Tag: encouragement

Uprooted: Go anyway.

It’s time to go.

Somewhere.

Somehow.

Some kind of way.

My heart absolutely REFUSES to stay, in THIS spot, for one more second. Nope, she says it’s time to get out of here. She doesn’t know how. Frankly, she could care less.

My heart could care less about my 55 year old whining, complaining, what if it doesn’t work out self. Ha, my heart says. Let’s go.

So, I go.

Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez.

going even though I have NO idea where/what/when/how,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I am excited. I am anxious. I am ready, though. Life is short. I am taking a leap of faith. I am leaping, beloveds. For ME. Pray for me. Leap with me. For YOU. Asking for Your Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Uprooted: Fighting with(those)feelings again.

My feels are loud, right now.

My feels want to spill into/onto everything, right now.

My feels want me to feel everything in high definition, right now.

My feels want me to give up, right now.

My feels want me to run away somewhere and hide, right now.

My feels want to run amok and be as loud as they please without giving two damns about anyone hearing, right now.

My feels want to rage at The Universe for getting me in this uprooted mess, right now.

My feels want to just FFFFFEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLL DAMMIT, right now.

Right now, however, I have told my feels to sit down and to breathe, for now.

Breathe.

Rest.

Reflect.

Rinse.

Repeat.

Being uprooted can be terrifying. Being uprooted HAS been terrifying. Yet, I have found great comfort as I have continued to reach out and show my broken/tender/wounded heart.

I have been loved.

I have found that I am NOT alone.

Ah, God. Thanks for remaining silent so my voice can rise within me.

Be encouraged, beloveds. Continue to reach out for support and love. Continue to be good to yourself as you find your footing, once again.

I am shaken, still.

Still, my hope remains steady.

I have NO idea what the rest of this day shall bring. I shall greet whatever comes with hope in my heart. Still.

I fought the night, all night. The night won. Night kept dawn in it’s clutches much longer than it should have. Finally, Day wrenched itself from Night and Reality’s cold grips and gave itself to me.

Day: Make something of me, beloved. Life is too short to waste.

Me: K.

I am doing my bestest, beloveds, to make something of THIS day. I am not looking beyond this cup of coffee. Speaking of which, come have a cup with me. Someone bring some Herbal tea for Craig. He says no milk please/thanks.

asking for a friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Hang in there, beloveds. Don’t let your struggles lie to you. You WILL be okay. As will I. I refuse to allow fear to enter ANY equation for me, right now. I have been fighting with NOT being anxious since the tornado.

Fear not, beloveds. Remain hopeful. The best is yet to come. It just doesn’t FEEL like it. Do NOT allow your feels to run your right now. Acknowledge them. Listen to them. Feel them. Deal with them. Then, send them on their way and continue walking underneath your umbrella of love, hope and joy. I go with you. In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He. Be encouraged…

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Repeat after me.

Repeat after me:

I got this.

Now, go do this, beloveds!

You CAN.

You WILL!

doing it with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Let THIS be the day you choose action over fear. You got this. Go do it. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Real talk: Go to sleep on it.🤬

I was mad.

Reeeeeeeaaaaaaaalllly mad.

Life made me a 🍋 meringue 🥧 and promptly smashed it in my face!

😳🤬😳🤬

I was mad.

Mad enough to do something incredibly short sighted.

Mad enough to do a permanent thing to cover a temporary happening. Yes, this happening was unfair. Yes, this temporary happening was NOT just.

Yet, it happened. What’s more, beloveds, God, Life  AND The Universe all waited, to see what I would DO.

I fussed a bit.

I fumed a lot.

I made ridiculous proclamations and protestations for a time.

Then, I stood on my FAITH.

Then, I rested on His Strength.

Then, I laughed with The Universe.

Then, I told life ha!

Then, I went to sleep.

Peacefully.

Joyfully.

Hopefully.

I worried NOT about tomorrow. I plan on having a FANTASTIC tomorrow.

Why?

