My nerves are all over the place.
Specifically, my nerves have me running to the 🚽 bathroom several times today.
My stomach has given me all kinds of what in the fresh hell is THIS, as I fight with 🧓 old, comfort, lack, 😱 fear and doubt, as I work on my new YouTube channel, Substack Newsletter, while trying to find a new job at 56.
56!
Who wants to hear from an 🧓 old lady?!
Who wants to hire an 🧓 lady???!!!
How in the name of all things do I start over again, again, at 56??!!!
I STILL do not know the difference between uploading, exporting, downloading, extracting, layering, grouping, ungrouping and all the other strange ings and hoops one has to jump through in order to produce a video.
Who knew that YOU actually have to MAKE said video?! 😳
I thought there was somewhere you could go to double-click something and a high quality video or article would magically appear for all to be astounded by.
Cut me some slack, please and thanks. I have only gotten beyond the flip 📱 phone phase five years ago.
Before that, I had to have my niece do what needed done. Forget about teaching it to me! Yikes! Egads! For both our sakes, I learned to hand her the phone, and explain how I needed this thingie to do that thing, and leave her to figure out what the world I needed.
Thankfully, my niece understood how to speak ‘old lady’. I just had to tolerate multiple sighs, eye rolls and exasperated “TTs!” in order to get the job down.
You have NO idea how I mourned when she moved away.
Who will program my phone?!
Who will get my thingies to work?!
More importantly, who will take out the trash?!!!!
Sadly, I had to learn to do things for myself. Thank goodness for Google and YouTube videos. I am married to both, seeking them out when I need to do this, that, and the other thing.
asking for A Friend,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: My nerves has been all over the place. I no longer allow them to control my life. I am using them as a sign that something needs to be tended to.
I’m doing my best to grow every single day. Some days I feel like I’ve grown a lot. Some days there seems to be more weeds than plants…lol.
I’m doing what I love. I wanna keep doing that until I leave here. In the mean time, I am praying about what I can do to. Keep the roof over my head. I must admi, I’m a bit tired of doing so. This too shall pass. I hope sooner rather than later…
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
- COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
- REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS.👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢
Why Can't I Be Loud?! 