I knew enough to keep my mouth shut. I stood down for the day to let my mind quiet.
I don’t want to quit, so much as I want the hard to stop being so blessed hard! Enough already.
I’m fixing to fill my soul with some uplifting music. Then, I am going to watch some motivational 📹 videos and grab a bite to eat.
It’s important to DO something when helpless victim mode comes calling. We are NOT helpless. Things are NOT hopeless.
Be encouraged, beloveds. Even when you are feeling a bit less than hopeful. Especially then.
Change takes time. Accepting change takes time. Understanding that change takes time takes time….lol
Don’t look back. Don’t lose hope. Don’t allow God’s Silence to have you questioning everything.
God’s Silence is actually a sign you can be trusted within it. It means you are being treated like a mindful adult and not a child forever having to be spoonfed.
Keep going. Even when it’s the very last thing you feel like doing. Your dreams will thank you for it.
asking for A Friend, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: You can do it. You can. Don’t you dare give up on you now. You give your all to everyone but you. You owe it to you to do so.
Note: There is much more to you than you give yourself credit for. Open your heart and let your greatness out for all to see and experience.
I am looking forward to what I can do to be of service. I have been enjoying the learning process. I am learning how to rest. I am learning how to reach out for support. I am learning how to own my mistakes. I am learning how to laugh at myself. I am learning….
Did you know that you lose folk, in less than ten seconds, if you are not:
Interesting enough.
Funny enough.
Engaging enough.
Witty enough.
Self aware enough.
According to YouTube’s Algorithm. Apparently, also, to the world’s Algorithm!
Seemingly, sadly, folk are in a race to find other folk who will:
Entertain them.
Distract them.
Move them.
Fill them.
Feed them.
Support them.
Win them.
Dance for them.
Hurry up!
Be quick about it!
Make me laugh!
Make me feel better!
Entertain me!
More!
Louder!
Quieter!
In this mode, we find ourselves performing. Unwittingly. Automatically. Robotically.
After a time, we forget why we are jumping through everyone’s loops. We just jump now.
Higher.
Higher.
Jump higher!
Jump faster!
Smile, when you jump!
Show some gratitude while you are at it!
Exhausted, unremembering, remarkably we grow tired.
Yet, we jump.
And, jump.
And, jump.
Until, we grow tired.
Then, we continue to jump OUTWARDLY. But, INSIDE, we cease. Inwardly, seething. Outwardly, jumping, smiling, showing gratitude.
Why?
For love crumbs, of course.
For a smidge of validation, of course.
In the hopes of a tiny amount of recognition, of course.
How exhausting.
How sad.
How frustrating.
HOW, on earth, can we put each other through the immense pressure of being all things, at ALL times, or else?!
WHY, do WE have to be the one that gives EVERYTHING?
Why, must WE be the one to GIVE everything?
When will it be OUR turn to receive love, acceptance and support?
Why, do I have to forget about me, in order to serve you constantly, consistently, creatively?
This dance is meant to be one of collaboration. I, for you. You, for me. Together.
I can’t solve all your needs. Heckamiah, I can barely meet my own half the time!
So, I find myself staring at the YouTube Algorithm. I need to be ME. I need to speak, with integrity.
I have much to say. I need to have time to say it!
I stare at the world. I have much to say. I need to have time to say it.
Ah, God. Help us to see one another, in ten seconds or less.
It has been really disheartening to see how many people are choosing to be dishonest, deceitful, or hurtful just to make a dollar on Tik Tok, on YouTube, and in other places and spaces.
People are purposely lying about their lives and situations to garner clout and click bait. How sad.
Don’t be ashamed to be you beloved. Be who you are. Accept who you are. Love who you are.
If you are doing things that do not serve you or your fellow man, work on correcting those things. If you’re doing the best you can, keep doing the best you can.
Don’t sell out your integrity. You are worth so much more than that. You are priceless. You are amazing. You are incredibly special. There are so many who would be honored to know you. There are those who would be glad to love you just as you are.
Allow the world a chance to know the real you.
Stop jumping through hoops. Stop making people jump through your hoops. It’s time we all learn how to love one another. It’s time we give each other time to grow and expand, without the fear of being kicked to the curb.
I’m doing the best that I can to be the kind of friend I wish I had in my life right now. I’m trying my best to be a good neighbor. I’m doing the best I can to be a good corporate citizen. I’m trying my utmost to be a good global neighbor. That’s all I can do.
My heart rolls out to every aching soul who feels left out in a long right now. There are so many people who are discouraged because they feel they will never be loved. So they hide amongst things. Chasing money, chasing relationships. All in the hope of trying to be loved.
It has taken me more than 50 years to learn to love and accept all of me. I love me now. All of me. I love my dumbness. I love my foolishness. I love my seriousness. I love my broke self. I love my discouraged self. I love my frustrated self.
I know this piece has been a little bit longer than usual. My heart is just heavy. I wish I could love everyone to wholeness. I can’t. God can. I will be praying for us all today.
Be encouraged. I love you.
loving you, Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I am incredibly sad that it took 50 years for me to learn how to love and accept me. I am broken hearted that there are so many who have yet to accept and love themselves. Life is short.
The only way to begin a journey of self love is to sit down and to be honest with yourself. Why don’t you accept you? Why don’t you love you? Why won’t you let others love you? Why won’t you let God love you? The answer is may surprise you.
Lift up your head. Don’t be ashamed of your answer. Your heart shall be healed. You shall be loved. Be encouraged.
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