Author: Cassandra S.

Recovery: Everything WILL be alright.

Everything WILL be alright.

I am choosing to stand on FAITH.

Things are dire.

Yet, God is God.

I thought of starting another GoFundMe to ask for help until I can help myself. Why do that when I can’t get help from the GoFundMe I started a year ago. I feel like a damned idiot.

In any event, I REFUSE to stand on fear today. I’m going to continue to encourage you, beloveds, to keep going.

No matter what.

I don’t know why God has been soooooooooo silent after this terrifyingly loud tornado 🌪.

I DO know this:

I am loved.

I am NOT alone.

Be encouraged, beloveds. Don’t let your circumstances scare you away from believing. Tell Reality to shut it(up). Keep pursuing your dreams.

Keep reaching out for love.

Above all, if anyone knows a good hedge fund person, have them hook a sista up. Tell them Ms. C IS an awesome person. Someone go viral on Tik Tok or something for me.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: When you are between a rock and a hard place, be sure to take your joy with you. Also, sprinkle in some laughs.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I need a miracle.

I need a miracle.

Friday is the last day they are paying for us not able to work because of the tornado event.

We have to find alternate place to work from home that is not a hotel.

I am here alone.

The approved states do not include anyone I know.

I can’t afford a ham sandwich right now or funds to move across the street.

Thoughts, God?

Asking for me now,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note:

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Day 5: I’m blessed.

I’m blessed.

I’m here.

My ♥ heart still moves and has it’s meaning.

Im blessed.

Day 5. All the rest is gravy.

The power may be back tomorrow. I am living my now, in the darkness. Life is STILL good, in this present darkness.

Be encouraged, beloveds. Though terrifying, storms DO pass. They do.

I did not feel like writing today. It’s hot. It’s dark. It’s lonely.

I write for those who are I darkness in broad daylight.

I write for those who are lonely in the midst of a crowd.

I write for all who feel unloved and unwanted by a world which chooses things over wonderful human souls.

I write for all who wonder if their dreams shall EVER come true.

I write for those who wonder how can their be such a thing as a God who would tell His Daughter to make chicken strips and fries to eat AFTER the storm instead of turning the storm away.

Ah, beloveds, storms DO come. Doesn’t mean we aren’t loved and won’t be protected. Sadly, it doesn’t mean all shall and do survive.

This I DO know:

I am loved.

I am NOT alone.

Never give up. Even in the darkness.

loving still,


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Ah, beloveds. There is NO quit in us. We got thangs to do! Lift up your head. Look up. Peace, be still. I got you. God has us all. I love you. Love me back. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Day 5: If you were given your life back…

If you were given your life back, beloveds, what would you DO with it?

What would you DO with YOU, NOW?

Know yet not, beloveds, you are handed 24 priceless hours to do with that you please?

Even still, know yet not those full 24 hours have NOT been promised to adorn you all day.

Even then, the world may strike in such a way your very view is forever and literally changed!

What are you doing with your RIGHT NOW, beloveds?

Have you worked on your dreams?

Have you told someone you loved them?

Have you laughed?

Have you climbed onto The Father’s Lap for a hug or a joke?

Have you given your all at work?

Have you laughed with a neighbor?

Have you called and asked forgiveness for the dumb thing you did or said that cost you time with one you love STILL?

Have you discovered your why?

Have you given your asks to The Universe?

If a no comes to mind, what in the fresh hell are you still doing here?!

Life is short. Much shorter than I thought 5 short days ago…😥❤️‍🩹♥️

Get going. Go on now. Life is waiting for YOU.


Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, so you are supposed to be out there chasing your dreams. I love you. As does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I am.

I am.

I am:

More than a writer.

More than what I give.

More than what I know.

And, so, beloveds, are you.

I am.

I am:

Enough.

More than enough.

More than a conqueror.

And, so, beloveds, are you.

I am.

I am:

Me.

Unique.

Uniquely me.

And, so, beloveds, are you.

I am.

I am!

And, so, beloveds, are you.

Ah.

Aha!

🥰

being me,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You are amazing! You are infinitely loved! You are fearfully and wonderfully made(the Bible says). You are incredible! You are!🥰❤️‍🩹♥️

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Day 4: Many purposes. One me.

During this time where I have nothing to do but question why God needs me around, I have been thinking on my purpose.

What is the purpose of this blog?

What is my purpose with my job?

