Category: hope

Uprooted: Go anyway.

It’s time to go.

Somewhere.

Somehow.

Some kind of way.

My heart absolutely REFUSES to stay, in THIS spot, for one more second. Nope, she says it’s time to get out of here. She doesn’t know how. Frankly, she could care less.

My heart could care less about my 55 year old whining, complaining, what if it doesn’t work out self. Ha, my heart says. Let’s go.

So, I go.

Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez.

going even though I have NO idea where/what/when/how,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I am excited. I am anxious. I am ready, though. Life is short. I am taking a leap of faith. I am leaping, beloveds. For ME. Pray for me. Leap with me. For YOU. Asking for Your Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Repeat after me: I’m amazing.

Repeat after me:

I’m amazing.

I can do countless things.

I WILL continue to thrive in EVERY element.

I shall NOT give in to callousness, apathy or fear.

I shall TRY. My try SHALL be enough.

I KNOW I am enough. Already. Always.

I’m blessed.

I’m courageous. I keep going no matter how badly I may feel.

I am loving.

I am lovable.

I am altogether lovely.

Let’s go, me!

I got thangs to do!

doing thangs,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, um, so like you have me sooooooooooooooooo fired up, beloveds! What the heckamiah are we still doing here!? Let’s go! We got thangs to do!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Use a bigger cup, Cassandra.

I love, love, love me some coffee!

Yummers!

*hugs self*

So much so, beloveds, I have been scarfing down an inordinate amount.

I have many, many, many oodles of cups and containers to contain such wonderfulment. Ah. Aha!

Here lately, for whatever what in the fresh hell reason(s), I have been CHOOSING to make said wonderfulment in a too small cup. Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeez!

Don’t ask me why. Habit, I guess. One day, I wasn’t feeling my usual tall container and snatched up the smaller cup. That worked, then. It sho nuff ain’t working for me, now. Ack!

Ask me why I have not yet gone back to my larger container and I honestly could not tell you why.

This morning, God tapped me on the shoulder and handed me my larger container. He told me to enlarge my tent AND my container at the same time.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA!

I guess the moral to the story, beloveds, is to keep growing. Don’t allow something needed, back then, to stop you from growing, in your now.

Ah. Am currently enjoying my larger cup. It suits me.

For now.

Who knows. I may need to go back to the smaller one. The point is to do what is needed, now. Don’t let fear or convenience keep you from moving up, moving forward, moving down, moving out and showing out!

Life is short, beloveds. We got thangs to do, ‘member? There is someone waiting for YOUR dream so they can fulfill theirs. Who knows? You may be what I have been waiting 30 plus years for! Let’s go!

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, all that coffee talk has me thirsty. Who is bringing snacks? I think you know who needs to bring us some of her Texas BBQ! Take care all. You are much too priceless and precious to walk around discouraged and defeated. Let’s goooooooooooooooooooooooo!!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Real talk: What do you do when ‘it is what it is’ really is?!😳

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❤️‍🩹

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The state of my heart this week. Feels like living in a nightmare with no end date.

I told hard, this morning, GEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZZZZZ! What in the FRESH HELL are you DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGG!?

Hard just told me to kick rocks and keep it moving. Told me to get on Life’s case as hard was just doing as directed by The Universe and God approved EVERY hard task/thing/hit/circumstance/situation.

GEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZ, God. What in the heckemiah Jericho is THIS fiasco called my current state of being!?

God just laughed and told me to keep on collecting diamonds, in my shoes, as I trudge my way up Joy Mountain. He told me to take some extra laughs with me, this week.

Ah, God. K.

Sooooooooooooooooooo, I have decided to spread a bit of foolishnessery, er, joy, your way.

It’s hard to pretend things are NOT hard when nothing works. It’s difficult to make lemonade when the lemons have been sooooooooooooooo bitter. It’s tough dancing in the rain when the rain is pelting, the lightning is frightening and EVERY bush/tree looks as if it is a menacing creature ready to pounce and steal the soul.

No one has told us that you can catch a cold whilst dancing in the euphemistic rain folk are forever talking about dancing in when all of holy hell has rained down upon one’s head.

