Category: Song

I am no longer afraid of me.

I am no longer afraid.

I am no longer afraid of me.

I am no longer afraid of my dreams.

Afraid?

Afraid not!

Not anymore.

free,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I used to be afraid, beloveds. Afraid, I couldn’t. Afraid, I wouldn’t. Afraid, I would and would then disappoint everyone.

Not anymore. For, I have learned to call failure my friend. Failure has shown me I am NOT my mistakes. Failure laughs at me and urges me to try again. And again. Still again. Until? Why, until I have mastered the thing! Or, til it has mastered me.😄

Don’t be afraid to fail. Laugh and keep it moving. We got thangs to do! This world would have you chasing clout and things. Ha! You don’t need clout and things to matter. You are already priceless!

Be encouraged. Don’t give up yet. Your time is coming. Until then, help someone else through their hard. You had best believe you are loved and not alone.

I run no more.

I run no more.

I hide no more.

I cry no more.

I retreat no more.

I concede no more.

I run from life no more.

I hide from me no more.

I cry about hard no more.

I retreat from The Universe no more.

I consede my dreams to the world no more.

I run towards.

I fight on.

I rejoice.

I am safe.

I am loved.

I run no more.

Ah.

Aha!

free and running no more,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Keep going. Keep embracing the hard. Keep walking your own path. It’s okay to get tired. Is it’s okay to be afraid of the unknown. Move past your fear. Enjoy the journey. It will be worth it in the end. Don’t worry about how long it’s going to take. Don’t worry about the fact that you may never get there. Enjoy the life you are building. Let others enjoy your life with you. Life is short.

Have an awesome week. Remember that you are love than you are not alone. Remember to love on you today. And tomorrow. And the day after that.

Ah, life.

Ah, life.

Thanks for being sooooooooooooo hard, lately.

You have forced me to:

Fight for my dreams.

Speak to The Universe.

Be honest with God.

Face my fears.

Admit my sad.

Because of that, I have been able to BE:

Honest.

Afraid.

Sad.

Because of THAT:

I am free!

I am me!

Ah.

Aha!

free and sad no more,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Am enjoying my birthday weekend, still. Have paused enough to give you a slice of cheesecake and some:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Ah, God.

Ah, God.

Thank YOU for wiping MY day and remaking Your Way.

I used to get mad at You.

For:

Not letting me have my way.

Not answering my every prayer.

Not keeping me from the messes I made.

Not leaving mom here.

Leaving me here without mom.

Telling me I could when I was sure I could/would not.

Not showing me how.

Forcing me to get to know me.

Ah, God.

I am grateful for:

The hard.

Your Silence when I craved your voice alone.

Leaving me alone when I was desperate for company.

Ah, God.

I apologize for:

Not believing You when You said I could.

Not believing enough in my try.

Not believing I could.

Ah, God.

I believe…

I will try.

Ah.

Aha!

believing in me,

Cassandra aka 25 and holding…

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: To be continued…

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Factory reset: Happy accidents.

I love it when God gives me a happy accident!

That’s what I call it when unexpected and supposed bad/hard/dumb things turn out to be wonderful and for our good.

My goofness of accidentally wiping out my apps, led me to trying new ones. I found a movie I probably would never have seen.

It’s called ‘A Good Person.’ I’m still watching it. I paused to reach out to you to say this:

Life happens. Sometimes, we happen to our lives. In ways not always helpful. Yet, those happenings can STILL work for our good. IF, we are willing to forgive and move on.

Maybe, you have someone(s) to forgive? You? Them? God? Life? The Universe? A friend? A Friend? A foe?

Maybe, just maybe, you can allow a factory reset, in your heart??

Maybe??

Forgiveness does NOT mean you don’t understand the gravity. You do. Forgiveness simply means an open heart that says it’s not alright but it is okay. I forgive. I choose to love. I choose to move forward.

I have asked 54 year old me, for forgiveness. For not trusting her more. For not allowing her out of the box I had kept her in for decades.

54 said it wasn’t alright but is now okay. Life moves on, 54 said. Said 55 and counting needs me. Said for me to never look back as she is okay. Her time is done. 55 awaits, she said. Go!

I go, now. But, before I do, I pause and invite yall to come with me. We have lives to LIVE, don’t we?

Let’s go!

going/growing with you,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: 55 has a lot to say. All I want to do on my birthday is to tell as many folks as I can:

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

Don’t be afraid of change.

Don’t be afraid of change.

Don’t be afraid to make mistakes.

You are not a mistake.

Your dreams are worthy.

You are enough.

Tell yourself these things, beloveds, when the world tries to dismiss you. Don’t agree with the world. The world has no idea how mighty you are. The world shall find out soon!

When life takes you in an unexpected direction, enjoy the journey.

