I’m watching Rocky Balboa.
As usual, he gets beat up most of the time and then comes back at the end.
I feel like Rocky, I have been getting pounded lately.
Ow!
Still, I fight on.
Why? Because, God whispered something to me the other day. He said that He knew THIS would happen way back then. So, I can do THIS now.
Ah.
Aha!
I don’t want to do THIS, beloveds. I don’t want to live through THIS. THIS is just too damned hard. Crapola. Heckamiah Jeremiah!
I’m giving it my all. Still, beloveds, I don’t know HOW to get over THIS mountain. I don’t know HOW to do THIS, without mom, without sis.
Beloveds, how in the fresh hell do I DO my THIS?
How?
I can’t even use anger to get through THIS. Life won’t allow it. God reminds me trying to get through THIS using anger, will do nothing but allow anger to choke off all the love, joy, peace, laughter and life still waiting for me.
Holy Toledo.
Ah, God, how do I get through THIS.
The ONE thing that gives me hope is the knowledge that God KNEW THIS time was waiting for me. He has been waiting for me. Right HERE. Right NOW. Waiting, right here, when I thought He had ran off and left me. He had simply ran up ahead to lay down as many pillows as He could get His Hands on.
All around I see nothing but hard. Yet, in the midst of the hard, I see His Hand Made Pillows. Stitched with His Love. Sewn, carefully, by His Shaky Hands. Bathed, with His Tears.
Beloveds, I just stopped by to encouraged someone. Starting with me. I’m not telling you to pretend your hard is not breaking you. It is. It is revealing the diamond, the gold, the precious resilience buried deep within you.
Now, I don’t know, beloveds, why the hard has to be THIS hard. I DO know the hard can be overcome.
Keep going. Keep moving FORWARD. You are NOT alone. You never have been. I love me some you. As does He.
praying for us all,
Cassandra
#YourLifeMattersToMe
Note: There is so much more for us, beloveds. How do I know? Cuz, we still here!
I know it feels as though you have lost too much to continue. You have not. You won’t find out this is true if you quit now.
One step.
One step.
One step.
You are loved.
You are NOT alone.
Keep on being…YOU!
- THE HAND FROM HEAVEN ✋🏾☁️🧻🤣
- COME SIT AT MY TABLE 🪑❤️🩹
- BELOVEDS, YOU CAN HAVE MY FLOWERS. I DON’T NEED THEM ANYMORE.
- Forgive them, Cassandra, God said to me
- Still In Love
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