Whew.
Whew!!
Disappointment came raging in. Bad. Loud. Big 😡 mad.
That made me mad.
What did I DO about my mad, beloveds?
I reached out for support. I prayed just a smidge. I made sure to eat and hydrate.
I wrote a tad. I watched an old show.
I kept being good to me.
In times past, I would have spent countless hours making love to Doritoes and mini chocolate donuts.
Or, I would have 🗑 wasted countless moments blaming me, God, me, life, me, you, me, Life, me, the weather, me…you get my point.
I have learned, through countless hard miles, to keep being good to me, to keep it moving, to keep being honest, to keep doing something.
Disappointment has a way of sucking the do out of us. Leaving us to feel helpless and hopeless. We are not.
We were just hugely disappointed. It happens. Often.
I have given myself the day off to rest and spend some time with my why.
Why? So, I can make sure I am doing this because I choose to, because I want to, because I must.
Even after all this time, my why has stayed my why.
Why? I have been asking myself this exasperating question for 56 years.
I had a nice tantrum yesterday, telling God that my WHY DOESN’T PAY THE BILLS!!!!
It hasn’t. So far. I told myself I would find a regular job and leave why up to its own devises. If only I could. Crapola!
Be encouraged, beloveds. The Universe is not picking on us for entertainment. There truly are things we were born to do and give to the 🌎 world.
Your dream may be mixed up in my why…*shrug*
asking for A Friend,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Be encouraged.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
- REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS.👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢
- IT ME!
Why Can't I Be Loud?! 