Category: Inspiration

I have never felt more.

I have never felt more…

Alive.

I have never felt…

Alone.

I have never felt more…

???

I have never felt…

Felt?

Felt?!

I am:

Alive.

Alone.

At home.

Ah.

Aha!

Keep living, beloveds. Don’t be afraid to be alone with you. So many hide beneath distraction. In hopes of hiding from themselves.

Life is short. I’m doing my best to live in the moment.

I give myself permission to feel, to dream, to live…

For me!

feeling more,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Don’t fall for the okie doke in believing you have to come last. You don’t. Your needs matter. Yes, keep doing for others. Just don’t leave you out of the equation. You matter.

Time to focus on you.

It’s time, beloveds.

Time we focus on us.

Time for us to focus on our dreams.

We have done enough fretting about what we don’t have. We have done quite enough worrying on why the hard has been so hard.

Time for us to refocus. It’s our time. Time to do the things we have been putting off. Time to start some new and positive habits. Time to plant. Time to reap our harvest(s).

It’s Fri-yay. The work has been done, for the week. Time to focus on refilling our hearts and minds.

We have done enough, don’t you think, of carrying on about all the hard? Let’s enjoy us some us.

Speaking of which, I have some fantastic double chocolate pound cake. Who has the coffee/tea and other snacks?

focusing on me,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I have been enjoying myself. I have turned off the phone and spent hours hollering at the television. Awesome. Be sure to get some you time in there, beloveds. You are NOT the savior of the world. Speaking of which, Jesus said to say ‘hey’…lol. I have been praying for each and every one of my fellow loud ones.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Add some ‘So What’ to your diet(day).

I have been out of sorts, this year. ALL year, so far. Abnormally so.

Sooooooooooooooooo, I got to scrounging around, within my heart, to find the source of my anxt, my ain’ts, my wherefores, my whys, and my whynots.

Hmmm.

Aha!

It appears I have had too much of contemplating and dwelling on the hard. Normally, I tell hard, ha!, and move on about my day.

I tell hard, ‘So what!?”, and I dare to keep it moving.

For the past few weeks, beloveds, all I have allowed myself to see was the hard. I started missing, the joy. I started dismissing, my try. I started, discounting, well, everything.

Everything was just hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaarrrrrrrd, I carried on. I stopped climbing onto The Father’s Lap. I began hiding. From, Him. From, Me. Afraid. Afraid, He would be disappointed with me. Disappointed IN me.

Then, I decided I was going to sit with Him, anyway. Afraid. A disappointment. Slowly, I admitted to God, to myself, I was feeling so much I didn’t know what to feel. Or, not.

I shared how afraid I felt. I shared how afraid that I was afraid that He would be annoyed with me being and feeling so damned afraid about everything, right now. I told Him I was disappointed. With me. I felt I should ‘know better’. That, I should ‘be better’.

I’m glad God understood. He sat with me. He let me be…me. I didn’t have to perform. I didn’t have to put on a happy face. I wasn’t happy. I was:

Sad.

Mad?

Disappointed?

Afterwards, I got my ‘So what’ back.

Life was being hard.

So what?

Things were not fair.

So what?

I was a bit lonely.

So what?

So what: What are you going to DO, Cassandra?

Me: I am going to live. As best as I can.

Today, I am tired. So what? I have things to do. I am dragging my tired with me. I am making my tired do the dishes…lol.

When you are discouraged/tired/frustrated and the like, be sure to add some ‘So what’ to your diet(day).

Take care of you. You are the only you that you have.

Be encouraged and know that you are loved and not alone. I never tire of saying this to you. You are. Take care of you. You are much too precious to keep running yourself into the ground the way you do.

grateful,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Someone needs to hear from you. Someone needs to be loved by you. You need to be loved by someone(s). If you don’t have them, start with me…hehe…

My Daily Prompt.

I’m new at this blogging thing.

Yes, I know, beloveds, I have been blogging for a few years, now. Still, I know little. I know nothing, really.

My heart does not care. Nope. Nary, a whit. Blog, she says. Write, she entreats. Share, she whispers.