I can do nothing about today’s happening. It happened. So what? I got thangs to do.

doing thangs,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Don’t let what happens to you make you into something you are not. It’s NOT what happens TO you but what you allow to happen IN you as you respond to said happenings.

Be encouraged.

Life is not often fair. So what? You got thangs to do. Get to doing those things.

I CAN say that today’s happening has helped me to choose me and steer me towards doing something I had been hesitating doing for no other reason than fear. Ha!

Let’s go!

In case no one has told you today: I love you. So does He.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Recovery: Factory 🏭 reset.

My tv was cutting up. Acting a fool. Causing ME to act ten kinds of fool!

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, God. Stop messing with my tv!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I fussed.

I fumed.

I fussed AND fumed.

Finally, Yikes! and Egads! suggested I pull up some YouTube videos and see if I could figure out how TO GET MY BLASTED TV WORKING AGAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGG!

After a million videos and a bajillion million tries, I was FINALLY able to get it going.

How?

By doing a factory reset.

Who knew?!

It took a while. Finally, I could get back to my viewing pleasures. Ah, God.

This had/has me thinking about life and the fact that there are times when we need to do a factory reset on our stinking thinking. We need to pull the plug on all the old perspectives we have lived by that were based on nothing but the fears and anxt of family, friends and every other thing but what WE think/believe.

I have done several factory resets on my mindset. I have reset, refocused and reimagined my life and all it CAN be. STILL.

I’m 55. So what?

I don’t have much experience in what I truly desire to be doing. So what?

I don’t have a lover to hold onto when things go bump in the night. So what?

I am loved.

I am NOT alone.

Just those two things keeps me looking up and moving forward. Ah, Universe, I see you. See me back. Love me back.

asking for a friend(me),

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Carrying so much hope and dreams around gets heavy. So what?! I shall carry them til they be fulfilled. Let’s go, beloveds! We got thangs to do!!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Recovery: It’s okay to rest.

It’s okay to rest.

Nuff said.

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Okay, beloveds. Whatcha still doing here? You are supposed to be resting, remember? You have done enough. Let your try be enough. Asking for A Friend. It’s okay to rest. Get some.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Stop judging God by your outcomes.

God loves us.

Period.

Not just when we are good.

Not just when things are sunshine and rainbows.

Folk judge God, ofttimes by what they have or don’t have.

I have to admit I used to judge God based upon the results of my prayers. A check mark, to the good, for answered ones. I check on the ‘He didn’t’ row, for the nos or silent ones.

A check mark when things went well. A check mark when things went downhill.

A check mark when I got praise at work. A check mark when work was being too worky.

I sowwy, God. That was NOT fair of me.

God doesn’t owe me a thing. God does NOT have to do a blessed thing for me. God is NOT My Consierge. SMH. I sowwy, Father. You deserved better.

I hate that churches now tie God’s Prosperity to how much we give, serve, do. God loves and will do simply because He loves us and said He would. Period. End of story.

I have let God off the hook.

I have also let folk off the hook. No one owes me anything. I appreciate what folks choose to send my way. If not, I love them because I love. Period. End of story.

I am also learning not to judge Life and The Universe by outcomes. Just because things don’t turn out like I think they should, does NOT mean I am on the wrong track.

We rarely see the big picture. We are too busy fussing over the close ups!….hahahahahaha!

I’m also trying not to judge ME, beloveds, based upon my outcomes. I can be a tough crowd. I am trying not be such a tough critic. Ow, Cassandra! Back up off yourself!

I am trying to be good to me. No matter the outcome. You do the same, beloveds. You owe yourself better.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I have been beating myself up something terrible the past few days because of a lack of results. I sowwy, Cassandra. I am trying to do better. SMH. Be encouraged. Stop giving yourself such a hard time. Things are as they should be. Asking for A Friend.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

God gave me a 🍋 lemon meringue pie. 🥧

I have been angry with God lately. I keep yelling, er, telling Him I need 💵 money, but He keeps giving me other things instead.

It turns out that EVERY time He has done this, it has been the very thing I have NEEDED but not what I have asked for.

