Beloveds, please allow me to be completely candid with you.
Truth be told, I almost didn’t tell the WHOLE truth. God told me to share some things with you.
I told Him no. My twin had just died. Work was ridiculously hard. Christmas was coming and ALL those things had set off a tsunami, a tornado, and an earthquake in my heart.
Beloveds, I was tired. I AM tired. Yet, I have to find the strength, the fortitude to gry through this work week so I can have TIME to actually grieve for my twin. I don’t have time yet. I can NOT, I dare not, unleash the torrent of tears waiting for me.
Tears and me have a pact: Tears will hold off and allow me to get to Friday. I promise to do my best to get through Christmas Eve AND Christmas WITHOUT losing my mind. I promise to watch football with twin, now in heaven, and NOT spend the day angry with her for leaving.
I feel like such the failure. Feel like I failed sis. I KNOW I loved her best as I could…*sigh*. Crapola.
Anywho, God asked me to share with you that the pieces, talking about failure, was started BEFORE sis passed away.
A few were done. A few not. I won’t say which is which. I bet some shrewd folk may be able to tell…*sigh*.😳
I’m just trying to do as asked and finish up these pieces dealing with failure. Who knew that I would be the one in biggest need of them.
Ah.
Aha!
thinking that God sure did think He is/was slick,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: Ah, beloveds. What do I DO with me now? I don’t know how to grieve THIS loss. If someone could show me, I would greatly appreciate it.
I am currently jamming on some praise music. My heart to content to grieve just now…hhmm?
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
- REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS.👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢
- IT ME!
Why Can't I Be Loud?! 