I blog.

I write.

I share.

I tag.

I categorize.

Mind you, beloveds, I have NO idea what happens by selecting tags/categories. I just know that in doing so, a newbie or two or three happens to happen by the blog.

One day, don’t ask me why, I selected ‘Daily Prompt’. I had noticed it in some other blogs I enjoy. Zero idea what it meant but slapped on my page. Then, I saw an uncategorized option. I used to never hit that. Yet, I did, one day. To my astonishment, a few trickled in.

So, now, I slap this. I try, that. I have no idea what is successful. Still, I try. In times past, I used to only want to try things I was good at. Ha!

It was only after being put into terribly hard/new challenges, at work, that I found I was still enough. Mistakes, and all. Dumb feeling, and all. Little to no progress, and all.

Through it all, I found, well, ME. I found my try WAS enough. I found, beloveds, I was enough. God, had been telling me this, for years. The Universe, had been telling me this, for years. Life, had been telling me this, for years.

I had been afraid to listen. I had been afraid, to look up. Afraid I would see:

Disappointment.

Disapproval.

Dismissal.

One day, I had failed. And, failed. And, failed. So much so I cried. And, cried. And, cried. I felt like such a FAILURE!. Until, I heard:

God: Look up. Look at Me.

Me: I’m afraid, God. What if, You are disappointed with me. IN me? My heart, could not bear that.

The Universe: Look up. Look at Me.

Me: I’m afraid, Universe. What if, You disapprove of ME? My spirit, could not stand that.

Life: Look up. Look at Me.

Me: I’m afraid, Life. What if, You dismiss me? My efforts?

LOOK UP!

One day, I found the courage to look up. Gazing back at me was…

Love.

Love?

LOVE!

Yes, God loved me. Always. No matter what. I was much more than my try. I was much more than what I did. I was much more than what I gave.

Now, I spend as many days as I can, letting folks know they are enough. I had a true friend, years ago, who kept telling me I was enough. I didn’t believe her. Not at first. I HAD to give. I HAD to do. I HAD to serve. To be loved. To be cherished. To be seen. To be heard.

Yes, I loved doing all those things because I was born to serve, to give, to love. I love doing those things. Still, my heart was trapped in the prison of ‘paying rent’ as I call it. Paying rent, to the universe so I could, perhaps, swallow a bit of air and receive a few scraps of life. Smh.

Now, I know. Now, I see. Now, I do. The best I can. It’s all that I can do.

My Daily Prompt:

Try.

Live.

Love.

Say.

Life is short. Keep on living and doing even when you don’t know what the fresh hell you are doing. You don’t have to know exactly where you are going. Not, now. Just keep going. As best you can.

Keep on doing your own daily prompt(s). Get in your me time. You are important. Your dreams are important. They are.

Be encouraged, beloveds.

Remember:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

being about being about it,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is short. Enjoy your life. Embrace what happens therein. I am enjoying with you. Lemme know how you are.

Comfort: Uh, oh! Lays have returned.

Yikes!

Egads!

I have found that Lay’s have somehow made their way back onto my shopping list. Crap!

I KNEW beloveds I should have told Doritoes to kick rocks. But, I told myself I would stop at JUST Doritoes. Crappppppp, Ccccaaasssaannndra!

Now, I have to fight with bad habits. Again! Crap!!!

I promised myself I would no longer allow hard, pain and grief to give myself permission to hide in food and other things that do not serve me well. Crap!!

I have learned, though, not to best myself up when I have found myself wanting to hide in old habits.

Be encouraged. Change takes time. Life hurts at times. At times, it seems easier to give in to the distractions, to the seeming comfort of food or in the arms of folks who do not serve us well.

We can do this thing called life. Let’s all say a collective ‘ow, God’ and keep it moving…

Ow!!!

Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez!

Life is good. Even when it is lonesome and hard.

hopeful/joyful/abitsad,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: My heart is ready for Spring! Let’s go, Universe! We got things to do!

Be encouraged. Try. One step. Just one. Then, Try another. You got it! I see you!

You are loved and not alone.

