Disappointed but not a disappointment.

Ah, crap.

Ah, God.

Fresh hell!

I finally, FINALLY, got a legitimate job inquiry. I had to do an initial assessment. Then, had to do an A1 assessment, in hopes of getting in front of a live person, initially via phone.

To my dismay, I appear to have picked up a stomach bug or eaten something that had me running to the bathroom ALL day….geeeeez.

I need to complete my assessment.

I didn’t feel well. I shouldn’t have taken the assessment when I did. I wanted to get it over with.

I got it over with. It didn’t go well, or so I thought. I was filled with such disappointment. Could I take me a full year to get a legitimate chance to take an assessment.

I felt like a failure. I felt like a big fat zero. I didn’t feel like a hero. I didn’t feel as if I would ever win again. I felt like a loser.

I picked up my chin from the floor and began again. I applied to dozens more jobs. I was asked to take another assessment. Crap.

A week later. I will see. The congratulatory email advised me. I have passed the assessment. I thought I had failed. I was told to move on to the next assessment. This time fear went with me.

I hesitated to start the assessment. I did not want to fail. I did not want to experience yet another disappointment. They were just too damn disappointing.

I found the courage to try. I took the assessments. Now I wait. I’m satisfied. I did the best that way. That’s all I can ask for myself.

Don’t allow your disappointment to let you quit. Quitting cannot be an option. I had to tell myself to get up. I had to tell myself to keep looking up. I had to tell myself to keep moving forward.

What we experience in life is what we choose. I choose to keep believing in my try. I choose to keep believing in me. Action used to keep believing in the goodness of man. I choose to keep believing in love.

Life hurts sometimes. It’s also worth living. I just stopped by to encourage somebody. Starting with me. Be encouraged.

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Quitting can never be our option. We have much too much to do. Let’s go.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

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