Category: Poetry

♥ Heart check Friday.

Hey there.

It’s Doctor C. Conducting my heart check. How are you? YOU?

If you don’t know, you are much too busy.

I hope you take care of yourself today.

This has been a long week. Training is almost over.

Speaking of over, the weekend is here. It’s time to let the worries of the week go.

The team I was rooting for lost. It was their loss. In times past, I would have been upset all day because they lost. I would have seen their loss as mine. Now it’s their loss.

Too often, folk allow themselves to align with a particular group and there. I didn’t even become that of the group. Their life is no longer their own. Now, their thoughts must align with that of the group. Otherwise, they feel ostracized.

Keeping you. You don’t need to align with any particular group. Find your own path. Your path may lead you to others. Your pass may leave me alone. Either way, walk your path.

Have an awesome day.

too tired to come up with an inspirational note to remind folk they are loved and NOT alone,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, so didn’t you catch my clever note up above? Smh. Since you are here, take this…

♥️☕️🤓

The quiet is not so quiet.

The quiet is not so quiet.

Is the quiet mocks me.

The quiet asks me where is my symphony.

I don’t know, I reply.

The quiet asked me where is my song.

I know not, I say.

The quiet asks me what will I do with the silence.

I shall rejoice.

I shall sing.

Here.

Now.

In the silence.

I shall listen to all that the quiet shall say to me.

Be still.

Listen.

The quiet is not so quiet.

listening,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Don’t be afraid when life gets quiet. This is when life speaks the loudest. Speak. We are listening…

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Last night, I cried. Today, I rejoice.

Last night, I cried.

I was missing mom.

I drank coffee.

I talked to mom.

Life told me to get on with life.

I told mom I had to go, and I got on with life.

Today, I rejoice.

Today, I drink coffee with mom.

Ah.

Aha!

rejoicing,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Enjoy your life. Loss comes for all in many forms. Don’t let change change who you are or change your direction and dreams.

Live. Embrace life. You don’t need greener grass. Lie upon your own spot. Enjoy it. It’s the spot Eternity set out for you to enjoy.

Huh?

Seems like Life has things to say to me over a cup of coffee ☕. I think I will invite mom for another cup. Care to join me?

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Keep trying Tissue paper wars.

OMG!

I need you!

I NEED you!!

What the what the what!!!!

Wwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaa!

*stamps foot*

O

M

G

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*Cassandra considers tossing the offending not wanting to open itself so she can roll off some tissues and thought against it. She DID NEED IT ALREADY!!! WHY IN THE NAME OF ALL THAT IS…OMG!!*

*Cassandra patiently slides her delicately fingers around THE STUPID TOILET PAPER FOR THE 100000000000 TIME IN HOPES TO GET A FEW MEASILY SQUARES OF TOILET PAPER!!!!!!*

What a way to start the morning, eh, beloveds? Not to mention I LEFT MY PHONE ON THE KITCHEN COUNTER AND WAS TOO TIRED TO GO BACK AND GET IT!

Hhmm.

*Cassandra, listening to the apparent hints from The Universe, and goes back to 🛏bed.*

Have an awesome Thanksgiving, beloveds.

For those missing loved ones, be encouraged. Love on you today. Enjoy your day.

For those who wish they had loved ones, what the world you still sitting on the sidelines? Join a group. Make your own group. Pray. Reach out. Be the friend you are looking for.

For those who have loved ones who are working their last nerves…hhmm. I got nothing. Do the best you can. Whew.🥰😆

For all:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU

Ah, God. Why NOW?

Ah, God.

Why NOW?

Did this hard HAVE to get extra hard, just NOW?

Ow, God!

Thus hard really hurts. Especially NOW.

Oh, God.

You promised not to give more than we can bear. I trust You. Me? Not so much with this much hard.

I want to:

Run.

Hide.

Rage.

What good would that do?

So I:

Stand here.

Mute.

Screaming inwardly.

Praying outwardly.

Ah, God. Why NOW?

asking for a friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep pushing through the hard. You will get through. You are NOT alone. You are loved. Be encouraged.

I can not tell you how hard life has been to me. So what? I have thangs to do. As do you. I no longer allow myself to wallow. I don’t know how many more moments I have. Neither do you. Live. Love someone. Starting with you.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU.

Shut it: The Universe told me to shut up(it).

The Universe: Shut it! Close your mouth. Open your heart.

Me: Ow. Ew. Okay.

Geeeez!

So, I had been praying, er, complaining, about how woe is me and why is my life acting this way and…

*sound of needle being scratched across record can be heard*

Yeppers, beloveds, The Universe snatched me up quick, fast and in a hurry. Reminded me that I had to CHOOSE to wade past all my blessings, to get to the things I did not have.