YOU matter.

YOU matter.

You MATTER.

YOU MATTER!

When did it happen where everything seems to matter, but people?

Things matter.

Clout matters.

Cache matters.

People? Meh, not so much, the world says. The world lies!

Be encouraged, beloveds.

YOU matter. In case no one has told you:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Letting someone KNOW they are loved and worthwhile ought never go out of style.

Love someone. Starting with you. Words are important. Speak into someone’s heart today. Starting with mine.🥰❤️‍🩹

I was telling a friend that the keeping on has been especially hard lately. Not exactly sure why.

Normally, I can tell my act right to act right. Lately, all act right wants to do is cry for her mom. I don’t wish to be a big girl. I wish…

Ah, God, I wish…

Mom, do I matter, to someone?

Ow, God, I wish…

Universe, do I matter, to someone?

Oh, God, I wish…

Life, do I matter, to someone?

asking for a friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I have one more shift to work then off for three days. I am in no hurry. Silence will greet me. Generally, I enjoy being alone. Today, alone has said she wishes we didn’t have to be alone, today…

Be encouraged. Don’t be afraid to allow your lonely to speak. Or your sad. Or your whatever you are feeling. Feelings are important. Feeling your feels, is important. Acknowledgment of your feelings is important. Just can’t allow your feels to run the show. Dumbness tends to go ride or die with our feels.🤷‍♀️🤦‍♀️💯😂❤️

Real talk: If folk threaten to walk away, wish them well and let them.

Ah, beloveds. Life has been cutting up, today. ALL day.

I have been fighting, all day, with:

Missing mom.

Missing mom.

Missing mom.

Which, makes the day(s) especially tough to get through. I HATE days like today. Not the day, itself. Just the fight from having to keep on fighting. Just the stress from doing my best not to stress. Just the frustration from not allowing myself to remain frustrated due to happenings and happenstance.

I have been thinking about Justin. ALL day. Wondering if he is hanging in there. Hang in there, Justin!

I have been thinking about Britta and her lichen. I HAVE to get to her blog, tomorrow, and catch up.

I have been thinking about Silent Knight. ALL day. Wondering what he has been wondering about as not able to get to his blog in the past week. Ack!

I turned off my phone, beloveds, this past Saturday. Even, my writing phone. Yeppers. I told myself that I HAD to decompress. I have been running on empty, for weeks. For months.

I told my friends/fam I was going to go MIA. They said they understood. Ha! Soon as I made my declaration, my phone blew up with texts and calls that HAD to be taken.

Yet, for the first time, ever(!), I listened to my heart and told myself to turn off the phone. To rest. And, to not feel guilty/bad because I NEEDED a break. A friend texted and said they ‘had’ to talk to me. Right then. Immediately. I had nothing. So, I said nothing.

Today, I was confronted with my meanness in having chosen me. I was advised that this person could ‘leave just as well as they stayed’. Simply because I was not available in the instant required.

I replied:

“I wish you well. I shall keep you in prayer. You shall NOT hold our friendship hostage. You may have it”.

Care is a two way street, beloveds. STOP giving your care away to folks who place conditions upon your love and your heart. Wish them well and keep it moving. LET them go. You are:

Amazing.

Awesome.

Amazingly awesome.

There will be plenty who will love you. In the meantime, keep on loving this hard headed world. Folk need what you have. Be encouraged.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

caring anywho,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Your life is precious. You matter. Please KNOW this. You matter. Be encouraged. I love me some you.

Be your own influencer.

Okay, beloveds, permit me to go on a mini rant. Just a teensy weensy one.

In surfing YouTube I have come across soooooooooooooooooooo many pages of folks who need to be ‘influenced’ into what to think, buy or do. And, apparently, one MUST be associated with just THE right type of folk else…*shrug*.

Beats me, apparently, us regular folk are too regular and the only purpose we serve is to serve the ‘privileged’ influencers who are our guide to a ‘successful’ life of hoarding every gadget known to man in order to ‘be happy’.

SMH.

Okay, mini rant is over. I find it terribly sad folks think they are not enough. Just makes me want to kick something.

