Tag: self-improvement

Goodbye, wombie. 😥

Beloveds, I sure hate to share this news…

My twin, my wombie, my friend was found deceased in her apartment yesterday. I just found out a few hours ago.

I think she was waiting for me to get through the first week of training. I KNEW something was wrong.

For months, for weeks I have done all I could, said all I could, prayed all I could, hoped all I could, loved on her all I could.

The bible says God won’t put on us more than we can bear. He surely must think I’m a tough old broad. Geeez, God.

I just stopped by to encourage someone. Starting with me. I can’t afford to take off the three days of bereavement leave. Perhaps, work will be a distraction.

Wombie is with mom now. Wow. Wow.

Don’t give up, beloveds. Life truly IS worth living. Even when it’s hard. Especially then.

I am standing on my faith. Just barely. Am sure I will be pissed off with wombie when the shock wears off. May tell off God a bit also. Could have waited until AFTER Christmas. Holy Jehoshaphat.

If there are ANY praying folk in here, a sister surely could use one or two or fifty. Condolence via email at ttnette37@yahoo.com would be of comfort but ONLY if done out of love and care and NOT guilt.

Life goes on. It has to. I have to. Sis would be holy hacked if I didn’t.

Dammit wombie. What in the actual fuck have you done? Yall going to have to forgive the swear word. I think God will understand, as well.

P.S. Britta, ask your mom to look after my twin for me. Fresh hell.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Wow, sis. What the f…?

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Love them through THEIR hard.

I learned a valuable lesson today.

Sis has been going through SOMETHING. I can hear it in her voice. I kept asking her “what’s wrong “? She keeps saying “nothing”.

My spidey senses wouldn’t let me leave her be. I kept calling. She kept saying she was fine. She stopped texting.

Initially, I magnanimously advised I was going to leave her be. Said she was being rude. Smh.

Today, God whispered for me to just love on her. He told me to take up the texting/yakking end and NOT allow HER silence to cause ME to withdraw and become silent.

See, beloveds, foolishness only wants us to join in and act a fool. Anger wants us to get angry regardless if we understand what’s going on.

Not knowing does NOT like not knowing. NOT knowing causes curiosity to get all up in it’s feelings. That’s why God tells us to just love folk.

We do NOT have to understand to love. Yes, it does help knowing where to pray and support.

Still, beloveds, can’t we simply love on folk when we see or sense they could use extra love, care, hope, laughter  prayer etc?

Must life ALWAYS be about US? Surely, not. I am doing my utmost to love folk UNCONDITIONALLY. I admit that I initially failed.

For a few moments, I allowed HER silence to cause ME to feel some kind of way. Just because my inner dialogue was admonishing me that my love wasn’t enough to make her speak.

I told those lies to shut up, already! I REFUSE to apply strings to my love and my care.

I hope someone can understand what I am desperate to convey.

Sis needs her silence. She also needs my love. Simple as that.

I love you, wombie. I’m here as best as I can be.

I share this with you, beloveds, in the hope that some may have their own lightbulb turned on. Love is NOT meant to be a business transaction.

Have an amazing weekend. Training this week has been something. More on that later. Geeeeeeeeeeeez.😳🥰🤣

Be encouraged. Love someone. Starting with you!

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I love you. Just cuz.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Keep standing ten toes down on FAITH.

No words for the hard of today.

In fact, even hard had to shrug.

EVERY corner had some what in the fresh hell is this within in.😳

What did I CHOOSE to do?

I turned on some praise music.

I prepared supper.

I prayed.

I thanked God.

I prayed some more.

I went over my gratefuls.

I was grateful.

I AM grateful.

For the hard.

For all the what in the fresh hell is this found in every corner.

For my hot supper.

For Thursday Night Football.

For God’s Promises that ALL things work together FOR my good and that NO weapon, formed against me, shall prosper.

With ALL the above, what the world do I have to be bothered about?

I just stopped by to encourage someone. Starting with me.

Oh, yea, I forgot to add the phone has decided NOT to dial out and I don’t have back up or landline. Hopefully, it will work itself out before work tomorrow.

Be encouraged. Do NOT waste your joy fretting over things that have ALREADY happened. What are you going to DO?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: We got this.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

It’s NOT over.

Your dreams are NOT over.

Your future is NOT over.

Calamity does NOT await you around every corner.

Beloveds, life truly is what YOU make it. YOU decide if you win. YOU decide if you lose.

YOU decide to move forward.  YOU decide whether to run back in fear.

Fear does NOT run you. Rather, it doesn’t have to. YOU decide how long fear shall have its say.

Be encouraged. You CAN. You WILL.

When, beloveds, will you truly begin to believe in YOU?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You got this.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Hang in there. Don’t worry about how many steps it takes.