Thank God.

Thanks, God.

Ah, God.❤️‍🩹❤️

The other week, when I had secretly given up, I told God I no longer believed in ‘friends’. Not for me, anyway. Turns out, you find out who your current crop of friends are NOT when tough times truly roll in.

After one more hurtache, er, heartache, I told God no!

I was done. I was no longer waiting foolishly, expectantly, hopefully for a friend to stop by and BE a friend.

That very day, someone I had not heard from I’m forever, reached out via email.

Ha, I told God. He can have His Cosmic Joke! I was NOT going to open my heart.

I opened my heart and let care in.

Beloveds, life is short. Don’t shortsight or shortside your life by closing yourself off when God does not come through HOW you think He should.

Do NOT turn away the care of a long lost friend or  loved one. Don’t make the returner jump through hoops to earn your attention. Let their return be enough.

I keep praying for funds so my needs can be met. God keeps meeting my needs by giving me everything but 💰 money.

Ah.

Aha!

I desire money, IN THE 🏦, in order for me to control my shelter, my safety, and my bearings. Money can never do that.

Ah, God. You are Wise. Help me to trust when the road is long, step and unknown.

Be encouraged, beloveds.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: 🥧 ❤️‍🩹❤️🙏🥰

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

I am not strong: Life is an equal opportunity beatdown artist.

Life: 🥊 🥊!

Me: 🤡😱😡🍋❤️‍🩹🤗😳

Life: 🥊 🥊!

Me: Geeez.

Life: 🥊 🥊!

Me: ☕️🍩🙏🏋‍♀️🥊🥊👣❤️‍🩹❤️☕️📖🤐🙏🙏🎂

Life: Ow. I sowwy.

Don’t take it personal, beloveds. Life is an equal opportunity beatdown artist. Life doesn’t care how much you have, how old you are, how hard you work or try.

Life just does life. Period. We learn to roll with it, deal with it, LIVE within it, laugh in it, love in it, fight alongside it and fifty million other things.

I don’t know why life is not fair. You would think it should be. It’s not.

Life does not always or often, feels like, honor our dreams or our try.

God does. The Universe will. All we can do is to keep on keeping on. Life is not playing with me. I am NOT playing with life either!🥊🏋‍♀️🙏👣

I don’t know, beloveds. Perhaps God is allowing all this hard just so I can keep encouraging you and me.

I do know that I am going to keep using all this hard, all this what in the fresh hell is it now, along with all the unfair to keep uplifting others and myself.

This is all great faith practice. Anyone can claim faith when things are going well. The only way fait can be tested is for faith to be tested. Ow!

Be encouraged.

Keep going.

Keep growing.

Don’t allow the hard to steal your joy, your hope or your laughter.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Be encouraged. Ah, God. We tired of these stupid 🍋!!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Real talk: Don’t lay down on your 😡 mad.

I am 😡 mad.

Livid.

Angry.

Life is being super mean and lifery and I can either complain about it and give up or understand life just is NOT fair and keep it moving.

Angry, I snorted, fussed, fumed and pouted myself out of bed.

I made a cup of ☕ coffee.

I’m drinking said coffee and telling anger it has ten more minutes and then it is going to get the hell outta here as I have thangs to do and plan on having a fantastic tomorrow.

Why?

Because life is just too blasted short to remain angry over things we can do absolutely nothing about.

It hurts when life is being hurtful and we are unable to move from the spot The Universe has cleverly boxed us into.

Remain where you are, beloveds. Be angry, if needed. But be encouraged, have a cup of coffee ☕ and keep it moving. You got thangs to do.

I promised myself a few years ago that I would be sure to encourage others when I am being fought the most.

Why?

Because I need encouragement the most at those times and know how much it hurts to be ghosted, seemingly, by The Universe when life is just NOT being fair.

Hang in there.

asking for A Friend,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I have eight more minutes of mad time. Who wants to indulge with me and help me hurl more 🍋 at The Universe?😡❤️‍🩹❤️

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!