Beloveds, you ARE enough. Just YOU. You don’t need to fill your place with gadgets you can’t afford, will never use, and will wonder what the world the matter with you for buying such, to have value.

Value is NOT in things. Yes, enjoying your space is nice. That said, the roof over your head does NOT increase or diminish YOUR worth and value.

There are times, like today, where I am not feeling the greatest. Bills keep chasing me. Health issues keep laughing at me. Life keeps passing out fresh what on earth is all this?!

During those times, I would dearly love to be able to hide out on a beach somewhere and have someone feed me grapes and pay all my bills. Okay, I would get bored after a while but wouldn’t mind a good day or so of pampering.

After that, I want to be making my own way, in the world. I want to shake all these young folks and let them know to STOP trying to build a life of dependence on others to pay bills and ‘make them happy’.

I know. I know, young peeps, that old folks do the same. I want to kick them also. Just a smidge.

I love the internet. I love learning about folk from all over the world. That said, I wish I could tell the internet to take two seats, at times. And, to tell it to STOP lying to folk, on the daily!

Life is more than TikTok and Instagram and thisachat and thatachat! Whew. Whew!

I’m done. I think. I’m just doing my bestest to influence folks to think, for themselves. To dream. For themselves. To hope. For themselves. To live. For themselves!

Be your own influencer. What do YOU enjoy doing? Life is short. Do those things that will serve you and enhance your life. What that is, for you, is…*shrug*…up to YOU to decide.

Don’t get down on yourself because folk are not into what you are into. So what? Because someone you have never met, does not care for the things you do…*shrug*. So?

More and more I am hearing folk are ‘miserable’ and feel like a ‘failure’ because things have not happened in two to three years. Things take time.

In the meantime, beloveds, give yourself a break. If you are doing the best you know, good on you. Don’t be ashamed of your current circumstances. Life is good. Even when it gets tough.

Uh, oh! I hear a cup of coffee calling me. Join me, if you like. Bring some snacks.

yammering about not much,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: It’s Friday. I was up ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL night binge watching Suits. What a fabulous show! Forgive my rambly piece today. I promised myself I would NOT stay up all night. Buuuuuuuuuuuut, Haarrrrvvveeey is sooooooooooooooo cute…lol.

Be encouraged. Keep on being you. Keep on doing you. We shall have an amazing weekend. How do I know? Because we CHOOSE…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

No vacation from pursuing your dreams.

I took a mini vacation.

From work.

So, I could spend some time working on my dreams. I promised myself I would write every day. For the most part, I have kept that promise. In fact, I can’t remember when the last day ended when I had not completed a bit of writing. Something.

I’m trying.

Something.

The other day, I thought of keeping my meanderings to myself. I asked myself who the world is entertained by my particular brand of meness. Then, I shrugged and wrote…lol.

Keep on pursuing your dreams, beloveds. The pursuit IS the point. The destination, the prize, the dream, is becoming more and more irrelevant to me. I have been enjoying unearthing all my want to, all my try, all my effort, all my fears, all my doubts, all my care.

Speaking of vacation, I hear a piece of double chocolate pound cake calling. Take a vacay, from work, and get to working on your dreams. Before that, come have a slice of pound cake before I eat it all.

working on my dreams,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Ask me after I finish my cake….

Heart ♥ check Friday.

What a delicious week!

I have taken the last five days just for ME.

I:

Turned off the phone.

Gave ALL my cares to God.

Delighted myself with whatever I decided was delightful. Turns out all I really needed and wanted was a few days filled with quiet and plenty of coffee and chicken strips.

Now, it’s Friday. One more work day to go then a weekend of rinse and repeat.

For the first time in a very long time, I let it be okay that I rested from telling the world that it’s okay to rest…lol.

It’s okay, NOT to have to do it all, all at once. It only took 50 years to discover this amazing fact.🥰😁

Take care of yourselves, beloveds. There is no one else like you! Let someone know they are loved. Starting with you.

How’s your ♥ heart? Asking for A Friend.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: This is your time. Make the most of it…