I’m starting over with starting over. I’m starting to get my shape back in hell. Yeah, I know that sounds backwards. I feel backwards.

I took out the trash and went for a walk. The dumpster seemed like it was forever away. I fought discouragement every step. It felt good.

I just stopped by to encourage someone. Don’t worry about how many steps it takes. Just take the first one. And then another one. And then another one. Until you have reached your goal.

And even if you don’t reach your goal, you will still have won the race!

going with you,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Let’s Go!!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Life is not always about winning.

Life is not always about winning.

It’s not all about losing, either.

It’s about showing up.

It’s about being willing to never take the field and to be okay with not having taken the field.

It’s about cheering for the winners.

It’s about commiserating with the losers.

It’s about winning it all, on the final play.

It’s about losing everything, on the first hand.

It’s about being willing to be the goat, in the hope of being the hero.

It’s about handling the jeers, along with the cheers.

It’s about squeezing out EVERY moment, from EVERY moment.

It’s about practice.

It’s about potential.

It’s all about the possibilities.

Ah, beloveds, get in the game! Enjoy your life. Life is worth living. Even the hard parts. Especially, those ones!😁👍😎

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is short. Get out there and live.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

What are you doing with your HERE?

Life has led you HERE.

Hard has led you HERE.

The Universe has led you HERE.

God has led you HERE.

Disappointment has led you HERE.

Hope has led you HERE.

Discouragement has led you HERE.

Love has led you HERE.

The past has led you HERE.

The future has led you HERE.

Perseverance has led you HERE.

Giving up has led you HERE.

Anger has led you HERE.

Apathy has led you HERE.

You are HERE, beloveds. The how of it, the why of it, the when of it, the who of it, matters little now.

You ARE here. Right NOW. What are YOU going to DO with your HERE?

Life is what YOU make it. What are you making/creating/building/destroying?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: There are NO victims HERE, beloveds. WE decide. WE choose. WE SHALL make it. Be encouraged.

Keep looking UP. Keep moving FORWARD. We got this.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

What do I see(When I look at you)?

What do I see(When I look at you)?

I see the light in your eyes.

I see the love in your heart.

I see the goodness in your soul.

I see YOU, beloveds.

What do YOU see(When you look at me)?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Love one another. We are NOT transactions to be suffered through. We are NOT Mark’s to be taken advantage of. We are NOT thoughtless beasts with no room for growth, change, and love.

We ARE all:

Flawed.

Different.

Indifferent, at times.

Still, se are all we got. Yet, we are all we need…



One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

Let NOTHING keep you from feeding your spirit!

Let NOTHING keep you from feeding your spirit!

Nuff said,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Life is going to life. Hard times are going to be hard. Folks are going to hurt your feelings. You are going to do, say, and think some super stupid things that don’t and won’t serve you. So what?

Stop using those things to give you the excuse to comfort eat, quit, complain and all the super dumbsky things we do AND say, when going through things we don’t like.

Yada yada. Nada nada. Tell yourself you are going to get some act right. Then, beloveds, go on ahead and get some act right before God, Life, AND The Universe gives you the swift kick, to your behind, that you richly earned and deserved….hahahahahaahahahahahah. Ow, God, we sowwy…lol.

We got this. Let’s go get it. Let’s love someone. Starting with ourselves.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

All over again, ALL OVER AGAIN!😳

What do you DO, beloveds, when life makes you make lemon meringue from the lemonade you had to make, from the lemons life handed you?

I had to find out. In real time. Ack. Ick and Heckamiah Jeremiah!…*stamps foot*.

The job I was due to start on my birthday, has been pushed back to start December 1st.

BUT, I have to redo ALL the pre-onboarding stuff and pass all of it, AGAIN, and wait….AGAIN.

Then, I will have one more step to get through and THEN hope this contract will have not been yanked beneath me…again!😳

I admit it. These events through me for a loop. I lied to myself. I told myself I was fine. I attempted to be about being about it.

Then, I got mad.

At God.

At Life.

At The Universe.

At me.

At the stupid, blasted job.

Rinse.

Repeat.

I cried.

I pouted.

I pouted AND cried.

I fussed.

I tossed in the towel.

I tossed myself into bed.

I tossed and turned, in said bed.

Good habits told me to shut up all that noise and get back after it.

So what asked me “so what?”.

Boredom got bored watching me act the fool.

Act right told me to get some act right.

I agreed with boredom and act right and for to being about it!

I just stopped by to encourage someone. Starting with me.

Be encouraged.

Start again as many times as it takes.

Stuff happens. More stuff has happened. So what?! What are YOU going to DO about it, beloveds?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: We got this. Hard is not here to break you. Hard is here to get across to your hard headed self that you can, that you will, and that you are so much more than you give yourself credit for.

Now, stop pouting at the hand you have been dealt and enjoy the game!

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!