Life is short. Enjoy your day. All of it. Squeeze out every ounce of joy you can find. Make some room for newness in your life. Don’t be afraid to be deliciously vulnerable. Don’t be afraid to admit when you are afraid.

Keep going.

We got thangs to do.

doing thangs,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: You CAN. You WILL. You are loved. You are NOT alone. Keep on being… YOU

55: Okay then…

Okayyyyyyyyyyyy then….

Oooooppsss….

Hhhmmm….

*scratches head*

Okay, so….

Well crapola!!!

Wwhhhhhyyyyyyyy, Cassandra!

God: You probably should have turned on the lights BEFORE you accidentally deleted your streaming apps from your Smart 📺 TV.

Me: Apparently my Smart TV 📺 ain’t too smart!….*stamps foot*

Smart 📺 TV: Hey! I TOLD you to turn on the lights!

Jesus: Yea, Cassandra, you were so advised. You had cheesecake on the brain.

The Universe: Speaking of which, who is down for cheesecake since Cassandra wiped out the streaming apps from the Smart TV 📺. Which I thought was really smart. Smh. Great job. I was looking forward to movie morning.

Me: Hey! Way to kick a sista whilst she is down. On her double nickle day, no less…*pout *

CHEESECAKE! CHEESECAKE!

The sounds of CHEESECAKE CHEESECAKE was so loud it shook Cassandra out of bed and towards the fridge…

Huh?

What yall want?

Can you have some cheesecake?

Sure.

*Cassandra turns on some music and invites one ad all to 🎉 celebrate 55 years of life with her*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Cassandra

#HereForIt

#ItsMyBirthday!

#55

55: Happy birthday, Cassandra.

Tada!

She is here!

Double nickles!

55!

💥🤸‍♀️🎵🎶🎹🎸🪗🎷🥁🪘🪇🪈

Happy birthday to me…hehe

25 and holding,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Ehem, it’s MY birthday! I have the day off. Yall ought be showering me with notes and we’ll wishes…hint.

Have been having a blast! Stayed up ALL night watching football and shows. Fixing to enjoy cheesecake and coffee before 6 am!🤷‍♀️

Yall behave and remember to love one another. Remind each other how very priceless your lives are. Be sure to remember:

You are loved. You are NOT alone!

Ow, God!

Ow, God!

Oh, God!

Whew!

God has been squeezing me like toothpaste!

All day.

ALL day.

Asking me to:

Feel.

Feel?

Feel!

Dammit.

I don’t have time to feel. I just want to be there, already. Where ever the heck The Universe has been cajoling me to!

Ow!

Being asked to look into me has been:

Discombobulating.

Interesting.

Horrifyingly interesting and discombobulating.

I am thankful. I have been able to be vulnerable and safe and ooey and gooey.

Life is short. I have been feeling the winds of change all up in my hind end😂.

Don’t be afraid, beloveds, when your heart says ow, as The Universe stretches you and enlarges your borders.

Don’t hide. Let folk in. Let folk love you IN REAL TIME.

Stop feeling like your feelings are a burden. They are not. YOU are NOT a burden, beloveds. It can be hard not to feel like one.

I’m going to admit to something I had never thought about until just now:

I have spent the majority of my life ministering to the world. Instead of living my life and enjoying it.

Yes, I enjoy encouraging folk.

Yes, I enjoy helping folk.

Yes, I enjoy supporting folk.

Yet, I don’t know that I have allowed folk to encourage, help, support and love me IN REAL TIME.

No more, God said. It’s time, beloveds, for us to take down all the walls that keep us from experiencing life and love. I am on Day 1 of that.

How about you?

living in real time,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: It’s time.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being… YOU

In the meantime: Cut yourself some slack.

It’s cold.

I’m tired.

I want to tell try to kick rocks.

I want to tell b eabout it to be about it, without me.

I don’t do those things.

Why?

Because I got thangs to do.

Thangs won’t get done without my try.

Cut yourself some slack, beloveds. There will be days when you just don’t want to. Do so anyway. You got thangs to do.

In the meantime, start being more gentle with yourself. You are not a failure just because things are not working out at the moment. You will get there some kind of way. We all will.

In the meantime, just keep doing the best you can. Don’t live in your feelings. Feelings can lie to us. Feelings, at times, like to go on and on about gloom and doom. I tell feelings to shut up, quite a hit. Stop being soooooooooooooooo dramatic!

He left.

So what?

It didn’t work out the way you thought.

So what?

You weren’t selected.

So what?

You never married.

So what?

You didn’t go there.

So what?

Those things have already happened. What purpose, does it serve, lamenting all the coulda/shoulda/wouldas? They DIDN’T! They DID!

Move on.

Move forward.

Move!

*Cassandra turns from the mirror, and moves on with the rest of her life*

doing thangs,

Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: Cut yourself some slack, beloveds. Nuff said!

You are loved. You are NOT alone. Keep on being you.