I had to move my joy, to the side, to focus on the no, I thought I heard.

I had to kick to the curb, all the images of past victories, I had experienced, in order to look upon the apparent victories that would never be.

In short, I was choosing to look at my nots, my not nows, and forget about all the yes and amens I have experienced, up to now.

Life won’t always tell you yes. So what?

God won’t always tell you yes. So what?

The Universe won’t always tell you yes. So what?

You were ecstatic, weren’t you, when you received your yes?

High time we all learn to except the no, just as graciously.

I told The Universe geeeeeeeeeez then got back to living, hoping, trying and enjoying my life, right NOW, not in some nether world of maybe or how come.

When your feels get you all up in your feelings, shut it. When your try wants to cut up and sit down, shut it. When your fears want to get all up in your business and scare the behooey out of you, shut it.

Shut the door on:

Complaining.

Fear.

Hopelessness.

Anger.

Impatience.

And all the things you may have been allowing to tell your joy to shut it.

Shut the door on disbelief. Shut it out. Tell it to kick rocks. Life is short and you got thangs to do.

telling doubt to shut it up,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, so, um, why you still here? Get on out there and love someone. Someone needs the awesome life called you. Don’t forget how amazingly fabulous your heart and life is. For those who don’t think so…what the world is the matter with THEM?

Don’t be afraid of your lonely.

I have been lonely lately. I don’t know why. Normally I enjoy being alone.

I am learning to sit with my lonely and talk to her. I ask her why she is lonely. I asked her what she would like to do with her life. I ask her what she needs from me.

She sighs.

She looks at me in a longing way.

I don’t know what she longs for.

I don’t know what my heart is longing for right now.

I used to be afraid of feeling such as this. I turned the noise up loud so as not to hear feelings like this.

Now I sit.

Now I listen.

Lonely has been awfully loud lately.

I think I shall take lonely and go sit with The Universe. I shall ask The Universe to speak with lonely.

It would be easy if I could work my way out of lonely. I have tried. It hasn’t work. Lonely obviously has something it wishes to say to me. I shall listen.

listening to my lonely,

Cassandra,

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Listen to your lonely. Don’t fill the space with distraction or other people. Sometimes, your heart needs to speak to and be with just you. Many are terrified of themselves. Don’t be, beloveds.

Don’t be ashamed of who you are. Don’t be ashamed of where you are. If you have been or done some not so nice things, forgive yourself. Make things right, if you can. Ask forgiveness then begin again. Stop shaming yourself for things you were ashamed of doing.

God loves you when you are loving. God loves you when you have been not so much. He loved you. Period. Let yourself out of the jail you have placed yourself in. You hurt. So, you hurt someone else. Unfortunate.

Be encouraged. We are NOT our mistakes. We are NOT our pain. You do yourself a disservice when you lock away your heart. Let folk in. Begin again. Okay? Asking for A Friend.

Remember:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

You are not alone.

You are not alone.

Someone is.

Love them.

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Someone needs to hear they are not alone. Maybe that someone was you, today. Love somebody. Be encouraged. I have been telling folks to be encouraged for more than thirty years. A long time. I have to tell myself that often. Fighting for dreams can be discouraging. This has been an awfully discouraging year and a lonely one for me for some reason.

We only get this one life. I don’t think folk understand this. If so, they probably wouldn’t be acting the way that they are. I am so earnest when I write because I hope to catch a few before it’s too late and they run out of time. Ah…

Don’t argue with tired.

Don’t argue what tired. Tired will have you thinking life is just too much. Tired will have you thinking that’s okay to quit. Tired will have you believing you won’t win.

Tired wanted to stay in bed. Tired gave me a million reasons why I should stay in bed. I told tired to shut up and go make us some coffee.

Don’t argue with tired. Make tired stay in the fight. Make tired keep trying. Make tired work for you.

Don’t argue with tired. We got things to do.

dragging tired into the shower,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Lazy and tired are pouting. That refused to let them stay in bed. They are currently doing the laundry.

Don’t let your lazy entire let you take the easy way out. Keep going. You can. You will. Remember, there’s only one you. You are priceless. You are precious. You are needed. You are loved. Keep taking things one step at a time.

Improve.

Improve.

Your try.

Improve.

Your mind.

Improve.

Your work.

Improve.

Your care.

How?

Try.

Think.

Work.

Care.

Seems like folk are looking to and waiting for others to tell them how to think/feel/do. Make your own decisions. Think for yourself.

You will make mistakes? So what? That’s what happens when you make decisions. You will also succeed. In any event, fail from the choices you make and not from the choices of others.

Last weekend training I had a partner. This coming week, I will flop on my own. It’s part of the training. It’s part of the growing. It’s part of life. I will try. I will improve. How about you?

improving,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Improve.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU