Today, I feel like a big nobody. I feel as though my dreams would never happen. The more I research on the probabilities of bringing my dreams into fruition, the more discouraged I become.
Less than 1% make it. I’ve never been in that one percent.
I feel 100 years old today. I didn’t allow my sad to run today. I made my sad take out the trash. Looking around at the devastation that still remained from last year’s tornado was really depressing.
I sat in the car and jotted some notes to some pieces I wanted to write to encourage others. Normally, sitting in my car is a joyful experience. Today, it reminded me of the day right before the tornado touchdown.
It was a beautiful day that day. I had taken myself out to eat. I had sat in my car and dreamed of my future. I had no idea that my present was about to be a true nightmare.
I’ve been trying to rebuild ever since. I find myself overwhelmed today. I don’t know why.
Okay. I really do know why. I used the last of my savings to pay next month’s rent. I have no idea what I would do about September. I don’t know what life holds for me for the rest of the year. I’m trying not to allow that to scare me.
I keep telling myself to live in the present. The present seems awfully terrified right now.
I refuse to give in to the helpless feeling that I will never make it in my dreams will never come true.
I checked on the status of the last video I posted and received no views. I tried my best not to become discouraged.
I just stopped by to let you know that you are somebody to me. I hope that means something to somebody. My try is feeling awfully discouraged today. Normally, I don’t focus on the outcome. My empty bank account says I have to. My heart says not to do that. My spirit says everything will be okay.
Everything really will be okay. Everything will work out as it is meant to. We just don’t know the outcome. Not yet.
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: I love you.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
- COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
- REAL TALK: DESPISE NOT SMALL BEGINNINGS, BELOVEDS.👘🦺🥾👟🥿👞🩴👢🩰👡⛑️🔌🕯️🔎🖌️🖋️📢
Why Can't I Be Loud?! 