage folk. Okay, so HOW in THEEEE fresh hell was I supposed to encourage folk when I was questioning what in the actual hell I believed in?
God told me that was a me problem and to get back to being about being about it.
How dare?!
I felt like an imposter. I felt like a fool. How could I encourage folk to have faith when I had no idea where to find my own?!
God: Great question! Keep asking!
Me: Ah.
God: Aha!
I am finally getting the hint. I finally get it. Life will do its life things. We have to learn to adapt and to overcome.
Working through all this hard is working out all of the kinks in me. The hard is bringing out the best in me. The hard is bringing out my try. The hard is only making me want to try harder.
I have learned to use my age as my asset. that no longer view my 50s as a detriment. that never used to. I didn’t mind turning 50. I enjoyed it in fact.
The tornado stripped my confidence. I am fighting to get it back. In the meantime, I encourage you to stay confident. Keep trying until you get it. You will.
There are days when I believe I have finally gotten the point. There are other days when I don’t know what in the fresh hell is going on. I guess the point is that sometime life just not seem to have a point…lol
I’m just living in the meantime. I’m just enjoying me in the meantime. Enjoy your life. Enjoy your day. Enjoy your moments. Make as many of them count as you can.
asking for A Friend,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Believe in yourself. Believe in your gifts. The tough times you are going through is growing you. Have an amazing rest of your day.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
- COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
- REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS.👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢
Why Can't I Be Loud?! 