“It is what it is”.

I have said this dumb sentence a bajillion times. I say it still. Still, it seems to have taken on a life of it’s own.

I can’t work until the internet is fixed appropriately.

“It is what it is”.

I don’t have enough to cover things.

“It is what it is”.

I am alone.

“It is what it is”.

I am lonely.

“It is what it is”.

I miss mom.

“It is what it is”.

I miss dad.

“It is what it is”.

I’m trying not to be afraid.

“It is what it is”.

I’m 55 and sole money maker who is NOT making money.

“It is what it is”.

It’s hot.

“It is what it is”.

I’m tired.

“It is what it is”.

I don’t feel like writing.

“It is what it is”.

I don’t feel like getting out of bed to keep doing this hard every damned hard day dammit!!

“It is what it is”.

Ah, God.

Okay.

I give up.

I quit.

I shall STOP whining and get back to being about being about it.

Fresh hell!

Heckamiah Jeremiah Cream Pie-a!

What do you do when ‘it is what it is’ really is?!😳

asking for a friend(me),

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep going, beloveds. Keep going. Things WILL be okay. They will. In the meantime, it’s okay to not be okay until you are okay. I sure hope you are okay. In case no one has told you today: I love you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

You are.

You are.

Making an impact.

You are.

Changing lives.

You are.

Making a difference.

You are.

Changing your circumstances.

You are.

Making waves.

You are.

Changing perceptions.

You are.

Making up for lost time.

You are.

Changing things.

Keep on being…YOU.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: There are days when I look at what I think I have accomplished and think I have accomplished nothing at all.

On those days, like today, God reminds me just to try. I can’t always see the big picture. Neither can you, beloveds. The fact you are giving and doing all you know IS enough. As are you. You are. So am I.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Honest(y).

It’s time.

Time for me to be honest.

With me.

With Him.

With you.

Yesterday, I questioned everything. Everything!

My faith.

My faith in me.

My faith in Him.

My faith in my dreams.

The 🌪 has destroyed what little financial room I had. I can’t move. I can’t breathe. I don’t know HOW to make up all the finances I have lost.

Today, I was honest. I just could NOT do the day. So, I didn’t. I gave myself the day to let my heart do what it needed to do. As for me? I slept. I ate chicken strips. Rinse. Repeat. ALL day. Wonderful.

What shall I DO tomorrow?

I wish I knew.

The only thing I DO know is I am going to be honest.

With me.

With God.

With you.

It sure can be hard to be honest with oneself. It’s super easy to lie to ourselves. I am doing my best not to do so. I owe myself the truth. I owe God the truth. I owe you the truth, beloveds.

I normally don’t look at numbers. The past couple of days I have peeked and saw a view here, two views there. I became discouraged.

Then, I became delighted. I was happy in the knowledge one or two or a few wandered by so I could let them know how very much they are loved and not alone. I tell you the same.

I hear a cup of coffee calling. Who is coming? Don’t forget the snacks!

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be honest with you, beloveds. Be honest. If life is being a bit suckery right now it’s okay to say so. Life is sucking a big lemon for me at the moment. Ah, God. What the world are you doing? Hurry up and…just hurry. Asking for my friends.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Real talk: Trying 😳

I’m trying, beloveds.

Trying to remain joyful.

Trying to remain hopeful.

Trying not to want to kick the entirety of the world to the curb.

I’m angry with God.

I’m angry with me.

I told my twin earlier that ‘who am I’ that the world would CARE?

Sure enough, folk have reached out to me to express their ‘admiration’ for my ask and promptly expressed their helpful intentions to part me from money I don’t have so they can help me with my campaign.

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I’m not angry. Just sad at a world that takes advantage of folk who are hurting.

Be encouraged, beloveds. Keep reaching out. Yes, you shall have to weed out all the scammers who shall reach for your pocket and not your heart.

Still, you shall meet many priceless treasures, such as I have found in you, who will bless you beyond measure.

I made myself make my page so I can teach myself how to reach out for ME. The very fact I have done so is a win. For ME.

