X marks the spot: Why am I HERE?

Why am I HERE?

WHY, am I here?

Right here?

Doing this? Whatever the hell THIS currently is.

I get up. I wander around. I gather the scrapings left from the bus that ran over my face late last year.

I look at this life called me and laugh. What in the fresh hell is THIS? What, in the name of all that is holy, did God leave me HERE, at this time, at this spot, at this moment?

Crapola. God knows I enjoy a good mystery. Now, I have to stick around and find out. You got jokes, God. But, nothing is funny, at the moment. What do I DO with me now?

asking for A Friend,
Cassandra

#YourLifeMattersToMe

Note: I want to tell the whole world to kick rocks. I want to hide, in this pain, forever. I want this hurt to punish me for not being there, at the end, for my twin. Her last hours were spent without me there. Just like mom.

I don’t understand why life has me HERE when everything happened over THERE!

I made a promise to myself that I would encourage others at my toughest moments. Why? Because, I could not imagine how folks, with little or no hope, made it through tough times.

I see glimpses of me, mixed in with all this grief. I see smudges of sunlight and hope. I’m trying to figure out HOW to get there.

In the meantime, beloveds, I turn on the light. I make a cup of coffee. I get out of bed.

Beloveds, if you are struggling just now, get out of bed.  DO something. Anything. Take out the trash.

Whatever you do, do NOT allow yourself to stay in a dark and unproductive place.

See, loss is just testing you. Loss wants to show you, well, YOU. Loss brings out the REAL us.

Loss speaks to the heart of us. Loss asks us who/what we think we are:

Loss: How much are you worth? Who is going to love you now that I have taken everything? Has any of your efforts meant anything apart from what you can and have given?

Beloveds, we are here to provide more than a paycheck to the world. We are more than a paycheck.

At my lowest moments, sis ALWAYS encouraged me to keep trying. Sis let me know how much I meant to her and others.

I just stopped by to encourage someone who was wondering WHY they are HERE.

I don’t know your HERE. I’m sure it’s being a pain. I DO know we SHALL get past HERE. How do I know? Cuz, God has sent us over THERE. We can’t get THERE til we finish up HERE.😎🧱🎯

Be encouraged. Hang in there.

One step.

One step.

One step.

You are loved.

You are NOT alone.

Keep on being…YOU!

• THE HAND FROM HEAVEN ✋🏾☁️🧻🤣
• COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️‍🩹
• BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
• Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
• Still In Love