What is my purpose among family and friends?

What of my purpose towards society and my community?

What purpose do I serve as His Daughter and Jesus Bestie?

Ah, beloveds, these are questions that may take the rest or my life answer. I find I want to know.

Ah God, help a sista out!

God : Keep asking.

Me: K.

asking still,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep asking, beloveds!🥰❤️‍🩹♥️🥊

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Day 4: Alone with my thoughts: Dear God why?!😳

Alone.

With MY thoughts??!!

Dear God!

Why?!!!

Don’t You know I have an ENDLESS supply of random dumbness?!!!

Who shall rescue me from ME!?

Geeeeeeez.

Hmmm…

*Cassandra scrounges around in her random dumbness bag and sees all types of goodies she can get into*

thinking randomly dumb things whilst waiting for the lights to come on,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Day who cares…*pout*. Hang in there, beloveds. Make sure to laugh today. No need in pouting over whatever you are pouting and fretting over. Someone have a cup of coffee for me. Asking for a friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

❤️‍🩹😥

❤️‍🩹😥

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: *sigh*. I tried to call a counselor we can access via work…*sigh*. I have to finish setting up account ONLINE before I can make an appointment. Just got notice Hotspot speed being turned down. Can barely view anything while waiting for internet. 😭

I’m NOT okay, beloveds. I have turned into a fine actor as I let fam and friends know ‘It’s not THAT bad’ so they won’t feel too bad for me.

Am listening to Leona Lewis  ‘Footsteps In The Sand and crying. Not sure why the tears. The lights are on but still feels the same as when the lights went off.

God, what do I  DO with ME, now? Asking for a friend.

Br encouraged, beloveds. Keep reaching out if you need a friend or support. Relationships take tending and outreach. Practice with me if need be.

Yesterday, I was watching a 25 year old who did a YouTube video where she shared she was lonely and never had a friend. I hurt for her and all those who are feeling alone and unloved. I love you, beloveds, if that means anything. ❤️‍🩹♥️

Things are NOT hopeless. The way is just hard. That’s okay. We are just making diamonds in our shoes as we walk up Joy Mountain. Keep going.


One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Day 5: God, can I be honest with You?

Me: Can I be honest with You?

God: I wish you would.

Me: I don’t want to hurt Your Feelings or want you to think I am not thankful.

God: What troubles you?

Me: You.

God: Me? Whatever for?

Me: 50 percent of folks have power. I look out my window and see lights on. Yet, here I sit, in the dark. Still. I wonder why I never seem to be in Your 50 percent who has lights, who have families to sit with, who have dreams fulfilled. Why, God, do I ALWAYS seem to be of the 50 percent who has to ‘make the best of it’ while others enjoy light and dreams.🥺

God: Fair question(s). Would it help to ask you to trust Me?

Me: Not really.

God: Trust me.

Me: K. Shall I tell You a ridiculous story, filled with food of course, as we wait for the lights to come on.

God: Yes, please! Make it super silly. May I ask YOU a question, beloved?

Me: Sure.

God: Of the 50 percent with lights on, beloved, how many do you imagine have stopped by for a story, a hug, a quiet conversation with Me?🥺

Me: Ah, God. I sowwy. Perhaps, the lights have ALWAYS been on for me so You are able to trust me in and with the darkness.

God: Ah.

Me: Aha!❤️‍🩹♥️🥰. I love You. No matter where. No matter what. No matter why.

God: K.❤️‍🩹♥️🥰

loved,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life rarely is fair. Yet, it’s worth living. Be encouraged. Your turn SHALL come. In the meantime, tell a story during your darkness. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Day 4: Shut it up, Cassandra!

“Shut it up, Cassandra!”

Yep, beloveds, both God AND me told me to shut it!

I had just started fussing, deservedly so I gallantly told myself. I was hot. I was tired of waiting for the sun to come up. I was tired of waiting for the lights to come on.

I was tired of waiting…

SHUT IT!

WAIT!

PATIENTLY!

I shut it.

I wait.

Patiently.

Geeeeeeez.

🥰🤣😳

If God protects us from the tornado, beloveds, shall He not also ensure we make it AFTER the storm has passed?

He shall. Be encouraged. Until your lights come on:

Rejoice.

Sing.

Laugh.

KNOWING that all IS and ever shall be alright.

encouraged with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I love you. Nuff said.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!