I have loved me by asking.

I have chosen me by asking.

I have supported me by asking.

All priceless.

To me.

Keep loving and fighting for YOU, beloveds.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Nuff said. In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Uprooted: Blessed.

My life has been uprooted.

Literally.

I am in limbo.

Literally.

I am at peace.

Truly.

I am blessed.

I’m blessed to be alive.

I’m blessed to have a few friends who love me.

I’m blessed to have some fam members who amazingly puts up with me.

I’m blessed to be loved by God.

I’m blessed to be cherished by The Universe.

I’m blessed to be looked after by Life.

I’m blessed.

No, my bank account is not full.

Still, I’m blessed.

No, I do not have a significant other to hold me through these dark/lonely times.

I’m blessed, still.

No, I have NO idea how/where/when I shall make it.

That said, I’m blessed.

Why?

I am loved.

I am NOT alone.

My life has been uprooted.

Yet, I stand:

On The Word.

Supported by His Hands.

Uplifted by His Love.

My faith, daily tested.

My heart, forever restless.

My joy, ceaselessly abounding.

Why?

I am loved.

I am NOT alone.

Neither are you, beloveds.

No matter your circumstance.

No matter your situation.

Be encouraged, today.

Don’t waste your time worrying about tomorrow. None of us knows what tomorrow may bring.

Live today.

Let all the rest come out in the wash as it will.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Being uprooted is no fun. It’s disconcerting. It’s frightening. It’s discouraging. It’s discomfiting. It’s all the awful ‘ings one can think of. Still, there is an immense amount of joy to be found in the very heart of the disaster, no pun intended.

You shall find sooooooooooooooooo many things whilst combing through the remainder. And, what remains is what has ever remained before: You. Him. All else SHALL be added, in time.

Be at peace. Even as you heal. Even as you wait. Even as you wonder. Even as you wander. You got this. God has us all. How do I know? For the bible tells me so…lol

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Egads, I don’t know how.

Egads!

Yikes!

Geezzz!

I have stumbled on a frustratingly frustrating truth…

I don’t know how!

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I don’t know HOW to:

Rest. For me.

Dream. For me.

Hope. For me.

Not really.

I’m used to ALWAYS going.

For others.

Never for me.

I’ve never been given a turn. Always told to do for others. Work for others. Try for others.

I’m not complaining. I love doing for others. Yet, God has told me to rest. God has asked me what I desire for ME. God wonders what I hope for. For me.

I am trying. To rest. I can’t seem to find it. There seems to be so much to DO. Ack!

How do we get off this hamster wheel, beloveds? How do we stop chasing all the things we have been told to chase all of our lives?

Someone let me know.

I am tired.

asking for a friend(me),

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: If some pieces seem unfinished….*shrug*. I am unfinished. My heart is straining to say things I don’t yet understand. I am too busy wondering where in the fresh hell all this hard has come from and dammit when in the hell is it moving outta here already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don’t know HOW and am driving myself up ten walls. God, please show me how. Please. Asking for a friend(me).

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Real talk: I’m trying to be.

I’m trying to be.

The friend I need.

I’m trying to be.

The support I desire.

I’m trying to be.

The hope I require.

I’m trying to be.

The joy I seek.

I’m trying to be.

The love I long for.

I’m trying to be.

The help I have asked for.

I’m trying to be.

The care I need.

I’m trying to be.

The laughter I strain to hear.

I’m trying to be.

The passion I wish to hold near.

I’m trying to be.

The heart I hope to cherish forever.

I’m trying to be.

All I hope to have shown towards me.

Until then…

being me,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: When I was finally ready to ask The Universe to help me to fulfill my dreams, The Universe asked me to look at, look out, for champion the needs of, exhort, cheer for, root for, give to and pray for others.

I wondered why. I asked God why this ask. God told me to ask Life. I asked Life how this would help me to fulfill MY ask, MY dreams, MY goals.

They all asked me to trust. Then to do.

I have. I did. To my surprise/joy/humor, I found doing those things were my dreams, my heart’s desire, my true ask.

Whodathunkit?

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!