I’m tired, God. Let my actions be my prayer today.

“I’m tired, God. Let my actions be my prayer today.”

My actual prayer, this morning.

I woke super tired. I was super tired from yesterday’s try. I think I over tried.

I wanted to see results. I saw no results.

I NEEDED to hear from God. God was silent. He was there. Silent. Waiting for ME to do MY part. To give MY effort.

I gave my effort. I waited. Tired.

This morning, even day felt sorry for me. Day, in consultation with lazy and later, gave me permission to rest today.

I told day that today and I had thangs to do. So, I got up, five hours past my normal time. Still, I rose.

I told God I was tired of living on this razor’s edge of not knowing what this financial day will bring.

Truth be told, beloveds, finances, or lack thereof, does NOT determine how are day shall be.

I had grown absolutely miserable before I had to give up my job. And, it wasn’t the job that had me miserable. I was miserable because I wasn’t 100% investing in making my dreams come true.

Yea, I was taking wobbly steps. But, I had been walking in hidden skepticism and self doubt. I didn’t know that I had the chops to face the constant criticism that comes with putting oneself 100% out there.

I put myself out there 100% in this blog. I took the leap and put myself, my dreams, my hopes, my heart 100% out there in all of my life.

The results have been underwhelming for everyone but my fam and my couple legit friends.

All else dismiss me. They don’t know me or my heart. ALL I can do is to keep presenting my heart EVERY day. Results be damned.

It takes courage to do so. I cried, like a baby, the other day as my efforts, my heart, appeared to be dismissed.

I am THANKFUL for those tears. I am GRATEFUL for the rain that watered my dreams that day.

After my THREE cries, I examined my “failure”. I turned it this way. I shook it. Hard. I peered at it that way. I pondered. I considered.

Ah.

Aha!

Suddenly, Wisdom showed with The Lord and began to point out where I had succeeded. They laughed with me and showed me where I could have added a bit more.

They joked with me and let me know it will NEVER be about the actual event. The IMPORTANT thing is the TRY.

Yes. Then be okay with the results, They said. I will.

The necessary thing is the KNOWLEDGE gained from the try.

Did I learn? I did. Then celebrate wisdom gained. I shall.

The crucial thing is our PERSPECTIVE we take from what we think has been dismissal of our efforts.

Did folk not like you or did they simply not respond in the manner you hoped?

Even if folk did not/do not care for me, for my try, I can take comfort in the fact that I DID try. I will try again.

I just stopped by to encourage someone. Starting with me.

Be encouraged. Try. Put yourself out there. Our say will come. Our day will come. In the meantime, go make someone else’s day!

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You CAN. You WILL. I’ll keep saying these things EVERY day. Until you believe me. Until you believe in you. Then, I will say it again…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

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